The Statue. Wolf Mari

      The Statue

      There is a time for doing and a time for going home. But where is home in an ever-changing universe?

      "Lewis," Martha said. "I want to go home."

      She didn't look at me. I followed her gaze to Earth, rising in the east.

      It came up over the desert horizon, a clear, bright star at this distance. Right now it was the Morning Star. It wasn't long before dawn.

      I looked back at Martha sitting quietly beside me with her shawl drawn tightly about her knees. She had waited to see it also, of course. It had become almost a ritual with us these last few years, staying up night after night to watch the earthrise.

      She didn't say anything more. Even the gentle squeak of her rocking chair had fallen silent. Only her hands moved. I could see them trembling where they lay folded in her lap, trembling with emotion and tiredness and old age. I knew what she was thinking. After seventy years there can be no secrets.

      We sat on the glassed-in veranda of our Martian home looking up at the Morning Star. To us it wasn't a point of light. It was the continents and oceans of Earth, the mountains and meadows and laughing streams of our childhood. We saw Earth still, though we had lived on Mars for almost sixty-six years.

      "Lewis," Martha whispered softly. "It's very bright tonight, isn't it?"

      "Yes," I said.

      "It seems so near."

      She sighed and drew the shawl higher about her waist.

      "Only three months by rocket ship," she said. "We could be back home in three months, Lewis, if we went out on this week's run."

      I nodded. For years we'd watched the rocket ships streak upward through the thin Martian atmosphere, and we'd envied the men who so casually travelled from world to world. But it had been a useless envy, something of which we rarely spoke.

      Inside our veranda the air was cool and slightly moist. Earth air, perfumed with the scent of Earth roses. Yet we knew it was only illusion. Outside, just beyond the glass, the cold night air of Mars lay thin and alien and smelling of alkali. It seemed to me tonight that I could smell that ever-dry Martian dust, even here. I sighed, fumbling for my pipe.

      "Lewis," Martha said, very softly.

      "What is it?" I cupped my hands over the match flame.

      "Nothing. It's just that I wish – I wish we could go home, right away. Home to Earth. I want to see it again, before we die."

      "We'll go back," I said. "Next year for sure. We'll have enough money then."

      She sighed. "Next year may be too late."

      I looked over at her, startled. She'd never talked like that before. I started to protest, but the words died away before I could even speak them. She was right. Next year might indeed be too late.

      Her work-coarsened hands were thin, too thin, and they never stopped shaking any more. Her body was a frail shadow of what it had once been. Even her voice was frail now.

      She was old. We were both old. There wouldn't be many more Martian summers for us, nor many years of missing Earth.

      "Why can't we go back this year, Lewis?"

      She smiled at me almost apologetically. She knew the reason as well as I did.

      "We can't," I said. "There's not enough money."

      "There's enough for our tickets."

      I'd explained all that to her before, too. Perhaps she'd forgotten. Lately I often had to explain things more than once.

      "You can't buy passage unless you have enough extra for insurance, and travelers' checks, and passport tax. The company has to protect itself. Unless you're financially responsible, they won't take you on the ships."

      She shook her head. "Sometimes I wonder if we'll ever have enough."

      We'd saved our money for years, but it was a pitifully small savings. We weren't rich people who could go down to the spaceport and buy passage on the rocket ships, no questions asked, no bond required. We were only farmers, eking our livelihood from the unproductive Martian soil, only two of the countless little people of the solar system. In all our lifetime we'd never been able to save enough to go home to Earth.

      "One more year," I said. "If the crop prices stay up…"

      She smiled, a sad little smile that didn't reach her eyes. "Yes, Lewis," she said. "One more year."

      But I couldn't stop thinking of what she'd said earlier, nor stop seeing her thin, tired body. Neither of us was strong any more, but of the two I was far stronger than she.

      When we'd left Earth she'd been as eager and graceful as a child. We hadn't been much past childhood then, either of us…

      "Sometimes I wonder why we ever came here," she said.

      "It's been a good life."

      She sighed. "I know. But now that it's nearly over, there's nothing to hold us here."

      "No," I said. "There's not."

      If we had had children it might have been different. As it was, we lived surrounded by the children and grandchildren of our friends. Our friends themselves were dead. One by one they had died, all of those who came with us on the first colonizing ship to Mars. All of those who came later, on the second and third ships. Their children were our neighbors now – and they were Martian born. It wasn't the same.

      She leaned over and pressed my hand. "We'd better go in, Lewis," she said. "We need our sleep."

      Her eyes were raised again to the green star that was Earth. Watching her, I knew that I loved her now as much as when we had been young together. More, really, for we had added years of shared memories. I wanted so much to give her what she longed for, what we both longed for. But I couldn't think of any way to do it. Not this year.

      Once, almost seventy years before, I had smiled at the girl who had just promised to become my wife, and I'd said: "I'll give you the world, darling. All tied up in pink ribbons."

      I didn't want to think about that now.

      We got up and went into the house and shut the veranda door behind us.

      Icouldn't go to sleep. For hours I lay in bed staring up at the shadowed ceiling, trying to think of some way to raise the money. But there wasn't any way that I could see. It would be at least eight months before enough of the greenhouse crops were harvested.

      What would happen, I wondered, if I went to the spaceport and asked for tickets? If I explained that we couldn't buy insurance, that we couldn't put up the bond guaranteeing we wouldn't become public charges back on Earth… But all the time I wondered I knew the answer. Rules were rules. They wouldn't be broken especially not for two old farmers who had long outlived their usefulness and their time.

      Martha sighed in her sleep and turned over. It was light enough now for me to see her face clearly. She was smiling. But a minute ago she had been crying, for the tears were still wet on her cheeks.

      Perhaps she was dreaming of Earth again.

      Suddenly, watching her, I didn't care if they laughed at me or lectured me on my responsibilities to the government as if I were a senile fool. I was going to the spaceport. I was going to find out if, somehow, we couldn't go back.

      I got up and dressed and went out, walking softly so as not to awaken her. But even so she heard me and called out to me.

      "Lewis…"

      I turned at the head of the stairs and looked back into the room.

      "Don't get up, Martha," I said. "I'm going into town."

      "All right, Lewis."

      She relaxed, and a minute later she was asleep again. I tiptoed downstairs and out the front door to where the trike car was parked, and started for the village a mile to the west.

      It was desert all the way. Dry, fine red sand that swirled upward in choking clouds, if you stepped off the pavement into it. The narrow road cut straight through it, linking the outlying district farms