Always and Forever. Cathy Kelly

had never worried that much about her weight: she was tall with long legs and an athletic body. No matter what she ate, her stomach was enviably flat. Her breasts were the problem. A 38D was big in any language, and if she did put on any extra weight at least half went straight onto her chest.

      Trish was waiting for her at the lights, huddled into her fake sheepskin coat because it was so cold, a knitted red hat flattened down on her head.

      ‘Whatdidya get?’ she demanded, poking at Cleo’s purchases as they waited to cross the busy city centre street.

      ‘Interior design magazines,’ said Cleo, hoping it wasn’t going to rain until she was on the bus home because she hadn’t got either a hat or an umbrella. Her hair was bad enough as it was, all wild and mind-of-its-own, but if it got wet – then she turned into cavewoman.

      ‘Why didn’t you get nice gossip mags to cheer us up?’ moaned Trish. ‘I love those pictures of stars with no make-up, spots, cellulite and fags in their hands.’

      Trish had recently given up smoking and there was nothing she loved better than to see other people looking unhealthy with cigarettes in their hands. It proved, she said with gritted teeth as she chewed another bit of nicotine gum, that she’d made the right decision.

      ‘Because those mags are also full of diets and hints on how to look like J-Lo, and it always involves spending loads of money, which we don’t have, and being a size six, which we aren’t,’ Cleo pointed out.

      The green man flashed on the pedestrian lights and they hurried across the road to the Shepherd, the pub where they’d spent many an hour when they were both in college in the city. Five minutes on the bus was all that separated the two colleges, and plenty of Cleo’s hotel management lecturers must have thought that Trish was enrolled there instead of on the business degree course across the River Liffey.

      ‘We could be size six if we wanted to,’ Trish said.

      ‘If we didn’t eat and had some of our important organs removed, then yes, it’s a distinct possibility.’ Cleo opened the swing door of the pub and felt the welcoming warmth of central heating on high.

      ‘Why are you so grumpy?’ demanded Trish, once they’d found a cosy nook and ordered two coffees.

      ‘I turned down the Donegal job.’

      ‘You didn’t!’

      ‘I did.’ Cleo almost couldn’t believe it herself. It wasn’t the job she’d longed for – just assistant manager at the small Kilbeggan Castle Hotel in a ruggedly beautiful part of Donegal – but it was her first real job. And she’d said no. She must have been mad.

      The man who owned the Kilbeggan Castle clearly thought so too.

      ‘You were so keen and interested…’ he’d said in irritation when she’d phoned after getting the job offer in the post.

      ‘I am so sorry,’ Cleo said. ‘I didn’t mean to waste your time.’

      ‘Well, you did.’

      ‘Not intentionally,’ she interrupted. ‘It’s just something’s suddenly cropped up. You know I come from a hotel background? Well, there’s a good reason for me to stay at home and work with my family right now.’

      ‘I know tourism is down,’ the man said. ‘We’re all feeling the pinch because people are too nervous to fly any more. I suppose your place is hit the same way. Enough said.’ He sighed. ‘I suppose I’ll be reading your name in conjunction with all sorts of great ventures in the future. We were all very impressed with you, Miss Malin.’

      ‘Thank you,’ said Cleo with regret. Instinct told her Kilbeggan Castle would have been a lovely place to work. She was mad to turn it down. But in the end she just couldn’t bring herself to give up on her heritage. She had to try to drag the Willow and her family kicking and screaming into the new century before the hotel went under.

      ‘You’re mad,’ Trish said. ‘Stone mad. Sorry, I know that’s rude, but you are.’ She glared across the small pub table at Cleo, the way she’d been glaring at Cleo since that first day in Miss Minton’s class in Carrickwell Primary School, where they’d both decided they wanted to sit on the blue wooden chair and a fight had ensued with hair-pulling and lots of wild screaming.

      Eighteen years later, there was no hair-pulling in the relationship, but occasionally there was a bit of screaming. Cleo had last roared at Trish when her friend shamefacedly admitted that she hadn’t actually dumped her current boyfriend as planned, even though he’d been seen in a clinch with another woman at a New Year’s party.

      ‘He says he’s sorry,’ Trish protested.

      ‘Until the next time,’ Cleo said angrily. ‘If he did that to me, he’d be on his way to casualty right now, whining for a morphine suppository to put him out of his misery.’ She meant it. Cleo mightn’t have had a long line of boyfriends but those she’d had had known not to mess her around. The guy who’d promised devotion after one evening, and that he’d phone but hadn’t, would always remember having his drink poured over his head in the pub the next day while Cleo loudly, and to the amusement of the whole premises, told him not to make promises he didn’t intend to keep.

      ‘Honesty is the best policy,’ she’d said as he sat with beer dripping down his astonished face. ‘If you didn’t want to see me again, all you had to do was say so. I’m not the sort of woman who likes waiting for the phone to ring.’

      Today, Trish was the one trying to make her friend see sense.

      ‘Why did you turn it down? Why? It was a perfectly good job. What is the point of saying no to a good job in Donegal when your family takes no notice of you? Your dad’s not going to let you take over the place and show him how it should be done, is he? And neither are Barney or Jason. You said yourself Barney’s secretly hoping everything has to be closed down so you can sell the land and he and Sondra can make a fortune out of their share and live in the lap of luxury. You can’t save the Willow, Cleo, if they don’t want it saved.’

      It was a perfectly good point and one Trish had been making for the past month, ever since Cleo had become acutely aware just how badly her family’s business was doing.

      Terrorism meant tourism was down all around the world, but the Willow’s problem could not be laid solely at this door. The first inkling of doom had struck Cleo when she’d come home for Christmas, having spent the seven months since she’d left college working nights on reception in a big hotel in Bristol. She found shift work hard to get used to but felt she’d learned a lot – both about the business and about a handsome French guy named Laurent with whom she’d had a brief but fun fling. Now she wanted to show them all at home just how much she’d learned, although she didn’t plan on sharing Laurent’s native kissing techniques.

      The Willow had only been half full for Christmas, the first time this had ever happened. Even an expensive advert in a national newspaper had failed to bring in guests. For the big Christmas Day lunch, they’d had to close off part of the dining room to take the barren look off the place.

      Jason, Barney, her mother and her father all acted as if this was some blip on the radar, a chance happening. But Cleo knew that it wasn’t. It was the beginning of the decline. People wanted more from hotels than the faded grandeur they got in the Willow. They wanted silver tea services, elegant old furniture, the sense of gracious living that came from a beautiful old hotel – and hot water all day, a swimming pool and a beauty salon.

      What could the much-loved Willow offer them?

      ‘Mind you, Donegal wouldn’t be hot enough,’ Trish went on thoughtfully. ‘If I were you, I’d get on the first plane out of here, go somewhere warm and gorgeous, and find a luxury hotel where I can come to stay and you can comp me a room. The Caribbean would be nice,’ she added, ‘sandy beaches, me on a lounger waving my hand in the air so some ebony god of a man with thighs like The Rock can smile at me and help move my sunshade.’ Trish sighed at the thought of it all.

      ‘Finished