Von Göttern und Dämonen in Afrika. Ineź Sytham

your brain-made plan because it is unusual, the person not in your „ideal age" for having a child…and what ever there are more excuses just to escape?) Are things like age, children, money, prestige…a guarantee for becoming happy in your relationship? Or doesn’t it belong to the way two persons treat each other? And discover their souls, their hearts, correspondence? For sure – we will find out. A challenge for both of us.

      It is also my decision and my adventure as well to discover a man in a strange continent. And be discovered by him. We will solve problems like adult persons if it will become bad – so nobody has to feel guilty.

      And perhaps we will enjoy the time like children under Christmas tree when we build up a tender feeling of understanding. And maybe there is love flowing between us… I am not quite sure – perhaps – but staying at your place will offer some "rainbow-possibilities".

      Well, you are a couple of years younger than me – but does being able for real loving somebody depend of the reason how long a person walks through this world or more of an open heart and deep soul?

      Ideal physically maybe – but ideal for to be real loved – that doesn't depend of age and – to functionalise a person is a guarantee for the lack of love…You also can become a father adopting a child for instance – to be father or mother is a thing from your open heart, not from a really birth. Besides there are lots of street-children I was feeding (so you could do that regularly or help them for education) every time is the chance to act like a father.

      I even told you that I want to discover you and love to be discovered by you in a special way. To be clear: I’m interested as a woman in you as a man not only as a friend (smile) – Starting a relationship includes several parts for both in my understanding:

      Friendship, having sex, be lovers, be mother, nurse, brother, lover, friend and finally achieve the person we all finally are looking for, in love, in trust!

      Shan, that’s my reply and surprise: I booked a flight this afternoon, just when you phoned – for the 30th of January, my birthday! Now it’s your decision if you want to welcome me: At 22.45 o’clock arriving time at Cap Town Airport…Love Beatrice

      Und weil das Spiel der Götter bereits begonnen hatte, wurde genau an meinem Geburtstag ein Sonderflug nach Cape Town frei, es ist dann nahezu einen Monat nachdem ich von Shan weg bin, es würde so gut

      … zu gut, flüstert jemand …

      passen, und ich folge meiner Begeisterung, meiner Intuition, und meinem Sehnen. Und er hat noch mein rotes Negligé bei sich, von mir unbewusst liegengelassen in seinem Backpacker…was für ein Symbol!

      Shan 12. Januar

      Your red night `dress` is a bit tight to me…I’m sure, you look stunning in it. Can’t sleep with this thoughts.

       Beatrice

      Than think about the surprise that’s coming per email soon sealed with a kiss!

      Und jetzt macht mein Herz kleine Freudensprünge, da innen, in diesem Frauenkörper.

       Und die Götter lächeln mir zu.

      * * *

      Shan 14. Januar

      Dear Beatrice, I've got Heart beating

      I am excited by you coming out here. I was planning to take a medical course that would have required me to attend classes 2 evenings a week and the whole of Saturday. I am sure that I will be able to postpone this, then we can go away for a week or maybe two. Forgetting about the rest.

      What would you like to see or do in S Africa? Let me know now. What do you like doing besides riding, healing and dancing? Do you think that you will be able to fly with me in a small plane/microlight?

      When you land it will be at least 1 hour before you get your luggage and out of customs, maybe longer! What do you want to do first?

      Going to look for some lunch now.

      Kisses – Shan.

      Er freut sich – genauso wie ich!

      Und was ich als erstes tun möchte? Ihn fühlen, küssen, bei ihm ankommen, seine Arme spüren - all das, was eine Frau natürlich tun möchte mit dem Mann, den sie so lange vermisst hat und zu dem sie sich hinwünscht und hinsehnt.

      Dieses heart beating… Es macht mich lebendig, mit strahlenden Augen, ich kann gleichzeitig fünf Dinge erledigen, alles macht nur Spaß, der Koffer wird gepackt für eine lange Auszeit - ich will gründlich sein, mit dieser Begegnung, keinen Zeitdruck bei der Entdeckung einer fernen, so anderen Stadt, nicht in ein Faszinosum eines anderen Kontinentes verwickelt werden, sondern der Anziehungskraft bewusst folgen und step by step entdecken, erobern, zulassen.

      Die erste Auszeit meines Lebens beginnt hier….und ich spüre den Löwenmut in meinem Herzen, die Kraft, die von ganz alleine :

      einfach da ist.

      Beatrice 14. Januar

      Landing, Seeing you - and getting my birthday present from you:

      Un beso especial para mi, senor, por favor ! (Just to answer your question, what I want to do first – hope you are the Gentleman, not to hesitate my desire …*smile*

      This morning I looked around in the internet and think there are so many possibilities and Cape Town with its whole area is that beautiful and interesting

      to be discovered … I am open for everything. Please give me a bit more time to pick up some ideas, I’ll tell you maybe tomorrow, o.k.?

      I have got 29 days until I could return; so don’t change plans if they are important for you, we have lots of time if we both want that. I am not in a hurry - also can do a lot of things by myself - this time should not be just a stop-over, o.k.?

      But having a couple of weeks holidays together - I am delighted! In my experience it’s the best way to get a real good knowledge about a person while being on a trip together.

      Flying in a microlight means to trust you for my life: Of course I will accompany you, or do you think, this crazy woman comes to you about 5800 miles and than she is ignoring your hobbies? No way – it sounds interesting, gives me a thrill and I am versatile, durable – just try.

      My flight number is: LT 0672 MUC-CPT Arrival 22.45 – but I am sure you will find me. Thanks for the picture – but now it’s mutual like my night-dress with you: I guess that can’t sleep when I look at your face.

      (Sometimes my home-number doesn’t work – but try – it depends because it is connected with the computer, and sometimes the network in this area is not working at the cellular – not thinking, that I cut the talks with you, yes?) I kiss you for being excited when I come….Its your choice which place on your body it has to land! Beatrice Und ich möchte Dir, Shan, etwas von meinen Wurzeln zeigen, Dich fühlen lassen, wo diese Frau gerade atmet, ein Zeitfenster öffnen für einen Moment des “Hinsehens”, denn meine Füße stecken in dicken Stiefelchen - gegen den Schnee geschützt, während Deine mit Sandalen bekleidet im warmen Strand wandern…

      Beatrice 15. Januar

      Just walking with my cat through the silent snowy winter wood *magic* Kiss + hear you later…

       Shan

      I wish I could experience that. Cat’s feet must be cold!

       Beatrice

      Don’t worry: Cat’s paws become spoiled after snowy-walk. One day we do it together for sure: building a `snowman`,climbing a hill + downhill by sledge with laughter and great fun. When I had my horse stable in earlier times I drove in magic winter-countryside sleight – ride.

      Und dann beginne ich, die Tage bis zum Abflug zu zählen. Bis ich ihn wieder sehen kann, diesen Mann, der sich genauso auf mich freut wie ich mich auf ihn. Shan entdecken, Cape Town, diese wunderbare Stadt erforschen, vielleicht