Safe in His Hands. Amy Ruttan

I see her now, Charley?”

      “Sure. But just Genen,” she said, as the entire Atavik and Tikivik clan seemed to rise. Scanning the clinic area, she couldn’t see Quinn anywhere. Biting her bottom lip, she headed over to George.

      “Where’s Dr. Devlyn?”

      “In your office. I thought he’d be most comfortable there.”

      The blood drained from Charlotte’s face. “My office?” Oh, God. She hadn’t had a chance to clear away her personal items, including the cherished, faded old sonogram. The ultrasound he hadn’t even bothered to attend. The same sonogram he’d just grunted at when she’d shown it to him.

       “Don’t you want to see? It’s amazing!”

       “It’s not like you haven’t seen a sonogram before.”

       “I know. But, Quinn, it’s our baby.”

       He shrugged. “I have to go, Charlotte. I’m late for my rounds already.”

      He hadn’t wanted to see it then and even though it was childish, she didn’t want to share it with him now. Not after five years. He didn’t deserve to see it or share in any part of her grief.

       CHAPTER THREE

      TRYING NOT TO panic, she thanked George and headed towards her office. She raised her hand to knock and then thought better of it. Why should she knock? It was her office and he was the visitor. She walked in. Quinn wasn’t behind her desk, but was staring out the window at the snow swirling over the inlet. He turned when she entered, his face unreadable.

      “Is Ms. Tikivik stable?” he asked.

      “Yes. It was an irritation of the cervix, but I’d like you to do an ultrasound and check the status of the fetus yourself.”

      “I will.” He glanced back out the window. “I have to say I’ve never seen so many houses tied down to cables and supported on metal beams. It’s like they’re a bunch of beach houses or something.”

      Charlotte couldn’t help but smile. “The houses are raised because of permafrost. There are no basements in Cape Recluse. The village also has a lot of high winds. We may seem sheltered, with mountains surrounding us, but it’s really very windy. We have to tie everything down.”

      Quinn’s eyebrows arched. “I guess. With no trees to form a windbreak.”

      “Yeah, you could say that.”

      “It’s quite interesting—the landscape, that is.”

      Now it was Charlotte’s turn to be impressed. He’d never been overly interested in anything else before, beyond the next surgery.

      Well, he’d been interested in her until she’d got pregnant and decided to become a family physician.

      “Yes. It is an interesting vista,” she agreed.

      Quinn shivered and then nodded. “This is some community. They all seem to care for one another, like family.” He shook his head. “It’s like the Brady Bunch up here or something.”

      “That’s because they genuinely do care. It’s a small place and everyone knows everybody. There are no secrets.”

      That caught his attention and he shot her a questioning look. “Really? No secrets?”

      “Nope. Not a single one.” Suddenly she had a bad case of butterflies. She was nervous. Perhaps it was the fact they were in an enclosed room, alone. After her reaction to him earlier, the last place she wanted to be was in a private office with him.

      He strode over to her, his eyes soft, with a twinkle of devilment still dancing there. As he reached out and brushed an errant curl from her face, a zip of delight traveled down her spine. His knuckles brushed her cheek, causing her body to waken. One simple touch from him and her body responded as if it had been in a slumber for the last five years.

      Maybe it had. No other man had been able to arouse her by a simple touch before. It angered her that Quinn was the only one who could.

      “Don’t,” she whispered, her voice catching in her throat.

      “What?”

      “Touch me with familiarity.”

      Quinn moved his hand. “I’m sorry, Charlotte. It’s force of habit, even after all this time.”

      Tears stung her eyes and she cleared her throat before taking a step back. “You shouldn’t keep the Tikiviks waiting.”

      “Do you have some scrubs for me?”

      “Of course. See Rosie at Reception and she’ll get you fitted.” Charlotte tucked her hair behind her ear as he stared at her, the tension in the room almost palpable. Why wasn’t he leaving? “Is there anything else?”

      Quinn glanced away. “No. I’ll go and see Rosie now.”

      Quinn walked past her and Charlotte watched him go, unease and apprehension twisting her stomach. When he left the room she snatched the picture frame off her desk and stared at the sonogram, thinking about the baby she’d lost. He or she would’ve been five years old, now, and she couldn’t help but wonder if the baby would’ve had the same sandy-brown hair and deep brown eyes as Quinn. Perhaps their baby would’ve favored her, with red curls and emerald eyes, or been a mixture of them both.

      Closing her eyes, she pictured a rambunctious boy, like she always did when she thought about her lost baby. He’d have had rosy cheeks, sandy-brown hair and green eyes. She felt the sting of tears and brushed them away quickly.

      Why was she letting herself feel this way again?

      Why was she letting Quinn Devlyn in again?

      Because I never let him go.

      Sighing, she opened her filing cabinet and pushed the picture to the back before locking the drawer. She slipped the key into her pocket. It was really a moot point, now. There was no baby of theirs, not now and not ever.

      Quinn peeled off the clothes he’d been wearing for the last several hours. He was bone weary and absolutely freezing, but this was the moment where he shone, being a surgical god.

      His hand trembled slightly and he gripped it.

      Just tired, that was all.

      Besides, this was nothing big. Just an ultrasound and a consult. If this tremor continued he’d remove himself from the case. The patient’s life and that of the baby were more important than proving to the world he was still a viable surgeon.

      You can do this.

      Quinn pulled on the scrubs. As he splashed some water on his face, his mind wandered to the sonogram he’d spied on Charlotte’s desk.

      Their baby.

      The one they’d lost. It had been the scariest moment of his life. Not even the accident that had damaged his hand had been as terrifying as the moment when they’d lost their baby. Charlotte had bled badly after she’d miscarried. He’d found her collapsed on the floor of their apartment.

      “Hold on, honey. Hold on, Charlotte.” He reached down and stroked her pale face.

      Quinn shuddered, sending the horrific nightmare back to where it had come from. That moment had been far worse than the accident he’d endured alone.

      Seeing the sonogram on her desk, in a frame, had only reminded him of the pain when they’d parted. At the time, he hadn’t been too keen on the idea of a baby in their lives. How could he be a good, loving father when he had such a role model as his own cold, detached father? A baby was not part of his plans. However, it had hurt him when she’d lost it, to see her in pain.