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‘I know – I told him I was with one of my nurse pals, but I’m just … questioning the wisdom of your plan. And I was wondering if you were too. Johnny looks on edge.’
‘Johnny always looks on edge,’ said Edie. She caught Helen’s expression. ‘Sorry – that’s awful. Just … you’re making it sound like I’m doing something terrible, when all I wanted was for Patrick to see the inn. That way, if the investment thing becomes a real issue, and Patrick is interested, it won’t be a bolt from the blue – he’ll have been here, seen what we’re doing.’
‘You don’t feel bad, lying to Johnny?’ said Helen.
‘No,’ said Edie. ‘No. The inn is … we need investment, Patrick has the means, he’s our friend.’
‘But the last time you saw him was three years ago. And that was because you needed a favour.’
‘Yes – about the inn,’ said Edie. ‘Because I knew he was in hedge funds, I knew how successful he was, and unlike anyone else I could have asked, he knows Beara. This was a big investment – you know that. Johnny and I were in the States at the time. Patrick was in New York. All I asked him to do was meet me for a chat. And he could have said “No” if he didn’t want to help. I’d have done the same for him. And he was the one who offered to view the place, so …’ She shrugged. ‘Look – he’s a nice guy.’
Helen nodded.
‘I couldn’t have approached just anyone, saying that I wasn’t sure whether or not my husband had a clue what he was doing,’ said Edie. ‘And I wouldn’t have known what a third party would need to be able to give me informed advice. Nor would I have known how to actually gather it all together without Johnny being on to me. I knew what Patrick did, he knows us both, and he knows the property, and after looking at everything, he said, “Go for it!” So he believed in it as a business, which – in my mind – makes him the most logical person to approach as an investor.’
‘No – I know,’ said Helen. ‘It makes sense – sorry. This is my issue. I think I’m feeling guilty because Johnny’s so good.’
‘He is good,’ said Edie, ‘which is the whole point of Patrick being a possible investor – to actually relieve Johnny of pressure.’
Helen glanced up at Edie. ‘Clare – incoming.’
‘What’s going on here, ladies?’ said Clare. ‘It all looks very serious.’ She narrowed her eyes. ‘Are we setting Helen up with Patrick?’
Edie and Helen laughed. ‘No,’ said Edie.
Laura came up behind Clare. She glanced back at Patrick and Murph. ‘Murph’s on about horses.’
‘I was about to say that I’m not sure I believe Patrick Lynch that he’s single,’ said Clare.
‘Why would he lie about that?’ said Edie.
‘I don’t know,’ said Clare.
‘I totally believe he’s single,’ said Laura. ‘I’d say the mother frightened him off women for life. You look back and you think, was she well in the head at all?’ She paused. ‘In fairness, my two will probably think the same about me.’
‘Well, he’s made a success of himself,’ said Helen, ‘so she must have done something right.’
‘Whatever went on in that house,’ said Laura. ‘Good enough for her, the mother died before she could cash in.’
‘Laura!’ said Clare.
‘What?’ said Laura. ‘She was an oddball. Was she ever outside the door? Remember, you’d go by the house, and if the door was open, you’d see the Sacred Heart …’
‘Sure, every house had a Sacred Heart back then,’ said Helen.
‘They did not,’ said Laura. ‘And none were in your face like that.’
Edie glanced over at him. ‘Poor Patrick.’
‘Not any more,’ said Laura.
The others laughed.
‘Right,’ said Edie. ‘I’ll be back. I have a few last-minute bits to do.’
‘I’m mortified,’ said Helen, ‘Honestly. I don’t mind if we have spaghetti on toast.’
Laura rolled her eyes. ‘How about nuggets and chips? Would you eat them if she landed them up in front of you?’
‘Yes!’ said Helen.
‘You would, of course,’ said Laura. ‘Sure, you can’t say “no”!’
The others laughed.
‘What?’ said Helen.
‘Your catchphrase,’ said Clare. ‘“I couldn’t say “no”!”’
‘It is not,’ said Helen. ‘Is it? Did I say that a lot?’
Edie smiled. ‘You still do.’ She put her hand on Helen’s shoulder, and gave it a squeeze. ‘There are worse catchphrases to be known for.’
Edie did one last check of the dining table. She stopped at each place setting, turned the childhood photos right side up, and stood them against a wine glass. When she reached Patrick’s, there was the sound of paper crinkling underfoot. She stepped back and crouched down. There were two pages on the floor – lined, yellowed, ripped from a notebook, both rigid from where a red or black biro had moved back and forth across them with such force, it had broken through the page in places. Edie took them in her hand, and stood up. Her legs went weak, and she reached out for the back of the chair to steady herself. There were crude drawings of faces on each page – circles for heads, black Xs for eyes. The first had a crooked line for a mouth, and a jagged head wound, spurting blood. There was a hammer drawn beside it. The second had a large circle for a mouth, a noose around its neck and a rope that disappeared off the top of the page. HA HA HA HA HA was written to the right of it, and underneath: BYE BYE PATRICK LYNCH.
Castletownbere, 1981
Patrick was nine years old, standing in the kitchen doorway. His mother was at the sink, an empty chair beside her. She looked at him and nodded down at it.
Patrick shook into stillness. He knew he was to get up on the chair, but he didn’t know what he’d done. Nothing bad had happened in school that day. He always behaved himself. He was never late, he was always polite.
Mrs Lynch’s eyes widened. She moved towards him, reached into the pocket of her apron, and whipped out a piece of paper. She unfolded it and held it up. Before he had a chance to focus on it, she pushed it closer to his face. ‘What’s this nonsense?’ she said.
Patrick pulled his head back so he could see. It was a page she had ripped from his religion copy. On the top half was a picture he’d drawn of a boat, with a boy beside him. The sun was shining, the sky was a skinny blue strip at the top of the page, the birds were waiting for fish. What was causing the problem that his mother was pointing at now were the huge smiles on the boy and the man.
‘It’s not nonsense,’ said Patrick.
His mother turned the page around to face her. She read out loud what he had written on the lines underneath the picture – in the voice she used when she wanted him to hear himself: ‘“I am fishing with Daddy. We are on the boat. We are catching so much fish. We went to Dursey Island on the cable car. There was a sheep in it. It was so funny. We had a picnic. Then we went home.”’ She looked up at the title. ‘So that’s “My