More Than Just Mum. Rebecca Smith

not what we’re doing, it’s what I’m doing,’ I tell her and everyone puts down their knives and forks and I finally have their unadulterated attention. Because I don’t do anything without any of them. Not ever.

      ‘I feel like we should have a drum roll.’ Scarlet raises one eyebrow. ‘You’re really building this up, Mum. I’ve got places to be this afternoon.’

      I frown. ‘What places? And speaking of which, have you been bunking off school? Because I’ve been told by two different people now that you’ve been spotted out and about in places that you shouldn’t be.’

      Scarlet inhales sharply and turns to glower at Dylan. ‘What people? As if I can’t guess.’

      Dylan shrugs. ‘Wasn’t me, so you can stop giving me the evil eye,’

      I bang my hand on the table. ‘Scarlet! Have you or have you not been hanging out in town when you should be at school? This is incredibly serious, you know. You’re supposed to be getting an education, not wasting these precious years shopping and lazing about in the park.’

      ‘I’d probably get more of an education in the park than I would at our crappy school,’ she mutters.

      She does have a point. Not that I’m prepared to concede it.

      ‘Scarlet’s not daft enough to skive school,’ states Nick. ‘So it must have been someone else who looks like her. Anyway, about this big announcement, Hannah.’

      ‘God. Imagine looking like Scarlet.’ Dylan rocks back on his chair and smirks at his sister.

      ‘At least I’ve got all my own teeth,’ she snarls back.

      Dylan laughs. ‘So have I. Is that the best you’ve got? You’re slacking, Scarlet – maybe you should start attending school a bit more.’

      Scarlet’s growl of anger is drowned out by Nick’s voice. ‘Your mother is trying to tell us something and I for one am very keen to hear what she has to say. So either be quiet or you can leave the room.’ He turns to face me. ‘Hannah. Please ignore our horribly behaved offspring and tell me about this announcement.’

      I clear my throat, making sure that I have the full attention of the room.

      ‘What I want to talk to you all about is the fact that I have made a big decision,’ I declare, rather grandly. ‘And my decision is that I am going to be getting a new job, which I’m really, really excited about.’

      ‘Thank god for that,’ murmurs Nick and when I look across the table, he is holding his hands together and looking up at the ceiling, as if he’s praying. With any luck he’ll notice that two of the spotlights are out and finally get around to changing the bulbs.

      ‘I’m not going back to full-time teaching,’ I say, just to clarify the situation. ‘Probably not, anyway.’

      Nick’s face falls. ‘What are you going to be doing then?’ he asks. ‘Do you actually have a new job or is this whole thing still in the let’s-talk-about-it-for-the-next-six-months stage?’

      I frown at him. ‘Don’t be like that, Nick. This is a fledgling idea and I don’t need your negativity to squash it before I’ve even begun.’

      He gives me a firm look. ‘So it’s not going to be like the time that you watched a television programme about being a paramedic and decided that you could retrain during your maternity leave?’

      It’s unfair of him to bring that up. Dylan was a few months old and I was sleep deprived and the fact that I can’t stand the sight of blood seemed like a trivial point. I attended one first-aid training session and had to leave at the coffee break. And right now, when I am flushed with the excitement of a new project, I do not need reminding of my past mistakes. Besides, this is going to be nothing like that.

      ‘This is going to be nothing like that,’ I inform Nick, haughtily. ‘This is going to be an actual serious venture.’

      ‘So what are you going to do, Mum?’ asks Dylan. ‘Are there seconds of potatoes?’

      Nick passes him the bowl. ‘Help yourself. And yes, what are you going to do, Hannah?’

      ‘That’s what I want to talk to you all about,’ I say, trying to keep the exasperation out of my voice. ‘I wanted to see if you have any ideas.’

      In my head, they all take a moment to consider my talents and attributes before offering helpful and exciting job suggestions.

      In reality, they react before the words are barely out of my mouth.

      ‘You could work at the supermarket,’ says Dylan. ‘You’re always saying that it’s your second home.’

      ‘One of my friends has started doing Saturday shifts at Nando’s and he gets free chicken,’ Scarlet tells me. ‘You could see if they’ve got any vacancies there.’

      ‘Mmmm,’ groans Dylan appreciatively, in his best Homer Simpson voice. ‘Free chicken.’

      I force a smile. ‘I was rather thinking of a job that would utilise my years of experience. You know, something where my transferable skills will really come into their own.’

      ‘So we need to identify your transferable skills,’ says Nick, looking thoughtful.

      The room goes silent.

      ‘Oh, come on!’ I break after thirty seconds. ‘I’ve not exactly spent the last twenty years sitting on my backside. I have tons of expertise.’

      The faces in front of me are now demonstrating their best thinking poses. Nick’s eyes are looking up and to the left as he tries to retrieve memories of my brilliance. Scarlet is biting her finger and staring at me while Dylan is scratching his head and scrunching up his mouth. Only Benji looks confident and that’s because he is making the most of their distraction to load his plate with more food.

      None of which is particularly reassuring or complimentary.

      Eventually, after an interminable hush, Dylan speaks.

      ‘You could always be a party planner?’ It’s more of a question than a statement.

      ‘What does a party planner do?’ asks Benji, looking up from his plate.

      Scarlet rolls her eyes. ‘They clean toilets,’ she tells him.

      ‘Seriously?’ Benji looks puzzled. ‘So why are they called—’

      ‘Oh my god! Why are you so retarded?’ groans Scarlet, slapping the palm of her hand against her forehead.

      ‘Don’t call your brother retarded,’ growls Nick.

      ‘The clue is in the name,’ Dylan tells Benji. ‘They plan parties, genius.’

      ‘Don’t call your brother a genius,’ I snap, not really thinking about what I’m saying. ‘And becoming a party planner isn’t really the direction that I’m thinking of going in.’

      ‘You are good at organising things,’ says Nick. I stare at him suspiciously to see if this is a roundabout way of saying that I’m bossy, but his smile seems genuine enough so I let it go.

      Maybe I should consider it, as it’s the first vaguely sensible suggestion that I’ve been given. I let the possibility percolate round my brain, imagining myself floating around a fancy venue, ensuring that the champagne fountain and the table decorations are all in place. I could do that, no problem. But I bet the party planner doesn’t actually ever get to enjoy the festivities. I’ll probably be in the back, sleeves rolled up and doing the washing up or sorting the blocked toilets or dealing with rowdy partygoers who don’t know when they’ve had enough of a good thing. So basically doing what I have to do at home.

      ‘How illegal is it to punch someone in self-defence?’ asks Scarlet casually, whipping my thoughts away from my doomed party planner career. ‘Is it okay if they