The Forgotten Girl. Kerry Barrett

smiled at me, weakly.

      ‘No,’ she said. ‘I’m sort of a loner.’

      Bruno put the sandwich in front of her and she tore into it. She ate like a child, holding her sandwich two-handed, not worried about how she looked. If my mum had been here to see her, she’d have been horrified at her lack of table manners.

      ‘It’s fine,’ she said. ‘I only live round the corner. I’ll just go home and sleep. I was up late finishing my article.’

      I looked at my watch. It was lunchtime now, so Rosemary would assume I’d taken my break after going to Frank’s.

      ‘Round the corner?’ I said.

      ‘Peter Street,’ she said, through a mouthful of bread.

      That really was just round the corner. I was surprised and impressed that she actually lived in Soho and I wondered if she was one of those society kids who’d dropped out of their rich world but were still supported by their parents.

      ‘Finish your sandwich and I’ll walk you home,’ I said, partly out of concern for her and partly because I was curious to see where she lived. ‘Make sure you’re okay.’

      Suze’s eyes widened in horror.

      ‘No,’ she said. ‘Honestly, I’m fine now. You go back to work and I’ll pay Bruno and get home.’

      ‘I’ll walk you home,’ I said firmly.

      Suze had finished her sandwich. She looked at me, her head tilted to one side, like she was sizing me up. Then she nodded.

      ‘Okay,’ she said. ‘I’ll just pay Bruno.’

      She eased the 10/- note out of her pocket and I grabbed her hand.

      ‘Keep it,’ I said. Like I said, sucker. ‘I’ll pay.’

      I settled the bill and with Suze hanging on to my arm like an old lady, we left the café and headed for Berwick Street.

      Suze knew everyone. The market traders all called out to her as we passed, and she had quick responses to their questions and jokes.

      ‘Had one too many?’ the guy on the fruit stall shouted. He had tattoos all over his arms and one crawling up the back of his neck, but his smile as he looked at Suze was kind. I’d probably walked past him every day for a year, but I’d never seen him before.

      ‘Ha ha,’ Suze said. ‘Just feeling a bit off.’

      He threw her a bag and she caught it deftly.

      ‘Can’t sell these, they’re all bashed,’ he said, winking.

      Suze grinned.

      ‘Thanks.’

      She put her mouth close to my ear.

      ‘Nothing wrong with them,’ she said. ‘He’s such a softie, though you’d never know to look at him.’

      I glanced at the greengrocer over my shoulder. She was right about that.

      Peter Street ran along the bottom of Berwick Street. One end led to Wardour Street, and the other was a dead-end. Suze led me that way, to a barber’s shop, tucked right in the corner. There was a boarded-up door in between the entrance to the barber and the shop next to it and that was where she headed. She stuck her hand down the neck of her dress and pulled out a tiny key.

      ‘I keep it in my bra,’ she said, smiling. ‘I’d lose it otherwise.’

      Then she unlocked the padlock that was keeping the plywood door firmly shut and pushed me inside, shutting the door behind us and moving the padlock from the outside to the inside.

      ‘It’s best to keep it locked,’ she said, in a tone that told me she hadn’t always done that.

      She led the way up the narrow stairs in front of us. They were covered in threadbare carpet, and the only light came from a dirty, skinny window on the landing.

      At the top was a bed-sitting room. It had fabric draped at the two large windows and the day was gloomy so it was hard to see properly. I looked at Suze and she gasped.

      ‘Oh I’m not being a very good host, am I?’ she said. ‘Come in, come in, sit down.’

      She scurried over to the corner of the room and switched on a tall lamp. I was surprised she had electricity in what was clearly a squat, but I didn’t say anything.

      Suze, though, read my mind.

      ‘One of the guys on the market sorted it for me,’ she said. ‘I think he’s connected it to a streetlight.’

      I wasn’t sure what to say. Instead, I looked round at the room.

      Suze, who was still looking a bit wobbly, threw her arms out.

      ‘Mia casa,’ she said. ‘What do you think?’

      It was a fairly large, square room with two big windows that looked out over Peter Street and a bit of the market. I could hear the buzz of chatter and music from the barber shop below, and the shouts of stallholders and shoppers at the market. The windows were covered in offcuts of material – as was the single bed in the corner to my right – I guessed Suze had begged, borrowed or stolen them from the many fabric shops nearby. Piled up near the bed were rows of battered paperbacks. Off to one side was a tiny toilet with a small sink and straight ahead of me was a tiny, two-ring electric hob with one pan, a couple of plates and two mugs neatly stacked next to it.

      Beneath one window was a big table with a typewriter on top.

      ‘My pride and joy,’ Suze said, seeing me looking.

      I grinned.

      ‘I’ve got the same one at home.’

      Mine was covered in stickers, though, and my desk at work wasn’t nearly as tidy as Suze’s. She had a stack of blank paper next to the typewriter and two thick cardboard folders on the table, along with a notepad and a pot of pens and pencils.

      ‘What do you think?’ Suze said. ‘I’ve never had a guest before.’

      I smiled at her.

      ‘It’s lovely,’ I said honestly. ‘It’s perfect.’

       Chapter 6

      2016

      I felt funny when I got home that evening. A bit low, a bit lost, and – I had to admit – a bit lonely.

      I wanted to eat a nice dinner, drink some wine and tell someone about my day. But what I actually did was change into my pyjamas, make tea and eat chocolate. By myself. I lived alone in a once shabby flat, in a once shabby corner of south-east London. Every time I got off the train to go home, I noticed a new juice bar or artisan bakery and thanked my lucky stars I’d got in when I did. I’d never be able to afford my flat now – shabby or otherwise.

      I had two bedrooms – one was tiny but I used it as a walk-in wardrobe – a cosy lounge and a very small kitchen, and normally I loved living alone. Today, though, I felt like the flat was just too big.

      ‘Maybe I should get a cat,’ I wondered out loud. Then I thought about the many, many houseplants I’d killed over the years and decided that was a very bad idea.

      I flopped on the sofa in my jimjams and scrolled through endless Netflix options, without choosing anything to watch.

      I thought about ringing my mum to tell her I’d started my new job.

      ‘Darling, well done!’ I imagined her saying. ‘I’m so proud of you and I know how hard you’ve worked.’

      What were the chances of her saying that? Slim to nil. She’d listen in silence, making sure I was well aware that she wasn’t remotely interested