Ashes Of The Phoenix. Jane Fade Merrick

his legs dangling on the small protruding sill of a bricked off window.

      â€œHow the hell do you manage to follow me around?” She asked, without any more resentment against him.

      â€œI have magic powers” he joked with an open smile.

      She replaced her usual sullen expression with a half-smile, “Yeah sure...” then she returned serious.

      â€œHere,” she continued after a moment's hesitation “Is where it happened.”

      She approached the point that she was staring at. “This is a place abandoned by everyone, where even criminals have to give up their business, because at night it turns into an arena for desperate people. The concrete of this road has absorbed the blood of many and, that night, there was me and the boy who challenged me.”

      â€œHe continued to irritate me,” she went on with effort “he was a brat but he had a sharp tongue, he said things that made me lose my mind...”

      â€œWhat kind of things?”

      â€œHe insulted my parents, but he didn’t go on for long: I broke his nose with a kick...”

      â€œOuch...” said the boy imagining the pain that can be inferred by giving a kick with rollerblades.

      â€œBut it wasn’t enough for me, I wanted him dead. I pulled my knife and I attacked while he was lying on the ground whimpering for his broken nose. He started to beg me, telling me that he didn’t want to die, that I'd won and that he wanted to go home... I don’t know what came over me but suddenly the anger was gone. I didn’t feel sorry for him, I was just disgusted. When I stopped he took the opportunity to grab a knife, stick it in my leg, push me backwards and then jump on me in turn. I instinctively raised my arms and I stabbed him in the stomach.”

      She hesitated a moment, as if afraid to tell the rest of the story.

      â€œI still remember his expression, his eyes staring at me as they slowly closed, the words dying in his throat and the blood coming out of his mouth and dripping and staining me for what I had done... He died like that, when I no longer wanted to kill him.” She confessed softly. “I had to push him off of me and try to escape despite my leg sodden with blood and the pain that almost made me faint.”

      â€œHow did you save yourself?” Asked the boy quivering.

      â€œI have a friend, or should I say a saviour,” she murmured to herself, “whom I met the first time I came to live here. He’s a Doctor and, although it may seem absurd, he took me under his wing without asking too many questions. That night I managed to reach his house and he gave me stitches. “Then” she concluded “there was a violent storm that wiped away the traces of blood and the police found that to be an excellent deterrent to continue the investigation: these roads have long been at the mercy of poor devils and the law doesn’t visit them willingly...” she implied.

      Before Jag had a chance to ask any other questions, Fade declared: “Now let's go, this place won’t be very safe in a short while.”

      The child nodded, he jumped down from his spot as improvised spectator and walked toward the alley from which she had come. She followed him sadly, touched her leg with her hand before she looked back at that place for the last time. She pointed an imaginary handgun formed by the index and the thumb of her hand.

      â€œBang,” she said quietly mimicking a shot toward something unknown and then left, as if she had closed the chapter of a book for which, for some time, she was searching for a convincing end.

      The dark allure

      The next morning Fade woke up again because of the noise that Jag was making in the kitchen. The microwave signalled the end of the heating cycle with a noisy sound.

      The girl sat dazed on the mattress and looked at the opposite side of the room, a number of rags rolled into the shape of a mattress brought to mind the night before, when she had prepared a bed for her new and very weird acquaintance.

      The boy presented a plate with a steaming waffle covered with a sticky sauce, which she eyed suspiciously, but she didn’t hesitate to eat it.

      After an endless amount of time, which the girl needed to finish her hairdo, the two were on the street and began to quarrel about a question left open the day before: the brat insisted that it was impossible not to know the group of which he was a huge fan, because they were world-famous; the girl, for her part, retorted that she didn’t give a damn about a stupid band. The argument went on until they entered the place where they were directed, a music CD shop. He rushed inside leaving a puzzled redhead at the door: she didn’t even know why she was there, but the excitement that the little boy put into everything he did, somehow, managed to involve her. She slowly skated inside, finding herself surrounded by shelves full of CDs with many different graphics.

      She observed the illustrations of a few covers for a while, and then she reached the child who was standing in a corner, wearing some headphones that were too big for his head. He seemed mesmerized by the music and he sang the song he was hearing, while holding a CD case. When she approached him, he took off his headphones and said, “Here! Listen to this!”

      â€œAre you kidding? I’ll ruin my hairdo!”

      â€œThen look!” He said, handing her the album that he was holding tight. Fade half-heartedly took the case and glanced at the cover. It was a picture of a group of four people in front a totally black background. “Dull” she thought, and began to consider the members of the group: two boys with a girl between them, modelling in a cool pose; behind them loomed a curly-haired boy of considerable height, his stature would probably have been overwhelming in person.

      The two in the front stared at the camera with diametrically opposed expressions: the first, with an extremely ‘Emo’ hairstyle, had a thoughtful look that seemed to communicate what his whole life was a continuous torture; the other displayed a grin which seemed to tease you because he had achieved success and all you could do was envy him. The latter, especially, stood out for his dress code. A half unbuttoned dark shirt showed a jumble of ornaments around his neck. Finally there was the girl, smooth black hair, deep shiny eyes as dark as the night. She stood in the centre of the page with her arms crossed. Her eyes observed you from head to toe, as though you were a nullity and she dangled a cigarette from her mouth. The smoke, clearly added with a miserable editing intervention, rose up to form the band name. “Momuht” Fade read.

      â€œThey don’t look that special to me”, she said, handing the case back to the boy who greedily grabbed it, holding it tight, as to protect it. “You don’t understand...” he started walking towards the exit “They need me...” She pretended not to hear the last sentence and followed him to the counter.

      â€œI’ll buy this” the boy exclaimed, standing on his toes, handing the album to the clerk, paying and leaving the store contemplating his new purchase.

      Jag was walking on clouds, admiring the album from all angles; he immediately tore the cellophane and glanced at the inner cover to see if there were other images; a joyful laugh confirmed the positive outcome. When he opened the lyrics booklet, the child happily started commenting on all the photos within it, describing the person and what role he had in the band, bringing the booklet up to Fade's face, who uninterestedly glanced at it: she didn’t like those motions and fanatic poses, they were pretty annoying to her. She had never liked those who acted as ‘fucking egocentrics’, and that band seemed to be exactly such; she continued to skate slowly, thinking of other things. Once they arrived close to their ‘secret hiding place’ the girl suddenly stopped, then she caught the boy by the collar and pulled him back. “What’s the matter?” asked Jag, quite annoyed by the interruption of his daydream. She frowned and motioned