The Pregnancy Pact. Kandy Shepherd

okay in there, Jessica?”

      “I told you to stop asking!”

      “I heard a thumping noise. You didn’t fall, did you?”

      “No.”

      “Are you okay?”

      “Um—”

      “It’s a yes-or-no answer.”

      “Okay, then,” she snapped with ill grace. “No.” She unlocked the door.

      He opened it. He stood there regarding her for a moment. She regarded him back, with her one eye that was uncovered, trying for dignity, her nightie stuck on her head, and her arm stuck in the air. “Don’t you dare laugh,” she warned him.

      He snickered.

      “I’m warning you.”

      “You are warning me what?” he challenged her.

      “Not to laugh. And don’t come one step closer.”

      Naturally, he ignored her on both fronts. Naturally, she was relieved, about him coming over anyway. Her arm was starting to ache unbearably. The smile on his lips she could have lived without.

      Because there was really nothing quite as glorious as Kade smiling. He was beautiful at the best of times, but when that smile touched his lips and put the sparkle of sunshine on the sapphire surface of his eyes, he was irresistible.

      Except she had to resist!

      But then the smile was gone. Kade was towering over her. It occurred to her, from the draft she felt and the sudden scorching heat of his eyes, that the nightie was riding up fairly high on her legs.

      Wordlessly, the smile gone, his expression all intense focus, he reached for where the blouse was stuck in the right-hand armhole of her nightgown. He began to unwind it. It gave easily to the ministrations of his fingers.

      She said nothing.

      “You see,” he said softly, “there’s nothing you can threaten me with that will work. Because the worst has already happened to me.”

      “What’s that?” she demanded. How could he say the worst had happened to him when she was the one sitting here, humiliatingly trapped by her own clothing?

      “You’re divorcing me,” he said softly. And then his face hardened and he looked as if he wanted to choke back the words already spoken.

       CHAPTER SEVEN

      THE NIGHTGOWN BROKE FREE, and her casted arm went through the right hole and the rest of the garment whispered around her. She used her left hand to tug the hem down to a decent level over her legs.

      He bent his head and put his teeth on the fabric of her blouse, and the stubborn seam released. With one final, gentle tug that did not hurt Jessica’s arm at all, the blouse was free from the cast.

      “A good tailor can probably fix that,” he said, laying the destroyed blouse in her lap.

      “I’m not divorcing you,” she said. “We’re divorcing each other. Isn’t that what you want?”

      He found where her sling was discarded on the floor and looped it gently over her head.

      “It seems to be what you want all of a sudden,” he said. “There’s something you aren’t telling me, isn’t there?”

      She felt suddenly weak, as if she could blurt out her deepest secret to him. How would it feel to tell him? Kade, there is going to be a baby after all.

      No, that was not the type of thing to blurt out. What would be her motivation? Did she think it would change things between them? She didn’t want them to change because of a baby. She wanted them to change because he loved her.

      What? She didn’t want things to change between them at all. She was taking steps to close this door, not reopen it! She was happy.

      “Happy, happy, happy,” she muttered out loud.

      “Huh?”

      “Oh. Just thinking out loud.”

      He looked baffled, as well he should!

      “Go to bed,” he told her. “We’ll talk later. Now is obviously not the time.”

      He had that right! Where were these horrible, weak thoughts coming from? She needed to get her defenses back up.

      With what seemed to be exquisite tenderness, he slipped her cast back inside the sling, adjusted the knot on the back of her neck.

      His touch made her feel hungry for him and miss him more than it seemed possible. He put his hand on her left elbow and helped her up, and then across the bathroom and into the bedroom.

      He let go of her only long enough to turn back the bedsheets and help her slide into the bed. She suddenly felt so exhausted that even the hunger she felt for her husband’s love felt like a distant pang.

      He tucked the covers up around her, and stood looking down at her.

      “Okay,” she said. “I’m fine. You can leave.”

      He started to go, but then he turned back and stood in the bedroom door, one big shoulder braced against the frame. He looked at her long and hard, until the ache came back so strong she had to clamp her teeth together to keep herself from flicking open the covers, an invitation.

      Just like that, the intimacies of this bedroom revisited her. His scent, and the feel of his hands on her heated skin, his lips exploring every inch of her.

      “Are you okay?” he asked. “You’re beet red.”

      Flushed with remembered passion, how embarrassing.

      She would do well to remember all that passion had not been able to carry them through heartbreak and turbulence.

      She had bled all the passion out of this bedroom. She had become, she knew, obsessed with having a baby after the two miscarriages. It had become so horrible. Taking temperatures and keeping charts, and their lovemaking always faintly soured with her desperation.

      Seeing him standing in the doorway, she remembered she had stood in that very spot watching him pack his things after their final night together.

      “Please don’t,” she’d whispered.

      “I can’t stay.”

      “But why?”

      Those cruel words that were forever a part of her now.

      “Jessica, you’ve taken all the fun out of it.”

      “Out of making love?” she had asked him, stricken.

      “Out of everything.”

      These were the things she needed to remember when a weak part of her yearned, with an almost physical ache, to be loved by him. To be held by him. To taste his lips again, and to taste faint salt on his skin after they’d made love. To feel the glory of his well-defined muscles under her fingertips. To smell him fresh out of the shower, to laugh with him until she could barely breathe for the ecstatic joy of it.

      No, she needed to remember the pain, not the glory, the loneliness and the disappointment, and all the hurtful things. She needed to remember when she had needed him—when she had felt so fragile it had seemed as if a feather falling on her could have cracked her wide-open—Kade had been unavailable in every way.

      “I’m fine,” she said to Kade now. “Please go.”

      He heard the coolness in her tone and looked offended by it, but she told herself she didn’t care. She told herself she felt nothing but relief as she heard him close the door of the house behind him, and then lock the dead bolt with his key.

      She told herself