MOTHER (Russian Literature Classic). Максим Горький

understood the life of his mother, and spoke the truth about her and her sufferings, and pitied her.

      Mothers are not pitied. She knew it. She did not understand Pavel when speaking about matters not pertaining to herself, but all he said about her own woman's existence was bitterly familiar and true. Hence it seemed to her that every word of his was perfectly true, and her bosom throbbed with a gentle sensation which warmed it more and more with an unknown, kindly caress.

      "What do you want to do, then?" she asked, interrupting his speech.

      "Study and then teach others. We workingmen must study. We must learn, we must understand why life is so hard for us."

      It was sweet to her to see that his blue eyes, always so serious and stern, now glowed with warmth, softly illuminating something new within him. A soft, contented smile played around her lips, although the tears still trembled in the wrinkles of her face. She wavered between two feelings: pride in her son who desired the good of all people, had pity for all, and understood the sorrow and affliction of life; and the involuntary regret for his youth, because he did not speak like everybody else, because he resolved to enter alone into a fight against the life to which all, including herself, were accustomed.

      She wanted to say to him: "My dear, what can you do? People will crush you. You will perish."

      But it was pleasant to her to listen to his speeches, and she feared to disturb her delight in her son, who suddenly revealed himself so new and wise, even if somewhat strange.

      Pavel saw the smile around his mother's lips, the attention in her face, the love in her eyes; and it seemed to him that he compelled her to understand his truth; and youthful pride in the power of his word heightened his faith in himself. Seized with enthusiasm, he continued to talk, now smiling, now frowning. Occasionally hatred sounded in his words; and when his mother heard its bitter, harsh accents she shook her head, frightened, and asked in a low voice:

      "Is it so, Pasha?"

      "It is so!" he answered firmly. And he told her about people who wanted the good of men, and who sowed truth among them; and because of this the enemies of life hunted them down like beasts, thrust them into prisons, and exiled them, and set them to hard labor.

      "I have seen such people!" he exclaimed passionately. "They are the best people on earth!"

      These people filled the mother with terror, and she wanted to ask her son: "Is it so, Pasha?"

      But she hesitated, and leaning back she listened to the stories of people incomprehensible to her, who taught her son to speak and think words and thoughts so dangerous to him. Finally she said:

      "It will soon be daylight. You ought to go to bed. You've got to go to work."

      "Yes, I'll go to bed at once," he assented. "Did you understand me?"

      "I did," she said, drawing a deep breath. Tears rolled down from her eyes again, and breaking into sobs she added: "You will perish, my son!"

      Pavel walked up and down the room.

      "Well, now you know what I am doing and where I am going. I told you all. I beg of you, mother, if you love me, do not hinder me!"

      "My darling, my beloved!" she cried, "maybe it would be better for me not to have known anything!"

      He took her hand and pressed it firmly in his. The word "mother," pronounced by him with feverish emphasis, and that clasp of the hand so new and strange, moved her.

      "I will do nothing!" she said in a broken voice. "Only be on your guard! Be on your guard!" Not knowing what he should be on his guard against, nor how to warn him, she added mournfully: "You are getting so thin."

      And with a look of affectionate warmth, which seemed to embrace his firm, well-shaped body, she said hastily, and in a low voice:

      "God be with you! Live as you want to. I will not hinder you. One thing only I beg of you—do not speak to people unguardedly! You must be on the watch with people; they all hate one another. They live in greed and envy; all are glad to do injury; people persecute out of sheer amusement. When you begin to accuse them and to judge them, they will hate you, and will hound you to destruction!"

      Pavel stood in the doorway listening to the melancholy speech, and when the mother had finished he said with a smile:

      "Yes, people are sorry creatures; but when I came to recognize that there is truth in the world, people became better." He smiled again and added: "I do not know how it happened myself! From childhood I feared everybody; as I grew up I began to hate everybody, some for their meanness, others—well, I do not know why—just so! And now I see all the people in a different way. I am grieved for them all! I cannot understand it; but my heart turned softer when I recognized that there is truth in men, and that not all are to blame for their foulness and filth."

      He was silent as if listening to something within himself. Then he said in a low voice and thoughtfully:

      "That's how truth lives."

      She looked at him tenderly.

      "May God protect you!" she sighed. "It is a dangerous change that has come upon you."

      When he had fallen asleep, the mother rose carefully from her bed and came gently into her son's room. Pavel's swarthy, resolute, stern face was clearly outlined against the white pillow. Pressing her hand to her bosom, the mother stood at his bedside. Her lips moved mutely, and great tears rolled down her cheeks.

      CHAPTER III

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      Again they lived in silence, distant and yet near to each other. Once, in the middle of the week, on a holiday, as he was preparing to leave the house he said to his mother:

      "I expect some people here on Saturday."

      "What people?" she asked.

      "Some people from our village, and others from the city."

      "From the city?" repeated the mother, shaking her head. And suddenly she broke into sobs.

      "Now, mother, why this?" cried Pavel resentfully. "What for?"

      Drying her face with her apron, she answered quietly:

      "I don't know, but it is the way I feel."

      He paced up and down the room, then halting before her, said:

      "Are you afraid?"

      "I am afraid," she acknowledged. "Those people from the city—who knows them?"

      He bent down to look in her face, and said in an offended tone, and, it seemed to her, angrily, like his father:

      "This fear is what is the ruin of us all. And some dominate us; they take advantage of our fear and frighten us still more. Mark this: as long as people are afraid, they will rot like the birches in the marsh. We must grow bold; it is time!

      "It's all the same," he said, as he turned from her; "they'll meet in my house, anyway."

      "Don't be angry with me!" the mother begged sadly. "How can I help being afraid? All my life I have lived in fear!"

      "Forgive me!" was his gentler reply, "but I cannot do otherwise," and he walked away.

      For three days her heart was in a tremble, sinking in fright each time she remembered that strange people were soon to come to her house. She could not picture them to herself, but it seemed to her they were terrible people. It was they who had shown her son the road he was going.

      On Saturday night Pavel came from the factory, washed himself, put on clean clothes, and when walking out of the house said to his mother without looking at her:

      "When they come, tell them I'll be back soon. Let them wait a while. And please don't be afraid. They are people like all other people."