The Texas Rancher's Vow. Cathy Thacker Gillen

Then, one of his hands had been trembling, and his legs had been fine.

      She pulled up a chair and sat facing him, clasping his hands. “You want to tell me what’s going on?” She waited for him to look her in the eye. “And don’t give me the hangover business again, because I know one when I see one and this is not it.”

      His shoulders slumped in defeat. “You’re right. It isn’t.”

      The raw emotion in his voice frightened her. Jen gripped his hands more tightly. “Then what is it?” she asked, trying not to sound upset.

      Emmett swallowed. Moisture glistened in his faded blue eyes. “Parkinson’s, most likely.”

      What did he mean, most likely? “Have you seen a doctor?” Jen asked quietly.

      “No.” He mopped his forehead again, then he stared at her with steely determination. “And I’m not going to, either. Matt and I spent years watching his mother deteriorate, bit by bit. I’m not about to make the rest of my son’s life about being my nursemaid. And that’s what it would turn into. We both know that.”

      Jen couldn’t argue. Matt was very protective of his dad.

      But what if it wasn’t Parkinson’s disease? What if it was something else? What if early treatment might make all the difference in the prognosis?

      “Matt’s going to notice your symptoms,” Jen warned.

      “No. He’s not. And you know why? Because he doesn’t want to see them.” The rancher sighed. “I understand that. I didn’t see Margarite’s infirmities, either, when she first got sick, because I couldn’t bear the thought of anything really being wrong with her. So I convinced myself that she was just tired, or coming down with a cold, or getting over a virus. Anything and everything but what was really happening.”

      Jen knew what he meant. “I did the same thing when my dad was in the last stages of liver failure.” Her voice cracked. “I—I couldn’t admit to myself that he was…”

      “Dying?”

      She nodded, then fell silent. Memories overwhelmed her and tears pricked her eyes.

      Emmett reached out and patted her arm. For a moment the two of them sat in silence, comforting each other.

      “Besides,” he said eventually, “I take great pains to avoid Matt on those days that are really bad.”

      She bit her lip. “You don’t think he’ll get suspicious?”

      Emmett shrugged, still confiding in her as naturally as if she were family. “For a while, he thought I was seeing a woman.”

      Matt had thought it might be Jen. At least that first day when he’d come to see her in her Austin studio…

      “I’ve shared this with you in the strictest confidence,” Emmett continued sincerely. “You are not to tell Matt any of it. And I need you to swear on all you hold dear that you will keep quiet.”

      Jen knew what an important first step this was. The big, brash, larger-than-life Texas rancher had admitted to her he was ill. He was trusting her to help him. And she would.

      “Yes. I promise,” she said quietly, meaning it with all her heart.

      Emmett’s leg trembled harder. Jen put her hand on his knee to stop the involuntary shaking. “I won’t tell anyone,” she reiterated, applying gentle pressure. “Not until you—”

      She was about to say “change your mind and give me the okay,” when Emmett’s head jerked up.

      The rancher looked past her, flushed guiltily and pushed her hand off his leg.

      The hair on the back of her neck prickling, Jen turned in the direction of his gaze and encountered the person she least wanted to see.

      Standing in the doorway, looking angry as hell, was the man she had made wild, passionate love with just a few hours before.

      Matt Briscoe stomped in.

      “Won’t tell anyone what?” he demanded.

      Chapter Eight

      Matt knew when two people had been caught red-handed. His dad and Jen were definitely up to something. What, Matt didn’t know. Despite the fact that she’d had her hand on his father’s knee, whatever was going on didn’t seem romantic or sexual. And yet there was an undeniable air of intimacy in the room.

      Flushing, Jen stood up and, with more grace than Matt would have expected, under the circumstances, moved toward the drafting table. “Your father was a little overcome by the sketches I just showed him.”

      She walked over to Matt, drawings in hand.

      Matt noted that his father wasn’t looking at him. Rather, he was sitting with his palm planted firmly on the knee Jen had just been touching. Emmett also seemed curiously transfixed on Jen. It was almost as if he wasn’t sure what was going on, either.

      Which was strange, Matt thought. If Jen was telling the truth.

      He’d bet his bottom dollar she wasn’t.

      “Your dad doesn’t want me talking about the actual possibilities for the sculpture until a decision is made. Which is fine with me. I actually prefer to keep any work in progress completely under wraps to all but the subjects, or patron commissioning the work.”

      Wordlessly, she handed Matt a few rough sketches. The other three she passed to Emmett.

      His resentment building, Matt glanced down.

      The proposed sculptures were beautiful.

      And incredible, in how they captured the essence of his parents, and the deep, abiding love they’d had for each other.

      Feeling a little choked up himself, Matt handed the sketches to his dad.

      Emmett, who never cried, had tears in his eyes as he scanned the drawings once again.

      Dabbing at his cheek with a handkerchief, he rose abruptly. “Excuse me.” He left the studio without a backward glance, and somewhat awkwardly, from the sound of it, made his way down the hall.

      Matt realized his dad must have been overcome with emotion.

      The ache in his own throat grew.

      Jen’s eyes glistened, as she moved away. Without looking at him, she said, “Posthumous works can be tough to do. Especially in the beginning.”

      No kidding.

      Matt felt as if he was about to start bawling, and he never cried.

      At least he hadn’t since his mom had died.

      He walked over to the drafting table, where Jen stood. Her glance still averted, she made a big production of tidying up her pencils.

      He thrust the sketches at her.

      She spread them out carefully on the table.

      “But when the work is finished, the bronze is usually very comforting because so much has gone into it. It’s such a special memorial.”

      Jen paused to look down with a critical eye at the photographs she’d used as a reference, and the sketches she’d made. “If you’d like to weigh in—tell me what you think about what I’ve done so far, what needs work, or what I might be missing…”

      Matt shook his head, no more equipped to do that than his dad had been.

      How was it possible that his mother could have been gone for ten years now, and the grief was still so raw?

      He thought he’d gotten past this. Accepted fate. Moved on.

      The truth was he was still as rocked by it as his father was. No wonder Jen had been reaching out, trying to comfort Emmett. She probably felt sorry for him and wanted to protect his macho image.

      Matt