Postcards From…Verses Brides Babies And Billionaires. Rebecca Winters

my motto.”

      “I appreciate it.” She laid a hand on his arm, the pink stone in her ring glimmering. “Honestly.”

      He cleared his throat. “For what it’s worth, you deserve to be happy.”

      “So do you, boss. Why don’t you ever seem to have any ladies hanging around?”

      Probably because Rhys kept his work life and his love life totally separate. He’d never believed in mixing the two, though he accepted that not everyone agreed with him on that.

      But that didn’t mean he could avoid the little stabs of envy he got watching his friends pair up and find happiness. Maybe it was old-fashioned, but he wanted that stability. He wanted a woman to come home to, wake up next to. To make him feel like he was valued. Needed.

      “This is not appropriate conversation for a manager and his employee,” he said, reminding himself that the goal right now was to have fun with a woman and not worry about the future.

      “Stick-in-the-mud,” she grumbled.

      She might be right, but right now Rhys didn’t have anything that he wanted to share. Especially not with being so occupied by Wren and her painting. His whole body hummed as she drifted back into his mind. There was no way he’d be able to forget what he’d seen, so he’d just have to stage a meeting with her to clear the air. And maybe fulfill a few fantasies…

       4

      “YOU’RE AVOIDING SOMETHING, WREN.” Sean Ainslie’s voice cut into Wren’s thought process.

      Her brush hovered over the same patch of blank canvas that she’d been attempting to start work on for the last half hour.

      “Avoiding something?” She put the brush down onto her workstation and looked up. “What makes you say that?”

      His eyes swept over the lackluster canvas. A few strokes of color decorated one of the bottom corners but it was clear she had no direction. She hadn’t sketched anything out, hadn’t planned what the painting would look like. Hell, she couldn’t even legitimately claim that she was too swept away by her Muse to do any of the preparatory work.

      She had nothing, and as a result, the painting was nothing.

       Oh, it’s something all right. It’s a hot freaking mess, is what it is.

      “I saw so much inspiration in your portfolio, Wren. So much…” His hands fluttered in the air in front of him. “Passion. Creativity. Your paintings were bold and vibrant. This…” His hands dropped down to his sides. “I don’t know what this is. Do you?”

      “I’m a little blocked,” she admitted.

      Every time she tried to touch the paintbrush to the canvas she pictured Rhys’s expression when he’d looked at that painting. The memory filled her with a strange mélange of excitement and shame, anticipation and disgust. Part of her wished that she’d let him stay. If for nothing more than to see where they would have ended up. Visions of his deep brown skin and warm eyes filled her mind.

      “Just paint whatever pops into your head right now.” Sean touched her shoulder and she jumped, startled as she reached for her brush almost involuntarily. “Whatever image is in your mind now, paint it. I want you to get over this hurdle, Wren.”

      Biting down on her lip she shut her eyes and let the memory of Rhys gazing at the painting wash over her. His full lips, the wicked way they’d parted as his eyes had widened. The slight flare of his nostrils.

      She started mixing paint as she let her mind wander. His pupils had grown as he’d looked at her canvas, his breath stalling in his throat. Her life had contained few moments as electric as that, as intensely intimate and vulnerable. Wasn’t that the purpose of art? Laying yourself bare?

      Being open and receptive?

      But that’s how she’d been hurt before. With her heart so open and unprotected, it was ripe for the picking. Her fingers tightened around her brush as she stopped midstroke. The faint sketch of a man’s face—the high points of his cheeks, the rough contours of his lips and the strong angle of his jaw—filled the canvas.

       People can only hurt you when you let them. So don’t give them the opportunity.

      Her hand hovered again, the moment lost like steam into air. Fear had crept back in and chased inspiration away. Sighing, she threw the brush down into the palette, flicking sienna paint across the carefully mixed palette of earthy flesh tones.

      It was useless. She was useless.

      Sean opened his mouth to say something but they were interrupted when Lola poked her head into the room. “Sean? I’ve got the security people from Cobalt & Dane here to see you.”

      “Tell them I’ll be out momentarily,” he said. As Lola disappeared he turned back to Wren. “I want to see a complete painting next week. The whole point of you being here is to work on improving your art. I can’t help you with that if you don’t produce anything.”

      “I understand.”

      “If you’re not able to do that I’ll have to find another intern. It’s not fair for you to take a valuable position in my program if you’re not going to do the work. There are plenty of other artists who would eagerly step into your place.”

      The words stung but she kept her face neutral. “I’ll do better, I promise.”

      When Sean left the room, Aimee turned from her station and offered a sympathetic smile. “It’s not easy to be creative on demand, is it?”

      The genuine empathy caused moisture to rush to Wren’s eyes, but she blinked the tears away. She wasn’t the kind of girl to let her pain show; she locked it all away where no one could see how much she allowed other people’s words to cut her.

      “No,” she admitted. “It’s not.”

      “You just have to give yourself permission to be crap,” Aimee said.

      “That flies in the face of every piece of advice I’ve ever received.” Wren frowned at her canvas as she picked up her brush.

      Her whole life she’d told herself she needed to be incredible, that she needed to be “the best.” That’s why it’d hurt so bad when Kylie had initially been chosen over her to gain a place in Ainslie’s internship.

      If she couldn’t be the best, then her parents would never consider her art as anything but a hobby. But if her talent was honed and she pushed herself hard, they might believe in her.

      Giving herself permission to be crap was laughable.

      “Hear me out.” Aimee put her brush down and flicked her long blond ponytail over one shoulder. “I can almost guarantee you’re psyching yourself out of this painting. You keep thinking that no matter what you do it’ll never be enough, right?”

      “Well, not exactly…”

      “But close enough?”

      Wren huffed. “Maybe.”

      “So give yourself permission to paint something no matter how crappy it is. Better at this point to have a crappy painting than no painting at all.” She folded her arms over her apron and smiled with an air of smugness. “Trust me, it’ll get the creativity flowing again.”

      Maybe she had a point. If Wren failed Sean’s ultimatum, it would put a swift end to her mission. Better to give him a mediocre product rather than a blank canvas. He might kick her out of the internship anyway, but she could still have a chance. Whereas if she continued on the path she was on, she’d definitely be out.

      Wren sucked in a breath and touched her brush to a shade of burnt orange. Perhaps painting Rhys would