The Essential Works of Theodore Dreiser. Theodore Dreiser

distress. He clutched her hand nervously and pressed it with all the force of an appeal.

      The train was now all but stopped. It was running by some cars on a side track. Everything outside was dark and dreary. A few sprinkles on the window began to indicate that it was raining. Carrie hung in a quandary, balancing between decision and helplessness. Now the train stopped, and she was listening to his plea. The engine backed a few feet and all was still.

      She wavered, totally unable to make a move. Minute after minute slipped by and still she hesitated, he pleading.

      “Will you let me come back if I want to?” she asked, as if she now had the upper hand and her companion was utterly subdued.

      “Of course,” he answered, “you know I will.”

      Carrie only listened as one who has granted a temporary amnesty. She began to feel as if the matter were in her hands entirely.

      The train was again in rapid motion. Hurstwood changed the subject.

      “Aren’t you very tired?” he said.

      “No,” she answered.

      “Won’t you let me get you a berth in the sleeper?”

      She shook her head, though for all her distress and his trickery she was beginning to notice what she had always felt — his thoughtfulness.

      “Oh, yes,” he said, “you will feel so much better.”

      She shook her head.

      “Let me fix my coat for you, anyway,” and he arose and arranged his light coat in a comfortable position to receive her head.

      “There,” he said tenderly, “now see if you can’t rest a little.” He could have kissed her for her compliance. He took his seat beside her and thought a moment.

      “I believe we’re in for a heavy rain,” he said.

      “So it looks,” said Carrie, whose nerves were quieting under the sound of the rain drops, driven by a gusty wind, as the train swept on frantically through the shadow to a newer world.

      The fact that he had in a measure mollified Carrie was a source of satisfaction to Hurstwood, but it furnished only the most temporary relief. Now that her opposition was out of the way, he had all of his time to devote to the consideration of his own error.

      His condition was bitter in the extreme, for he did not want the miserable sum he had stolen. He did not want to be a thief. That sum or any other could never compensate for the state which he had thus foolishly doffed. It could not give him back his host of friends, his name, his house and family, nor Carrie, as he had meant to have her. He was shut out from Chicago — from his easy, comfortable state. He had robbed himself of his dignity, his merry meetings, his pleasant evenings. And for what? The more he thought of it the more unbearable it became. He began to think that he would try and restore himself to his old state. He would return the miserable thievings of the night and explain. Perhaps Moy would understand. Perhaps they would forgive him and let him come back.

      By noontime the train rolled into Detroit and he began to feel exceedingly nervous. The police must be on his track by now. They had probably notified all the police of the big cities, and detectives would be watching for him. He remembered instances in which defaulters had been captured. Consequently, he breathed heavily and paled somewhat. His hands felt as if they must have something to do. He simulated interest in several scenes without which he did not feel. He repeatedly beat his foot upon the floor.

      Carrie noticed his agitation, but said nothing. She had no idea what it meant or that it was important.

      He wondered now why he had not asked whether this train went on through to Montreal or some Canadian point. Perhaps he could have saved time. He jumped up and sought the conductor.

      “Does any part of this train go to Montreal?” he asked.

      “Yes, the next sleeper back does.”

      He would have asked more, but it did not seem wise, so he decided to inquire at the depot.

      The train rolled into the yards, clanging and puffing.

      “I think we had better go right on through to Montreal,” he said to Carrie. “I’ll see what the connections are when we get off.”

      He was exceedingly nervous, but did his best to put on a calm exterior. Carrie only looked at him with large, troubled eyes. She was drifting mentally, unable to say to herself what to do.

      The train stopped and Hurstwood led the way out. He looked warily around him, pretending to look after Carrie. Seeing nothing that indicated studied observation, he made his way to the ticket office.

      “The next train for Montreal leaves when?” he asked.

      “In twenty minutes,” said the man.

      He bought two tickets and Pullman berths. Then he hastened back to Carrie.

      “We go right out again,” he said, scarcely noticing that Carrie looked tired and weary.

      “I wish I was out of all this,” she exclaimed gloomily.

      “You’ll feel better when we reach Montreal,” he said.

      “I haven’t an earthly thing with me,” said Carrie; “not even a handkerchief.”

      “You can buy all you want as soon as you get there, dearest,” he explained. “You can call in a dressmaker.”

      Now the crier called the train ready and they got on. Hurstwood breathed a sigh of relief as it started. There was a short run to the river, and there they were ferried over. They had barely pulled the train off the ferry-boat when he settled back with a sigh.

      “It won’t be so very long now,” he said, remembering her in his relief. “We get there the first thing in the morning.”

      Carrie scarcely deigned to reply.

      “I’ll see if there is a dining-car,” he added. “I’m hungry.”

      Chapter XXIX

      The Solace of Travel — The Boats of the Sea

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      To the untravelled, territory other than their own familiar heath is invariably fascinating. Next to love, it is the one thing which solaces and delights. Things new are too important to be neglected, and mind, which is a mere reflection of sensory impressions, succumbs to the flood of objects. Thus lovers are forgotten, sorrows laid aside, death hidden from view. There is a world of accumulated feeling back of the trite dramatic expression — “I am going away.”

      As Carrie looked out upon the flying scenery she almost forgot that she had been tricked into this long journey against her will and that she was without the necessary apparel for travelling. She quite forgot Hurstwood’s presence at times, and looked away to homely farmhouses and cosey cottages in villages with wondering eyes. It was an interesting world to her. Her life had just begun. She did not feel herself defeated at all. Neither was she blasted in hope. The great city held much. Possibly she would come out of bondage into freedom — who knows? Perhaps she would be happy. These thoughts raised her above the level of erring. She was saved in that she was hopeful.

      The following morning the train pulled safely into Montreal and they stepped down, Hurstwood glad to be out of danger, Carrie wondering at the novel atmosphere of the northern city. Long before, Hurstwood had been here, and now he remembered the name of the hotel at which he had stopped. As they came out of the main entrance of the depot he heard it called anew by a busman.

      “We’ll go right up and get rooms,” he said.

      At the clerk’s office Hurstwood swung the register about while the clerk came forward. He was thinking what name he would put down. With the latter before him he found no time for hesitation. A name he