The Odd Women (Feminist Classic). George Gissing

could you possibly say that would offend me?’

      ‘In the old days you told me all about your circumstances. Are they still the same?’

      ‘Precisely the same. Most happily, we have never needed to entrench upon our capital. Whatever happens, we must avoid that — whatever happens!’

      ‘I quite understand you. But wouldn’t it be possible to make a better use of that money? It is eight hundred pounds, I think? Have you never thought of employing it in some practical enterprise?’

      Virginia at first shrank in alarm, then trembled deliciously at her friend’s bold views.

      ‘Would it be possible? Really? You think —’

      ‘I can only suggest, of course. One mustn’t argue about others from one’s own habit of thought. Heaven forbid’— this sounded rather profane to the listener —‘that I should urge you to do anything you would think rash. But how much better if you could somehow secure independence.’

      ‘Ah, if we could! The very thing we were saying the other day! But how? I have no idea how.’

      Miss Nunn seemed to hesitate.

      ‘I don’t advise. You mustn’t give any weight to what I say, except in so far as your own judgment approves it. But couldn’t one open a preparatory school, for instance? At Weston, suppose, where already you know a good many people. Or even at Clevedon.’

      Virginia drew in her breath, and it was easy for Miss Nunn to perceive that the proposal went altogether beyond her friend’s scope. Impossible, perhaps, to inspire these worn and discouraged women with a particle of her own enterprise. Perchance they altogether lacked ability to manage a school for even the youngest children. She did not press the subject; it might come up on another occasion. Virginia begged for time to think it over; then, remembering her invalid sister, felt that she must not prolong the visit.

      ‘Do take some of these flowers,’ said Miss Nunn, collecting a rich nosegay from the vases. ‘Let them be my message to your sister. And I should be so glad to see Monica. Sunday is a good time; I am always at home in the afternoon.’

      With a fluttering heart Virginia made what haste she could homewards. The interview had filled her with a turmoil of strange new thoughts, which she was impatient to pour forth for Alice’s wondering comment. It was the first time in her life that she had spoken with a woman daring enough to think and act for herself.

      Chapter 4

      Monica’s Majority

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      In the drapery establishment where Monica Madden worked and lived it was not (as is sometimes the case) positively forbidden to the resident employees to remain at home on Sunday; but they were strongly recommended to make the utmost possible use of that weekly vacation. Herein, no doubt, appeared a laudable regard for their health. Young people, especially young women, who are laboriously engaged in a shop for thirteen hours and a half every weekday, and on Saturday for an average of sixteen, may be supposed to need a Sabbath of open air. Messrs. Scotcher and Co. acted like conscientious men in driving them forth immediately after breakfast, and enjoining upon them not to return until bedtime. By way of well-meaning constraint, it was directed that only the very scantiest meals (plain bread and cheese, in fact) should be supplied to those who did not take advantage of the holiday.

      Messrs. Scotcher and Co. were large-minded men. Not only did they insist that the Sunday ought to be used for bodily recreation, but they had no objection whatever to their young friends taking a stroll after closing-time each evening. Nay, so generous and confiding were they, that to each young person they allowed a latchkey. The air of Walworth Road is pure and invigorating about midnight; why should the reposeful ramble be hurried by consideration for weary domestics?

      Monica always felt too tired to walk after ten o’clock; moreover, the usual conversation in the dormitory which she shared with five other young women was so little to her taste that she wished to be asleep when the talkers came up to bed. But on Sunday she gladly followed the counsel of her employers. If the weather were bad, the little room at Lavender Hill offered her a retreat; when the sun shone, she liked to spend a part of the day in free wandering about London, which even yet had not quite disillusioned her.

      And today it shone brightly. This was her birthday, the completion of her one-and-twentieth year. Alice and Virginia of course expected her early in the morning, and of course they were all to dine together — at the table measuring three feet by one and a half; but the afternoon and evening she must have to herself The afternoon, because a few hours of her sister’s talk invariably depressed her; and the evening, because she had an appointment to keep. As she left the big ugly ‘establishment’ her heart beat cheerfully, and a smile fluttered about her lips. She did not feel very well, but that was a matter of course; the ride in an omnibus would perhaps make her head clearer.

      Monica’s face was of a recognized type of prettiness; a pure oval; from the smooth forehead to the dimpled little chin all its lines were soft and graceful. Her lack of colour, by heightening the effect of black eyebrows and darkly lustrous eyes, gave her at present a more spiritual cast than her character justified; but a thoughtful firmness was native to her lips, and no possibility of smirk or simper lurked in the attractive features. The slim figure was well fitted in a costume of pale blue, cheap but becoming; a modest little hat rested on her black hair; her gloves and her sunshade completed the dainty picture.

      An omnibus would be met in Kennington Park Road. On her way thither, in a quiet cross-street, she was overtaken by a young man who had left the house of business a moment after her, and had followed at a short distance timidly. A young man of unhealthy countenance, with a red pimple on the side of his nose, but not otherwise ill-looking. He was clad with propriety — stove-pipe hat, diagonal frockcoat, grey trousers, and he walked with a springy gait.

      ‘Miss Madden —’

      He had ventured, with perturbation in his face, to overtake, Monica. She stopped.

      ‘What is it, Mr. Bullivant?’

      Her tone was far from encouraging, but the young man smiled upon her with timorous tenderness.

      ‘What a beautiful morning! Are you going far?’

      He had the Cockney accent, but not in an offensive degree; his manners were not flagrantly of the shop.

      ‘Yes; some distance.’ Monica walked slowly on.

      ‘Will you allow me to walk a little way with you?’ he pleaded, bending towards her.

      ‘I shall take the omnibus at the end of this street.’

      They went forward together. Monica no longer smiled, but neither did she look angry. Her expression was one of trouble.

      ‘Where shall you spend the day, Mr. Bullivant?’ she asked at length, with an effort to seem unconcerned.

      ‘I really don’t know.’

      ‘I should think it would be very nice up the river.’ And she added diffidently, ‘Miss Eade is going to Richmond.’

      ‘Is she?’ he replied vaguely.

      ‘At least she wished to go — if she could find a companion.’

      ‘I hope she will enjoy herself,’ said Mr. Bullivant, with careful civility.

      ‘But of course she won’t enjoy it very much if she has to go alone. As you have no particular engagement, Mr. Bullivant, wouldn’t it be kind to —?’

      The suggestion was incomplete, but intelligible.

      ‘I couldn’t ask Miss Eade to let me accompany her,’ said the young man gravely.

      ‘Oh, I think you could. She would like it.’

      Monica looked rather frightened at her boldness,