Postcards. Annie Proulx

in the spice can hanging from a string looped over a nail, Mernelle’s drawing of a flag tacked to the pantry door, the glass doorknob, the brass hook and eye, the sagging string and stained cretonne covering the cavity under the sink, the wet footprints on the linoleum, all flat and detailed, but receding from him like torn leaves in a flooding river. It seemed he had never before noticed his mother’s floral print apron, the solid way she leaned forward, her beaky nose and round ears. They had those ears, he thought, every one of them, forcing his mind away from what was up under the wall, and Mink’s black Irish hair, so fine you couldn’t see the single hairs.

      Dub heaped the mashed potato on his plate, poured the yellow gravy over it and worked it in with his fork. He stuck a lump of chewing gum on the edge of the plate.

      ‘Plane was all over the mountain. One wing clipped a part of the lion, and then it just end-overed, wings broke off here, tail farther down, cockpit belly-bunted half a mile down. Tell you what, they don’t see how that guy lived through it, guy from Florida, just layin’ on the snow, guts and arms and legs from nine dead men all around him, and all he had was a couple cuts and scrapes, nothing even broke. Guy never even see snow before.’

      ‘What lion?’ asked Mernelle, picturing the beast behind snowy rocks.

      ‘Ah, the top of the mountain, looks like a lion gettin’ ready to jump, other guys thinks it looks like a part of a camel. The lion party wanted to call it “crouchin’ lion” but the camel lovers got their way. Camel’s Hump. It’s just stone up there, grade A granite. Looks like a pile of rock. Hey, don’t look like a camel or a lion or a porcupine. Don’t they learn you nothin’ in school!’

      ‘Seems like it’s been a terrible time the last year or so for terrible things. The War. The Chowder Girl subbing that needle in her eye. That was terrible. That poor woman in the bathtub in the hotel.’ Jewell unleashed one of her gusty sighs and stared away into the sad things that happen, that she guiltily savored. Her eyes were half closed, her thick wrists resting on the edge of the table, fork lying across her plate.

      ‘What about the fool things,’ said Mink, the words tangled in his mouth with potato and ham, the stubbled cheeks flexing as he chewed, ‘what about that fool that brought the can of blasting powder into the kitchen and put a match to it to see if it would burn. A fool thing, and half the town on fire on account of it and him and his brother’s whole family dead or torn up.’

      ‘What the hell is this?’ said Dub, pulling something from the mashed potato on his plate. ‘What the hell is this?’ holding up a bloodied Band-Aid.

      ‘Oh my lord,’ said Jewell, ‘throw it out. Take some new potato. I cut my finger peelin’ potatoes, then when I was settin’ the table I see I lost the Band-Aid somewhere. Must of fell in the potatoes when I was mashin’ ’em. Give it here,’ she said, getting up and scraping the potato in the pig’s slop bucket. She moved with a quick step, her lace-up oxfords with the stacked heels showing off her small feet.

      ‘Thought for a minute there,’ said Dub, ‘that the taters had the rag on.’

      ‘Dub,’ said Jewell.

      ‘I don’t get it,’ said Mernelle. ‘I don’t get what a bomber was doin’ near the Camel’s Hump. Is there Germans on the Camel’s Hump?’

      Dub roared in his stupid way. Mernelle could see the thing at the back of his throat hanging down, the black parts of his teeth and the empty gums on the left where the train men had knocked his teeth out.

      ‘Don’t worry about the Germans. Even if they made it across the ocean what the hell would they do up on Camel’s Hump? “Ach, Heinz, I am seeink der Blood farm und der dangerous Mernelle collecting ze milkveed pods.” ’ Dub’s grin hung in his face like an end of wet rope.

      The food lay on Loyal’s plate as Mink had sent it along, the ham hanging a little over the edge, the cone of potato rising, a single iceberg from a frozen sea.

      Loyal stood up, the yellow kerosene light reaching as high as his breast, his face shadowed. His leaf-stained fingers bunched, braced against the table. ‘Got something to say. Billy and me has had enough of this place. We’re pullin’ out tonight. She’s waitin’ for me right now. We’re pullin’ out and going out west, someplace out there, buy a farm, make a new sun. She got the right idea. She says “I’m not even goin’ to try to see my folks. Suit me good if I never have to see one of them again.” She’s just goin’. I wanted to set it straight with you, give you some idea. I didn’t come back for no goddamn dinner. Didn’t come back to listen to horseshit about Germans and potatoes. I come back to get my money and my car. Ask you to tell her folks she’s gone. She don’t care to see them.’ As he said it he knew that’s what they should have done. It seemed so easy now he couldn’t understand why he’d fought the idea.

      There was a silence. A discordance spread around the table as though he had blindly hit piano keys with a length of pipe.

      Mink half-stood, the hair hung down over his eyes. ‘What in hell are you sayin’! This your idea of a joke? All I ever hear from you for ten years is how you think this place oughta be run, now you say just like you was talkin’ about changin’ your shirt that you’re pullin’ out? For ten years I been hearin’ about what you wanted to do with this place, how you wanted to switch off the Jerseys over to Holsteins, “get a milkin’ machine after the War as soon’s we get electricity in, specialize in dairy.” Get the pastures and hayfields up, alfalfa, build a silo, grow more corn, concentrate on commercial dairy farmin’. Profit. Put the time into dairyin’, don’t bother with no big garden, or pigs or turkeys, it’s quicker and efficienter to buy your food. I can hear you sayin’ it now. You said it until my ears turned blue. Now this. You expect me to swallow this like sweet cake?

      ‘Hey, mister, tell you what else you said. You bitched and whined about the juniper movin’ into the fields, talk half an hour about the orchard, suckers, deadwood, the bull spruce is chokin’ out the spring in the pine tree corner you said, west hayfields ain’t been cut in three year, full of cherry trash. That’s what you said. Said you wished the day had forty hours of light so’s you could get somethin’ done.’

      Loyal hardly heard him, but saw the rubbery folds from the wings of his nostrils to the corners of his mouth, saw the cords in Mink’s neck, thought of the glistening strings just under the skin, thought of the arteries swelled with ropes of blood the size of his finger, thought of the crackling sound of rib bones when he kicked in a fox’s chest.

      ‘You can’t leave us run this farm alone,’ said Mink in his buzzing voice, the self-pity getting into his rage. ‘Jesus Christ, your brother’s only got the one arm and my health is down since the damn tractor laid on my chest. I was up to my health I’d beat the shit out of you. You’re not worth a pig’s patootie. You tell me how in the hell Dub and me can hand-milk nineteen cow alone, two of them damn Holsteins of yours, the one holds her milk back, and kicks. Christ I hate that cow’s eyes. You son of a bitch, we just can’t do it.’

      ‘Goddamnit, the Holsteins are good-natured cows, better than them little Jerseys you got. They give damn near twice as much milk as any Jersey.’ He tumbled into the relief of the old argument.

      ‘Yes, and look how much they eat. And half the butterfat of the Jerseys. The Jerseys is made for this country. They can make out on thin pasture and keep a farm going. They’re rugged. Tell you another thing. You just try walkin’ off the farm they’ll have your ass in uniform so fast it’ll take your breath away. There’s a War on, in case you forget. Farm work is essential work. Forget out west. Don’t you read no papers? Don’t you hear no radio programs? Them out west farms dried up and blowed away in the Dust Bowl. You’re stayin’.’

      Dub popped a wooden match with his thumbnail and lit his cigarette.

      ‘I got to go,’ said Loyal. ‘I got to. Oregon or Montana – somewhere.’

      ‘Put the record on again, Charlie,’ said Dub, ‘everybody likes to dance to that one.’ The smoke streamed out of his nose.

      Jewell put her hands to her