Clear your Clutter - Manifest your dreams. Birgit Medele

down, in out, down up, left right – there is no time for pausing or reflecting. We get sidetracked playing in our life-sized Wendy house full-time, plodding along in a comfy illusion of being busy and therefore important and needed. It is easy to mistake movement for achievement and get fooled by being forever busy – doing what? The most useful side effect of this mock activism in our hamster-wheel home is that we never have to sit down and face an empty moment. We avoid unoccupied time and the confrontation with questions lingering right underneath those boxes, ready to jump at us. “Why are you here, what are your dreams? How can you fulfil your potential? Where to from here?” Clutter is a protective device, a skilfully constructed obstacle course that keeps out the intruders that we cannot simply file away. Clutter is a wall that we erect between us and the scarier topics. It keeps them at bay, we take the foot off the accelerator and grind to a halt in our bagged up comfort zone. Diligently beavering away, we set up a dam to stem the floods of feelings: the longing for a partner or the career change we never embarked on. Grief for the children we never had, loved ones we lost, opportunities missed. Sadness that the children we did have stopped being children and have moved out, moved on and left us. We try to fill an inner void with stuff, plaster over the hurt with yet another purchase.

      The root cause for a passion for collecting can be hidden in the past. Perhaps our ancestors lost their belongings when they had to suddenly leave a city or country. Wander back in time: when did the hoarding start? Was it after a separation, divorce or bereavement, a traumatic childhood experience? One day you might have come home from school to find that a favourite soft toy – the rocking horse or train set – had disappeared. Your guardians had decided that, “You didn’t need that anymore.” You had been ignored and hurt. Deeply. Ever since, you have been trying to fill the gap caused by this wound; never letting go of anything; holding on to a boxed-up, past out of sight but not out of mind. At some point it became impossible to pluck up the courage to wake the sleeping memories. As long as the cartons are dozing, sealed and untouched, we do not have to deal with our stuff. We create a protective shell, an additional layer between us and the world out there or the worlds inside ourselves. Clutter is a cocoon. It tones down life; holds it at bay, shoved into some sort of receptacle. Stick on the label, fasten the lid; sorted. Those shielding mechanisms temporarily make sense, but after a while the disadvantages become obvious.

      In a cocoon you cannot see very far. Only once we break free, can we emerge as the iridescent butterfly that we really are and set off, gently tumbling towards our dreams.

      Feign security

      Too many of our bits and pieces get an easy ride when it comes to the crunch-question: should it stay or should it go? They pass the acid test with the eternal favourite of all hoarder excuses, “That might come in useful one day!” Even if we don’t need it, the children might want it in fifteen years time. Or a friend. The neighbours..? Underneath this innocent little excuse lurks a paralysing emotion; fear. We might have been spared first-hand experiences of hunger or homelessness, but still catch ourselves humming along to the feeling tones of an ever-present subconscious ‘tomorrow there might not be enough.’ Maybe some of our predecessors had to endure war times or an economic depression. Poverty consciousness can be passed down through the generations, but we can break the chain and transform fear vibes and cultivate trust every time we let go of an object that was kept incarcerated in a box dungeon for security reasons only. Once we have realised that our expectations create our reality we unsubscribe from the widespread mantra, “Every time I give something away I need it again”. Instead we use the brand new confidence gained from clearing successes (five pairs of trousers, three chipped mugs, one flaky friend!) to pat ourselves on the back and say out loud, “Should I ever require a spare tin opener again, I trust life will provide me with an even better one.” Using objects as security blankets is a habit we can break anytime we choose to. For a child, pieces of fabric transform into an imaginary friend and we hold on to familiar imagery just the same. Gifts we receive prove how popular we are; books signify knowledge; trophies or certificates are symbols of achievement. There is nothing wrong with a few well-placed memorabilia spreading comforting or encouraging vibes; it is about quantity. Kids rarely own 75 security blankets; they do not burden themselves with them or suffocate themselves underneath. How much stuff does it take to feel safe, to feel rich or secure? What does enough feel like? “The more stuff I stack around me, the more secure I am,” is a misunderstanding. Belongings can do many things, but making us permanently feel safe and loved is outside their remit.

      Security is never in stuff. It is found in having the confidence to handle any experience that life might throw our way. The storms will come, but we are steering our boat.

      Create identity

      We long for soul mates, for the community that understands where we are coming from and knows what we are all about. Identifying with a nation, region or religion meets the innate desire to belong; to be part of a greater good. By supporting a football team, worshipping a certain type of music, joining a party, parish or community, we move into the equivalent of an emotional home. As a fan we can live and express feelings of individuality and union at the same time. Granny collects tea pots; a colleague has amassed hundreds of vinyl records; friends are enthusiastic about apps, model airplanes or vintage cartoons. Stacks of ancient theatre programmes or school exercise books reassure us, “I did that – that’s me.” We pick and choose beliefs, clothes and shades of terracotta and perform a series of passionate identifications with artefacts; selecting them from the cultural market garden, hoping they will form a harmonious, thousand-petalled display that, the picture of our soul. Ultimately we are accumulating an essence. An art collection as an outlet for creativity; the movie compilation as the manifested desire to do some acting one day or a stint in comedy circles. Model planes symbolise speed, getting somewhere fast; aspirations of reaching goals, of freedom...

      Go on a safari into your very own jungle of things. What image(s) are you attached to? Which essence are you hoarding? How could you get closer without having to put up one shelf after another? Endless rows of books might stand for (please delete as appropriate), “I’m well read / widely travelled / open minded / educated / eclectic / enlightened / cool / classy / different / intelligent / witty / imaginative / spiritual / special / an art lover / lateral thinker / reformer / revolutionary / a good dad / in the know / committed to personal development and/or saving the planet...” What is the headline above your shelves, spelt out in invisible ink?

      We want to be respected and loved and use objects to communicate this. “Look at this stuff, that’s how unique I am! Please love me for what I’m wearing / driving / listening to...” Of course we know deep down that others do not like us for our collections of handbags or sophisticated living room interiors. If we make people laugh, we can do without the ultimate leather-bound twelve volume jokes collection. And if we have not been abundantly blessed with a sense of humour and/or the gift of the gab, even the most elaborate compilation will not be able to help change that. We communicate through our being, what we are outshines everything we hoard, say or do.

      Cross-cultural living is a challenge because we have to keep more than one identity alive. One client said, “We live two lives, a contemporary Western and a traditional Indian one. I have to store the Christmas decorations as well as Saris and Dwali paraphernalia.”

      When thinking about status it gets interesting as soon as we start sidestepping beloved clichés like the red open-top sports car. Status symbols are chameleons and adopt the most varied of formats. They are tools to communicate an image and we all use them to broadcast our own personal messages. For some it is about brands, for others it is about avoiding them. They go to great lengths to only ever use local, organic or recycled goods in order to distance themselves from the shallow consumerism of a throwaway society. The big relief: trying to impress others never works anyway, so we might as well call it a day and stop sweating the small stuff.

      We are not what we have, we are what we are. We are our story, a mosaic of experience puzzle pieces laid out in a magnificent, brilliantly unique pattern. How about expanding a collection that we started years ago? Key items might still be missing: a dream holiday, an encounter or a