Gitanjali & Fruit-Gathering. Rabindranath Tagore

will go back with his errand done, leaving a dark shadow on my morning; and in my desolate home only my forlorn self will remain as my last offering to thee.

      In desperate hope I go and search for her in all the corners of my room; I find her not.

      My house is small and what once has gone from it can never be regained.

      But infinite is thy mansion, my lord, and seeking her I have to come to thy door.

      I stand under the golden canopy of thine evening sky and I lift my eager eyes to thy face.

      I have come to the brink of eternity from which nothing can vanish — no hope, no happiness, no vision of a face seen through tears.

      Oh, dip my emptied life into that ocean, plunge it into the deepest fullness. Let me for once feel that lost sweet touch in the allness of the universe.

      Deity of the ruined temple! The broken strings of Vina sing no more your praise. The bells in the evening proclaim not your time of worship. The air is still and silent about you.

      In your desolate dwelling comes the vagrant spring breeze. It brings the tidings of flowers — the flowers that for your worship are offered no more.

      Your worshipper of old wanders ever longing for favour still refused. In the eventide, when fires and shadows mingle with the gloom of dust, he wearily comes back to the ruined temple with hunger in his heart.

      Many a festival day comes to you in silence, deity of the ruined temple. Many a night of worship goes away with lamp unlit.

      Many new images are built by masters of cunning art and carried to the holy stream of oblivion when their time is come.

      Only the deity of the ruined temple remains unworshipped in deathless neglect.

      No more noisy, loud words from me — such is my master’s will. Henceforth I deal in whispers. The speech of my heart will be carried on in murmurings of a song.

      Men hasten to the King’s market. All the buyers and sellers are there. But I have my untimely leave in the middle of the day, in the thick of work.

      Let then the flowers come out in my garden, though it is not their time; and let the midday bees strike up their lazy hum.

      Full many an hour have I spent in the strife of the good and the evil, but now it is the pleasure of my playmate of the empty days to draw my heart on to him; and I know not why is this sudden call to what useless inconsequence!

      On the day when death will knock at thy door what wilt thou offer to him?

      Oh, I will set before my guest the full vessel of my life — I will never let him go with empty hands.

      All the sweet vintage of all my autumn days and summer nights, all the earnings and gleanings of my busy life will I place before him at the close of my days when death will knock at my door.

      O thou the last fulfilment of life, Death, my death, come and whisper to me!

      Day after day I have kept watch for thee; for thee have I borne the joys and pangs of life.

      All that I am, that I have, that I hope and all my love have ever flowed towards thee in depth of secrecy. One final glance from thine eyes and my life will be ever thine own.

      The flowers have been woven and the garland is ready for the bridegroom. After the wedding the bride shall leave her home and meet her lord alone in the solitude of night.

      I know that the day will come when my sight of this earth shall be lost, and life will take its leave in silence, drawing the last curtain over my eyes.

      Yet stars will watch at night, and morning rise as before, and hours heave like sea waves casting up pleasures and pains.

      When I think of this end of my moments, the barrier of the moments breaks and I see by the light of death thy world with its careless treasures. Rare is its lowliest seat, rare is its meanest of lives.

      Things that I longed for in vain and things that I got — let them pass. Let me but truly possess the things that I ever spurned and overlooked.

      I have got my leave. Bid me farewell, my brothers! I bow to you all and take my departure.

      Here I give back the keys of my door — and I give up all claims to my house. I only ask for last kind words from you.

      We were neighbours for long, but I received more than I could give. Now the day has dawned and the lamp that lit my dark corner is out. A summons has come and I am ready for my journey.

      At this time of my parting, wish me good luck, my friends! The sky is flushed with the dawn and my path lies beautiful.

      Ask not what I have with me to take there. I start on my journey with empty hands and expectant heart.

      I shall put on my wedding garland. Mine is not the red-brown dress of the traveller, and though there are dangers on the way I have no fear in mind.

      The evening star will come out when my voyage is done and the plaintive notes of the twilight melodies be struck up from the King’s gateway.

      I was not aware of the moment when I first crossed the threshold of this life.

      What was the power that made me open out into this vast mystery like a bud in the forest at midnight!

      When in the morning I looked upon the light I felt in a moment that I was no stranger in this world, that the inscrutable without name and form had taken me in its arms in the form of my own mother.

      Even so, in death the same unknown will appear as ever known to me. And because I love this life, I know I shall love death as well.

      The child cries out when from the right breast the mother takes it away, in the very next moment to find in the left one its consolation.

      When I go from hence let this be my parting word, that what I have seen is unsurpassable.

      I have tasted of the hidden honey of this lotus that expands on the ocean of light, and thus am I blessed — let this be my parting word.

      In this playhouse of infinite forms I have had my play and here have I caught sight of him that is formless.

      My whole body and my limbs have thrilled with his touch who is beyond touch; and if the end comes here, let it come — let this be my parting word.

      When my play was with thee I never questioned who thou wert. I knew nor shyness nor fear, my life was boisterous.

      In the early morning thou wouldst call me from my sleep like my own comrade and lead me running from glade to glade.

      On those days I never cared to know the meaning of songs thou sangest to me. Only my voice took up the tunes, and my heart danced in their cadence.

      Now, when the playtime is over, what is this sudden sight that is come upon me? The world with eyes bent upon thy feet stands in awe with all its silent stars.

      I will deck thee with trophies, garlands of my defeat. It is never in my power to escape unconquered.

      I surely know my pride will go to the wall, my life will burst its bonds in exceeding pain, and my empty heart will sob out in music like a hollow reed, and the stone will melt in tears.

      I surely know the hundred petals of a lotus will not remain closed for ever and the secret recess of its honey will be bared.

      From the blue sky an eye shall gaze upon me and summon me in silence. Nothing will be left for me, nothing whatever, and utter death shall I receive at thy feet.

      When I give up the helm I know that the time has come for thee to take it. What there is to do will be instantly done. Vain is this struggle.

      Then take away your hands and silently put up with your defeat, my heart, and think it your good fortune to sit perfectly still where you are placed.

      These my lamps are blown out at every little puff of wind, and trying to light them I forget all else again and again.

      But