The Man with a Shadow. Fenn George Manville

do think. I have lain here and thought for hours. I am not ashamed to confess it. Why should I be?”

      She looked up at him inquiringly; while he for the moment felt giddy with emotion, but recovered himself directly.

      “She is delirious, poor child,” he said to himself; and he tried to remove the enlacing arms from his neck.

      “No, no; don’t leave me,” she said softly. “Don’t be angry with me for saying this.”

      “I am not angry, but you are weak. You have been very ill, and you must not be excited now.”

      “No, I am not excited. I only feel happy – so happy. You are not angry?”

      “Angry? No,” he said tenderly. “There, let me lay you back upon your pillow. Try and sleep.”

      “No. I do not wish to sleep. Only tell me once again that you are not cross, and then sit down by me, and let me hold your hand.”

      “Poor girl!” muttered North, as he felt the hands which had clasped his neck steal down his arm softly and lingeringly, as if they delighted in its strength and muscularity, resting for a few moments upon his wrist, and then grasping his hand tightly, while their owner uttered a low sigh of satisfaction.

      He seated himself by the bedside, and Leo said softly, as she lay gazing into his eyes:

      “I feel so happy and restful now.”

      “And as if you can sleep?”

      “Sleep? No. Let me lie and look at you. Don’t speak. I want to think. Shall I die?”

      “Die? No; you must get better now, and grow strong, for Mary’s sake and for Hartley’s.”

      “And for yours,” said Leo softly, as she smiled lovingly in his face. “I shall be your wife if I live.”

      “You shall live, and grow to be happy with all who love you.”

      “Yes,” she said softly, “with all who love me;” and she closed her eyes.

      “It is delirium, poor child,” said North to himself. “Good heavens! am I such a scoundrel as to think otherwise?”

      He sat back in his chair startled by the thoughts which had surged up to his brain. He was horrified. For, in spite of medical teaching, of his thorough command over himself, and of the fact that he had always been one whose love was his profession, he had found that he was strongly moved by the words and acts of the beautiful girl who had seemed to be laying bare the secrets of her heart.

      “Delirium – delirium! the workings of a distempered brain,” he said to himself fiercely. “Good heavens! am I going to be delirious too?”

      At that moment Leo opened her eyes again, with a calm, soft light seeming to burn therein, as she smiled in his face and drew his hand more to her pillow so that she could rest her cheek upon it, and once more her eyes half closed; but he knew that she was gazing at him still with the same soft, loving look which, in spite of his self-control, made his heart beat with a dull, heavy throb.

      “I have so longed to tell you all this,” she whispered; “but I never dared till now. It has made me bitter, and distant, and strange to you. I was angry with myself for loving you; and yet I could not help it. You made me love you. I always did – I always shall.”

      “It is delirium,” panted North. “I will not listen to her. Pah! it is absurd. Where is my manliness – where are all my honourable feelings? I can master such folly, and I will.”

      He set his teeth, and his face grew hard and cold; but all the same his pulses quickened, and as he sat prisoned there, with those soft, lustrous eyes gazing into his, he found that he was dreaming of another life in which his scientific researches would be forgotten in the sweet, dreamy, sensuous existence which would be his – enlaced in that loving embrace, while those eyes gazed in his as they were gazing now, and those curved lips returned his kisses or murmured tenderly as once more they whispered the secrets of her breast.

      “It has been so long. I have been so ill: but I do not complain, for it has made me free to speak to you as I speak now. No, no; don’t take away your hand. Let me rest like that.”

      He was softly stealing away his hand, but she clung to it the more tightly, and her white teeth glistened between her ruby lips in a smile that was half mocking.

      He heaved a deep sigh, and resigned himself to his position, while the new thoughts which came surging on in a flood began to sweep everything before them. She had been delirious, but there was no delirium here. She loved him. This young and beautiful girl, to whom for years he had given no thought save as the sister of his old friend, loved him passionately, and he knew now the meaning of the ideas which had troubled him for days – he must – he did love her in return.

      But he was not beaten yet. A flush rose to his forehead and he set his teeth hard, as he recalled his position – the confidence reposed in him as a medical man – a confidence which he seemed to be abusing; and drawing his breath deeply, he resolved that he would be man enough to resist this temptation now Leo was weak and excited. She was yielding to her impulse as she would not have yielded had she been strong and well; hence he would be taking an unmanly advantage if he trespassed upon her weakness now.

      His course was open; his mind clear. He would be tender and kind to her now. After she was well he could listen to her confessions of love as a lover should; and as the thought expanded in his brain that he would call this loving girl wife, he wondered how it was that he could have been so dull and cold before – how it was that love should have been shut from his mental vision as by a veil? And he sat gazing at his patient, almost dazzled by the bright light which seemed to be shed upon his future, till Hartley softly entered the room.

      “Any change?” he whispered.

      North glanced at the bed, and his heart beat fast. Leo was again sleeping uneasily, and muttering in a low whisper. To an ordinary observer there seemed to be none, but to Horace North there was an enormous change, and he asked himself whether he should speak now or wait.

      He could not speak then of the subject nearest to his heart. He and Salis had always been the most intimate of friends – almost brothers – and they would be quite brothers in the future; but he could not tell him then.

      “She seems calmer,” he whispered. “She was awake and talking a little while ago.”

      “What – lucidly – sensibly?”

      In spite of himself North could not help a start as he turned and met his friend’s eye, while his words were slow and constrained as he said, in a hesitating manner:

      “Yes; I think so. But she is very weak.” And the mental question insisted upon being heard – Was she speaking sensibly, and as one in the full possession of her senses?

      “North, old fellow, this is great news,” cried the curate. “Heaven be thanked! I must go and tell Mary.”

      He was hurrying from the room, but his friend caught his arm.

      “No, no; not yet,” he said hurriedly. “I would not raise her hopes too much.”

      “Not when she is starving for the merest crumb of comfort? I must tell her.”

      “Then be content to say I think she is a trifle better,” whispered North.

      “But the climax must have come and gone?”

      “I – I am not sure. The case is peculiar. Do as I say, and give her the crumb of comfort of which you spoke. To-morrow, perhaps, I can speak more definitely.”

      Hartley Salis left the room, and North once more bent over the bed. His heart beat, his pulses throbbed, and the nerves in his temples seemed to tingle, as he laid his hand upon the burning brow, placed a finger upon the wrist, where the pulse beat so hard and pitifully, while, when he softly raised one of the blue-veined eyelids and gazed at the pupil, he drew back slowly, and shaded the sick girl’s face from the light.

      It was growing late, the wind howled mournfully about the house, and from time to time there was a soft, patting noise at