A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man. Джеймс Джойс

dark face, saw that it was a little red from the wax he was in.

      Was that a sin for Father Arnall to be in a wax or was he allowed to get into a wax when the boys were idle because that made them study better or was he only letting on to be in a wax? It was because he was allowed, because a priest would know what a sin was and would not do it. But if he did it one time by mistake what would he do to go to confession? Perhaps he would go to confession to the minister. And if the minister did it he would go to the rector: and the rector to the provincial: and the provincial to the general of the jesuits. That was called the order: and he had heard his father say that they were all clever men. They could all have become highup people in the world if they had not become jesuits. And he wondered what Father Arnall and Paddy Barrett would have become and what Mr McGlade and Mr Gleeson would have become if they had not become jesuits. It was hard to think what because you would have to think of them in a different way with different coloured coats and trousers and with beards and moustaches and different kinds of hats.

      The door opened quietly and closed. A quick whisper ran through the class: the prefect of studies. There was an instant of dead silence and then the loud crack of a pandybat on the last desk. Stephen’s heart leapt up in fear.

      — Any boys want flogging here, Father Arnall? cried the prefect of studies. Any lazy idle loafers that want flogging in this class?

      He came to the middle of the class and saw Fleming on his knees.

      — Hoho! he cried. Who is this boy? Why is he on his knees? What is your name, boy?

      — Fleming, sir.

      — Hoho, Fleming! An idler of course. I can see it in your eye. Why is he on his knees, Father Arnall?

      — He wrote a bad Latin theme, Father Arnall said, and he missed all the questions in grammar.

      — Of course he did! cried the prefect of studies, of course he did! A born idler! I can see it in the corner of his eye.

      He banged his pandybat down on the desk and cried:

      — Up, Fleming! Up, my boy!

      Fleming stood up slowly.

      — Hold out! cried the prefect of studies.

      Fleming held out his hand. The pandybat came down on it with a loud smacking sound: one, two, three, four, five, six.

      — Other hand!

      The pandybat came down again in six loud quick smacks.

      — Kneel down! cried the prefect of studies.

      Fleming knelt down, squeezing his hands under his armpits, his face contorted with pain, but Stephen knew how hard his hands were because Fleming was always rubbing rosin into them. But perhaps he was in great pain for the noise of the pandies was terrible. Stephen’s heart was beating and fluttering.

      — At your work, all of you! shouted the prefect of studies. We want no lazy idle loafers here, lazy idle little schemers. At your work, I tell you. Father Dolan will be in to see you every day. Father Dolan will be in tomorrow.

      He poked one of the boys in the side with his pandybat, saying:

      — You, boy! When will Father Dolan be in again?

      — Tomorrow, sir, said Tom Furlong’s voice.

      — Tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow, said the prefect of studies. Make up your minds for that. Every day Father Dolan. Write away. You, boy, who are you?

      Stephen’s heart jumped suddenly.

      — Dedalus, sir.

      — Why are you not writing like the others?

      — I… my…

      He could not speak with fright.

      — Why is he not writing, Father Arnall?

      — He broke his glasses, said Father Arnall, and I exempted him from work.

      — Broke? What is this I hear? What is this your name is? said the prefect of studies.

      — Dedalus, sir.

      — Out here, Dedalus. Lazy little schemer. I see schemer in your face. Where did you break your glasses?

      Stephen stumbled into the middle of the class, blinded by fear and haste.

      — Where did you break your glasses? repeated the prefect of studies.

      — The cinderpath, sir.

      — Hoho! The cinderpath! cried the prefect of studies. I know that trick.

      Stephen lifted his eyes in wonder and saw for a moment Father Dolan’s whitegrey not young face, his baldy whitegrey head with fluff at the sides of it, the steel rims of his spectacles and his nocoloured eyes looking through the glasses. Why did he say he knew that trick?

      — Lazy idle little loafer! cried the prefect of studies. Broke my glasses! An old schoolboy trick! Out with your hand this moment!

      Stephen closed his eyes and held out in the air his trembling hand with the palm upwards. He felt the prefect of studies touch it for a moment at the fingers to straighten it and then the swish of the sleeve of the soutane as the pandybat was lifted to strike. A hot burning stinging tingling blow like the loud crack of a broken stick made his trembling hand crumple together like a leaf in the fire: and at the sound and the pain scalding tears were driven into his eyes. His whole body was shaking with fright, his arm was shaking and his crumpled burning livid hand shook like a loose leaf in the air. A cry sprang to his lips, a prayer to be let off. But though the tears scalded his eyes and his limbs quivered with pain and fright he held back the hot tears and the cry that scalded his throat.

      — Other hand! shouted the prefect of studies.

      Stephen drew back his maimed and quivering right arm and held out his left hand. The soutane sleeve swished again as the pandybat was lifted and a loud crashing sound and a fierce maddening tingling burning pain made his hand shrink together with the palms and fingers in a livid quivering mass. The scalding water burst forth from his eyes and, burning with shame and agony and fear, he drew back his shaking arm in terror and burst out into a whine of pain. His body shook with a palsy of fright and in shame and rage he felt the scalding cry come from his throat and the scalding tears falling out of his eyes and down his flaming cheeks.

      — Kneel down, cried the prefect of studies.

      Stephen knelt down quickly pressing his beaten hands to his sides. To think of them beaten and swollen with pain all in a moment made him feel so sorry for them as if they were not his own but someone else’s that he felt sorry for. And as he knelt, calming the last sobs in his throat and feeling the burning tingling pain pressed into his sides, he thought of the hands which he had held out in the air with the palms up and of the firm touch of the prefect of studies when he had steadied the shaking fingers and of the beaten swollen reddened mass of palm and fingers that shook helplessly in the air.

      — Get at your work, all of you, cried the prefect of studies from the door. Father Dolan will be in every day to see if any boy, any lazy idle little loafer wants flogging. Every day. Every day.

      The door closed behind him.

      The hushed class continued to copy out the themes. Father Arnall rose from his seat and went among them, helping the boys with gentle words and telling them the mistakes they had made. His voice was very gentle and soft. Then he returned to his seat and said to Fleming and Stephen:

      — You may return to your places, you two.

      Fleming and Stephen rose and, walking to their seats, sat down. Stephen, scarlet with shame, opened a book quickly with one weak hand and bent down upon it, his face close to the page.

      It was unfair and cruel because the doctor had told him not to read without glasses and he had written home to his father that morning to send him a new pair. And Father Arnall had said that he need not study till the new glasses came. Then to be called a schemer before the class and to be pandied when he always got the card for first