Reckless. Linda Howard

When the two men realized that they were trapped, they decided to use me as a hostage. One of them grabbed my arm and held his pistol to my head, forcing me to walk in front of them when they left the house. They were going to take me with them, until it was safe to kill me.”

      Jane shrugged, then took a deep breath. “I didn’t plan it, I swear. I don’t remember if I tripped, or just fainted for a second. Anyway, I fell, and the guy had to let go of me or be jerked off balance. For a second the pistol wasn’t pointed at me, and the policemen fired. They killed both men. The...the man who had held me was shot in the chest and the head, and he fell over on me. His blood splattered all over me, on my face, my hair....” Her voice trailed away.

      For a moment there was something naked in her face, the stark terror and revulsion she’d felt as a child; then, as he had seen her do when he’d rescued her from the snake, she gathered herself together. He watched as she defeated the fear, pushed the shadows away. She smoothed her expression and even managed a glint of humor in her eyes as she turned to look at him. “Okay, it’s your turn. Tell me something that happened to you.”

      Once he’d felt nothing much at all; he’d accepted the chilled, shadowed brutality of his life without thought. He still didn’t flinch from the memories. They were part of him, as ingrained in his flesh and blood, in his very being, as the color of his eyes and the shape of his body. But when he looked into the uncommon innocence of Jane’s eyes, he knew that he couldn’t brutalize her mind with even the mildest tale of the life he’d known. Somehow she had kept a part of herself as pure and crystalline as a mountain stream, a part of childhood forever unsullied. Nothing that had happened to her had touched the inner woman, except to increase the courage and gallantry that he’d seen twice now in her determined efforts to pull herself together and face forward again.

      “I don’t have anything to tell,” he said mildly.

      “Oh, sure!” she hooted, shifting herself on the ground until she was sitting facing him, her legs folded in a boneless sort of knot that made him blink. She rested her chin in her palm and surveyed him, so big and controlled and capable. If this man had led a normal life, she’d eat her boots, she told herself, then quickly glanced down at the boots in question. Right now they had something green and squishy on them. Yuck. They’d have to be cleaned before even a goat would eat them. She returned her dark gaze to Grant and studied him with the seriousness of a scientist bent over a microscope. His scarred face was hard, a study of planes and angles, of bronzed skin pulled tautly over the fierce sculpture of his bones. His eyes were those of an eagle, or a lion; she couldn’t quite decide which. The clear amber color was brighter, paler, than topaz, almost like a yellow diamond, and like an eagle’s, the eyes saw everything. They were guarded, expressionless; they hid an almost unbearable burden of experience and weary cynicism.

      “Are you an agent?” she asked, probing curiously. Somehow, in those few moments, she had discarded the idea that he was a mercenary. Same field she thought, but a different division.

      His mouth quirked. “No.”

      “Okay, let’s try it from another angle. Were you an agent?”

      “What sort of agent?”

      “Stop evading my questions! The cloak-and-dagger sort of agent. You know, the men in overcoats who have forty sets of identification.”

      “No. Your imagination is running wild. I’m too easily identifiable to be any good undercover.”

      That was true. He stood out like a warrior at a tea party. Something went quiet within her, and she knew. “Are you retired?”

      He was quiet for so long that she thought he wasn’t going to answer her. He seemed to be thinking of something else entirely. Then he said flatly, “Yeah, I’m retired. For a year now.”

      His set, blank face hurt her, on the inside. “You were a...weapon, weren’t you?”

      There was a terrible clarity in his eyes as he slowly shifted his gaze to her. “Yes,” he said harshly. “I was a weapon.”

      They had aimed him, fired him, and watched him destroy. He would be matchless, she realized. Before she’d even known him, when she’d seen him gliding into her darkened bedroom like a shadow, she’d realized how lethal he could be. And there was something else, something she could see now. He had retired himself, turned his back and walked away from that grim, shadowed life. Certainly his superiors wouldn’t have wanted to lose his talents.

      She reached out and placed her hand on his, her fingers slim and soft, curling around the awesome strength of his. Her hand was much smaller made with a delicacy that he could crush with a careless movement of his fingers, but implicit in her touch was the trust that he wouldn’t turn that strength against her. A deep breath swelled the muscled planes of his chest. He wanted to take her right then, in the dirt. He wanted to stretch her out and pull her clothes off, bury himself in her. He wanted more of her touch, all of her touch, inside and out. But the need for her satiny female flesh was a compulsion that he couldn’t satisfy with a quick possession, and there wasn’t time for more. The rain was slowing and would stop entirely at any moment. There was a vague feeling marching up and down his spine that told him they couldn’t afford to linger any longer.

      But it was time she knew. He removed his hand from hers, lifting it to cup her chin. His thumb rubbed lightly over her lips. “Soon,” he said, his voice guttural with need, “you’re going to lie down for me. Before I take you back to your daddy, I’m going to have you, and the way I feel now, I figure it’s going to take a long time before I’m finished with you.”

      Jane sat frozen, her eyes those of a startled woodland animal. She couldn’t even protest, because the harsh desire in his voice flooded her mind and her skin with memories. The day before, standing in the stream, he’d kissed her and touched her with such raw sexuality that, for the first time in her life, she’d felt the coiling, writhing tension of desire in herself. For the first time she’d wanted a man, and she’d been shocked by the unfamiliarity of her own body. Now he was doing it to her again, but this time he was using words. He’d stated his intentions bluntly, and images began forming in her mind of the two of them lying twined together, of his naked, magnificent body surging against her.

      He watched the shifting expressions that flitted across her face. She looked surprised, even a little shocked, but she wasn’t angry. He’d have understood anger, or even amusement; that blank astonishment puzzled him. It was as if no man had ever told her that he wanted her. Well, she’d get used to the idea.

      The rain had stopped, and he picked up the packs and the rifle, settling them on his shoulders. Jane followed him without a word when he stepped out from beneath the rocky outcropping into the already increasing heat. Steam rose in wavering clouds from the forest floor, immediately wrapping them in a stifling, humid blanket.

      She was silent for the rest of the afternoon, lost in her thoughts. He stopped at a stream, much smaller than the one they’d seen the day before, and glanced at her. “Care for a bath? You can’t soak, but you can splash.”

      Her eyes lit up, and for the first time that afternoon a smile danced on her full lips. He didn’t need an answer to know how she felt about the idea. Grinning, he searched out a small bar of soap from his pack and held it out to her. “I’ll keep watch, then you can do the same for me. I’ll be up there.”

      Jane looked up the steep bank that he’d indicated. That was the best vantage point around; he’d have a clear view of the stream and the surrounding area. She started to ask if he was going to watch her, too, but bit back the question. As he’d already pointed out, it was too late for modesty. Besides, she felt infinitely safer knowing that he’d be close by.

      He went up the bank as sure-footedly as a cat, and Jane turned to face the stream. It was only about seven feet wide, and wasn’t much more than ankle-deep. Still, it looked like heaven. She hunted her lone change of underwear out of her pack, then sat down to pull off her boots. Glancing nervously over her shoulder to where Grant sat, she saw that he was in profile to her, but she knew that he would keep her in his peripheral vision. She resolutely undid her pants and stepped