Behind the glass. Poetry. Brian Sheldon

two words.

      Oh, Mama, what’s wrong with us now?!

      Oh pain, oh heart,

      The sorrow, the stones.

      How can you scream

      When your hand is on the bathtub

      And how to hurry

      When you feel

      You’re already in the dark

      You were talking

      But not about me

      ***

      She’s talking about love again,

      You’ve forgotten your loneliness.

      Aren’t you tired of saying goodbye to him?

      Who are you lying to?

      You were just giving yourself away.

      And now,

      Take your misery

      I see you every day

      But my thoughts

      Are just a punishment

      You’ll be glad

      To see what you’ve kept

      But he won’t remember.

      Sweetheart.

      You’ll be alone again.

      ***

      And he looked on indifferently,

      I only wanted to know the truth.

      The powder fire is burning again,

      It’s like we’re alone

      And I’m the only one who sees you

      And I see you off and I miss you.

      And you’ve forgotten

      When you loved me

      I accept what I know.

      But I forget everything else.

      It’s time to take a step

      To the winds

      When you hurt me

      I’ll notice.

      ***

      I sprinkle salt on my wounds,

      And I’m in tears

      And I suffer

      And I’m willing to kill myself.

      Now I see it!

      It’s all in vain

      The heart will forget.

      I forgive.

      I’ll feel better

      I let go.

      ***

      I never took offended

      Did you?

      Yes!

      And rose again!

      And fall to pieces.

      And forgave!

      And I called!

      I was amazed

      It pains me to see

      There’s another life here

      And I don’t know

      The word grief.

      But I’ve experienced

      All I can

      I’ll finish myself

      You make me feel like I’m alone.

      ***

      In the fervor of the wind,

      Of unbridled days

      We have forgotten

      Who in the world of men

      Ruling over us

      And with our hands clasped

      We answer-

      That our friend

      Only fear.

      ***

      And loyalty again

      And tears of forgiveness,

      Who are you gonna tell?!

      I don’t believe it!

      I forget the sorrow

      And love

      But I suffer so much!

      Crucified like two wings

      Scream, run!

      I’m alone again.

      Spreading the ashes,

      The muses are gone.

      Don’t wait for me.

      Another fate.

      ***

      Minute sounds

      And laughter…

      We’re apart

      That’s all she could think about.

      She couldn’t wait.

      I’ll be gone!

      I’m used to being alone.

      ***

      I squeeze my lips until they bleed!

      And it doesn’t hurt.

      I’m inside.

      I smile and write.

      I don’t want to do this at all.

      I trample everything around me.

      When the pain goes away

      And I walk away.

      I pick up the pieces of myself

      All the things I leave behind

      I forget

      I go round and round again

      I can’t let go

      I’ll walk away.

      ***

      Say you love me.

      Say it all without words.

      Tell me we can do anything.

      Tell me what love is.

      Tell me I’ll live

      Tell me I know

      Tell me what I want to hear.

      Tell me I’ll forget.

      Say it’s not a problem.

      Say I’ll see the sunrise.

      Say I’ll be forever…

      ***

      And you’re at the door again, and he’s on the doorstep.

      Why don’t you understand?!

      You and I are not gods.

      For our moment together.

      I’ve already paid for it in tears.

      I’ve kept all the things

      That I can’t hide from everyone.

      But tell me.

      What am I to you?

      ***

      Don’t you know what pain is?

      What role will you play forever?

      What fairy tale will you stop believing in?

      Where the light will flicker

      And you’ll be tired of looking for it.

      Where shall I call you?

      You don’t understand me anymore

      And the meaning of my words

      You won’t find

      You’ll leave your life behind

      Making up phrases

      Hello sadness

      So sad,

      Were