The Girl Who Ran. Nikki Owen

31 hours and 13 minutes

      ‘Oh, Jesus, they’re – they’re looking straight towards us,’ Patricia says, ducking behind me.

      I stare now at our faces on the police alert in Chris’s hand, and a feeling wells inside me, one of guilt, of shame and confusion. By making friends, have I done the wrong thing? Is life not easier, better, safer when we are on our own?

      ‘Doc? Doc, you alright? Should we go?’

      My head snaps up, refocussing. ‘Negative. If we move now it will alert the men. They have images of us. We must wait. We must prepare.’

      Chris tips his head to the left towards a landslide of bodies approaching. ‘What about them?’

      I direct my sight to where Chris points. A pack of students has entered the walkway, flooding the air with chatter in a melody of Italian and French, a river of language rushing forwards amid a sea of brown limbs, all long and lean and clad in assorted patchwork pieces of denim and cotton and hooded drawstring sweats. Tinny music, the tap of phones, beeps, rings. The sounds send my brain into red alert, and I am about to move when two teenage students stop almost next to me and kiss. I find myself staring, unable to look away, and when I inhale I detect bubble gum, washing powder, body odour masked by a sugary scent.

      ‘Hey, Google?’ A pause. ‘Maria?’

      I turn to Chris. ‘What?’

      ‘They’re all moving – the students. If we move with them, they could be good cover.’

      The teenagers pull away from each other, the girls smiling in a way I do not understand. The chatter rises, smacking into my ears, slap, slam. Startled, I look to Patricia.

      ‘It’s alright,’ she says automatically, trotting off what she’s had to say to me now so many times. ‘Deep breaths. It’s going to be loud and close, but I’ll stay right by you, yeah? Chris is right – the students’ll be good cover.’

      I nod, but my eyes are on the moving mass. ‘Their skin, their scent.’

      ‘Deep breaths.’

      Chris starts to move. ‘Let’s go.’

      We dart in and out as, ahead of us, the boarding gates appear. People, limbs, spit and sweat. Announcements hanging from the ceiling with flashing orange letters and numbers declaring the areas our flight is leaving from. Our feet brush the tiles as we surge forwards amid the slippery mass, sliding across the mirrored thoroughfare where the shoes of the students clomp down in hooves of plastic and leather, jostling, laughing, bumping into me. Head down, I bite my lip and try not to scream.

      Hidden by the human cloak, we remain out of direct sight. Some metres nearer now, the men move rapidly, steady, their presence two dark monoliths against the landscape of pick-a-mix colour. My heart rate rockets. We duck, weaving, as Chris keeps watch and Patricia spreads five fingers on her thigh, but every time someone’s arm or leg grazes me, I flinch. Every time I smell their burger breath, feel the heat of their perspiring skin near me – deodorant, talcum powder, flowers and musk – I want to scream at the top of my voice, curl up into a tight ball. It is impossible to switch off.

      We finally approach the flight gates, Patricia to my right, Chris to my left. We drop our speed as the students slow down lolloping and laughing at each other, and as I risk a small glance, I find myself fascinated by their ease with each other, their calmness, happiness even, transfixed at the way in which their limbs seemingly absentmindedly intertwine, vines of arms and fingers interlinking as if all branches from the same tree. They oscillate and flutter, and I imagine a shoal of clownfish swimming over into a new anemone, relaxed, loose, just another day hanging in the reef.

      I unpick my gaze from the students and inspect the two men. They are talking to each other.

      ‘They’re calling our flight,’ Patricia says.

      The entrance to our boarding gate is drenched in sunlight from a vast glass and steel dome above. Glass, steel, huge masses of heavy concrete. I do the maths in my head.

      ‘If a bomb went off here, the glass would shatter and kill and maim the people beneath it.’

      Chris stares at me. ‘Seriously?’

      ‘Of course.’

      ‘Oh shit. Shit!’ Patricia whispers. ‘They’re looking this way.’

      She’s right. ‘Walk.’

      We stride, not running, not wanting to create attention. Backs straight, footing as sure as we can make it, we mimic three busy work colleagues eager to catch their business flight. Soon we reach the gate. Patricia’s face is pale. Chris’s fingers are tapping his phone.

      ‘Good afternoon,’ the flight attendant says, his eyebrows two tapered caterpillars. ‘Boarding passes, please.’

      We hand over our travel documents, fake IDs, as from my peripheral vision I see the two men searching through the students, casting them to the side, one after the other. The lights above shine bright, a traffic of chatter and laughter pummelling the air. I count to stay calm.

      ‘Hurry up,’ Patricia mutters, but, just as the line begins to move again, everything stops.

      The flight attendant looks to us. ‘Could you step aside for a moment please?’

      ‘But we’re getting on the flight,’ Chris says.

      My teeth start to grind. Breathe. One, two, three. One, two, three. The men are moving towards us in the pile of students washing up near the gate.

      ‘We have to run,’ Chris whispers.

      ‘Negative.’

      ‘Yes,’ he insists, stronger now. ‘The attendant’s stopped us.’

      ‘They are nearer now,’ I say.

      Patricia’s eyes go wide. ‘Oh God.’

      ‘God has nothing to do with…’ I halt. Something is not right. The men have stopped. Their movements – why are they now so still? Keeping my head as rigid as I can, I check the CCTV cameras, their small domed lenses, dark black caps, blinking in the nearby areas. All seems as it should, all cameras facing the correct way, all security staff, in the immediate zone at least, carrying on with their duties as before.

      Patricia shuffles from foot to foot. ‘Shall we peg it? This is fecking MI5. Shit.’

      I trace the outline of the officers. They may have been trained, like me, to prepare, wait, engage. Is that what they are doing now? If I were them, what would I do next?

      ‘Doc? Doc, I think we should move.’

      ‘Holy fuck,’ Chris says.

      I look to him. He is staring at his phone. ‘What is it?’

      ‘I’ve just…’ A shake of the head. ‘No way. It’s—’

      ‘They’re coming!’

      We look up at where Patricia is staring. The second man, the one with the slightly narrower shoulders, is touching his ear, scanning to his right and moving slowly forwards. I track his eye line, wincing at the sharp clatter of some tray that is dropped in the distance, my assaulted brain just about keeping it together. What is he looking at, the man? What can he see?

      I force my brain to focus, think clearly. Maybe Chris is right – maybe the flight attendants know who we are and have been informed to keep us back and make us wait.

      I turn to Chris and Patricia. ‘We must go.’

      Chris points to his phone. ‘You have to see this email.’

      ‘Not now. We must leave first.’

      We all turn, ready to duck from sight and out of the airport, my mind already fast forwarding to a next plan to hide, when the flight attendant calls to us with a bright white smile beaming on his face.

      ‘Hello? I’m so sorry about