Behind the glass. Poetry. Brian Sheldon

forget you.

      I’ll let you go.

      I won’t be with you.

      ***

      I don’t know

      How I’m gonna live my life

      I don’t know

      How I’m gonna forget my thoughts

      How I’m gonna watch the water

      Running down the glass

      How am I gonna think?

      How am I gonna dream?!

      How do I believe

      In what I love so much?

      How do I know

      When I’ll come again

      When the gap is gone

      Between us

      I’ll call

      Let’s write in our minds

      We used to be together

      What’s become of us?

      ***

      When you’re asked to say

      – Don’t speak

      When you’re asked to live

      – Don’t believe.

      When you’re asked to trust.

      – Run away

      ***

      And suddenly forgive

      How to miss the moment

      The rhythm of life won’t let me stop

      I’m leaving again

      But my heart roars

      In moments I’ve forgotten

      Screaming, it’ll pass!

      I don’t believe it! I don’t want to hear it!

      But a voice calls!

      Moments, thoughts

      I knew it all!

      But how it hurts so much!

      For myself

      I lost.

      ***

      I believed, I thought!

      That’s how I left.

      In a new handwriting

      I began to write

      But I left the stem

      And a stamp.

      Why do I need all this?

      I’ll miss you.

      ***

      There’s so much in them.

      Too bad they only suffer.

      They remember their fears and dream again.

      Unwanted before the light.

      We were together.

      We met each moment

      Like drops

      reflecting the light.

      Run for it!

      You still have your dawn.

      ***

      I can’t hide my tears every night.

      I’ve never been able to understand.

      What does it all mean?

      I’m tired of being confused by these days

      You’re there

      But without me

      I miss you unrequited and alone.

      Regret, anger and forget in the morning.

      That’s how time passes

      I’ll never know the final answer

      I’ll say it out loud I miss you!

      And in my mind I’m in pain

      It’s time to forget

      I’m letting you go.

      ***

      I don’t want to look for reasons

      I don’t want to read objections

      I don’t want to whisper the life of time

      I don’t want to forget

      I don’t want to wake up

      I’ll let myself go.

      We had to part.

      ***

      And step by step silence.

      And me and you and the full moon.

      It’s like we’re hand in hand

      Walking through life

      Who was the hero?

      You’re the hero closest to me.

      You’re my pain.

      Where’s the laughter?

      ***

      Tell me about it.

      Explain it to me.

      What’s wrong?

      You’re hurting me!

      Tell me.

      I’m collecting,

      I count

      And when I feel like crying.

      I suffer.

      ***

      Scorched and no more.

      Sounds, sounds

      No! Scream!

      They’ll leave a mark

      And they’ll forget again

      I can’t.

      I’ll just be.

      ***

      How many times

      To beat, to endure!

      Forgive all the pain

      And cry again!

      To see the line

      And only light

      What is there to forgive?!

      Are you waiting for an answer?

      You’ve left yourself alone

      Suffer!

      I’ll leave carelessness behind.

      ***

      And danced again.

      Drinking, screaming

      My pain wouldn’t let me go.

      But it kept coming back

      And I met it irrevocably.

      ***

      To the creak, to the crunch.

      To the sigh

      Of sad lips.

      To the sighing of sad minds,

      You draw a circle for yourself.

      And what? Is it goodbye already?

      What about the sky?! Heights!

      You must remember

      Forever…

      How sweet and bitter

      You’ll leave now.

      And me?

      Bye…

      ***

      Desperate moments

      I’m going to forget

      But not now

      And not in the moments

      How can