The White Ladies of Worcester. Florence Louisa Barclay

subject to Thy will, and our hearts be ever honestly ready to serve Thee. Amen.

      Her eyes rested, with a wistful smile, upon the book.

      "This prayer might suffice," she said, "if our hearts were truly honest, if our wills were ever yielded. But, alas, our hearts are deceitful above all things, and our wills are apt to turn traitor to our good intentions.

      "Therefore I have found for you, in the Gregorian Sacramentary, another prayer—less well-known, yet much more ancient, written over six hundred years ago. It deals effectually with the deceitful heart, the insidious, tempting thoughts, and the unstable will. Here is a translation which I have myself inscribed upon the margin."

      The Prioress laid her folded hands upon the missal and as she repeated the ancient sixth-century prayer, in all its depth of inspired simplicity, her voice thrilled with deep emotion, for she was giving to another that which had meant infinitely much to her own inner life.

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      Almighty God, unto Whom all hearts be open, all desires known, and from Whom no secrets are hid: Cleanse the thoughts of our hearts by the inspiration of Thy Holy Spirit, that we may perfectly love Thee, and worthily magnify Thy Holy Name, through Christ our Lord. Amen.

      The Prioress turned her face from Sister Seraphine's unresponsive countenance and fixed her eyes once more upon the tree-tops. She was thinking of the long years of secret conflict, known only to Him from Whom no secrets are hid; of the constant cleansing of her thoughts, for which she had so earnestly pleaded; of the fear lest she should never worthily magnify that Holy Name.

      Presently—her heart filled with humble tenderness—she turned to

      Sister Seraphine.

      "These prayers, my child, which you will commit to memory before you sleep this night, will protect you from a too insistent recollection of the world you have resigned; and will assist you, with real inward thoroughness, to die daily to self, in order that the Holy Name of our dear Lord may be more worthily magnified in you."

      But, alas! this gentle treatment, these long silences, this quiet recitation of holy prayers, had but stirred the naughty spirit in Sister Seraphine.

      Her shallow nature failed to understand the deeps of the noble heart, dealing thus tenderly with her. She measured its ocean-wide greatness, by the little artificial runnels of her own morbid emotions. She mistook gentleness for weakness; calm self-control, for lack of strength of will. Her wholesome awe of the Prioress was forgotten.

      "But I do not want to die!" she exclaimed. "I want to live—to live—to live!"

      The Prioress looked up, astonished.

      The surface humility had departed from the swollen countenance of

      Sister Seraphine. The petulant defiance was plainly visible.

      "Kneel!" commanded the Prioress, with authority.

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      The wayward nun jerked down upon her knees, upsetting the stool behind her.

      The Prioress made a quick movement, then restrained herself. She had prayed for patience in dealing with wilfulness.

      "We die that we may live," she said, solemnly. "Sister Seraphine, this is the lesson your wayward heart must learn. Dying to self, we live unto God. Dying to sin, we live unto righteousness. Dying to the world, we find the Life Eternal."

      On her knees upon the floor, Sister Seraphine felt her position to be such as lent itself to pathos.

      "But I want to live to the world!" she cried, and burst into tears.

      Now Convent life does not tend to further individual grief. Constant devout contemplation of the Supreme Sorrow which wrought the world's salvation lessens the inclination to shed tears of self-pity.

      The Prioress was startled and alarmed by the pathetic sobs of Sister

      Seraphine.

      This young nun had but lately been sent on to the Nunnery at Whytstone from a convent at Tewkesbury in which she had served her novitiate, and taken her final vows. The Prioress now realised how little she knew of the inner working of the mind of Sister Seraphine, and blamed herself for having looked upon the outward appearance rather than upon the heart, taken too much for granted, and relied too entirely upon the reports of others. Her sense of failure, toward the Community in general, and toward Seraphine in particular, lent her a fresh stock of patience.

      She raised the weeping nun from the floor, put her arm around her, with protective gesture, and led her before the Shrine of the Madonna.

      "My child," she said, "there are things we are called upon to suffer which we can best tell to our blessèd Lady, herself. Try to unburden your heart and find comfort . . . Does your mind hark back to the

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      thought of the earthly love you resigned in order to give yourself solely to the heavenly? . . . Are you troubled by fears lest you wronged the man you loved, when, leaving him, you became the bride of Heaven?"

      Sister Seraphine smiled—a scornful little smile. "Nay," she said, "I was weary of Wilfred. But—there were others."

      The voice of the Prioress grew even graver, and more sad.

      "Is it then the Fact of marriage which you desired and regret?"

      Sister Seraphine laughed—a hard, self-conscious, little laugh.

      "Nay, I could not have brooked to be bound to any man. But I liked to be loved, and I liked to be First in the thought and heart of another."

      The Prioress looked at the pretty, tear-stained face, at the softly moulded form. Then an idea came to her. To voice it, lifted the veil from the very Holy of Holies of her own heart's sufferings; but she would not shrink from aught which could help this soul she was striving to uplift.

      With her eyes resting upon the Babe in the arms of the Virgin Mother, she asked, gravely and low:

      "Is it the ceaseless longing to have had a little child of your own to hold in your arms, to gather to your breast, to put to sleep upon your knees, which keeps your heart turning restlessly back to the world?"

      Sister Seraphine gazed at the Prioress, in utter amazement.

      "Nay, then, indeed!" she replied, impatiently. "Always have I hated children. To escape from the vexations of motherhood were reason enough for leaving the world."

      Then the Prioress withdrew her protective arm, and looked sternly upon

      Sister Seraphine.

      "You are playing false to your vows," she said; "you are slighting your vocation; yet no worthy or noble feeling draws your heart back to the

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      world. You do but desire vain pomp and show; all those things which minister to the enthronement of self. Return to your cell and spend three hours in prayer and penitence before the crucifix."

      The Prioress lifted her hand and pointed to the figure of the Christ, hanging upon the great rugged cross against the wall, facing the door. The sublimity of a supreme adoration was in her voice, as she made her last appeal.

      "Surely," she said, "surely no love of self can live, in view of the death and sacrifice of our blessèd Lord! Kneel then before the crucifix and learn——"

      But the over-wrought mind of Sister Seraphine, suddenly convinced of the futility of its hopeless rebellion, passed, in that moment, altogether beyond control.

      With a shout of wild laughter, she flung back her head, pointing with outstretched finger at the crucifix.

      "Death! Death! Death!" she shrieked, "helpless, hopeless, terrible!

      I ask for life, I want to live; I am young, I am gay, I am beautiful.

      And they bid—bid—bid me kneel—long hours—watching death." Her

      voice rose to a piercing scream. "Ah, HA! That will I NOT! A dead

      God