Clementine Classics: Sister Carrie by Theodore Dreiser. Theodore Dreiser

returned, cheerfully, a little suggestion of possible defect in herself awakening in her mind. If that was so fine, she must look at it more closely. Instinctively, she felt a desire to imitate it. Surely she could do that too.

      When one of her mind sees many things emphasized and re-emphasized and admired, she gathers the logic of it and applies accordingly. Drouet was not shrewd enough to see that this was not tactful. He could not see that it would be better to make her feel that she was competing with herself, not others better than herself. He would not have done it with an older, wiser woman, but in Carrie he saw only the novice. Less clever than she, he was naturally unable to comprehend her sensibility. He went on educating and wounding her, a thing rather foolish in one whose admiration for his pupil and victim was apt to grow. The bastard’s going down with some of that teacher-has-become-the-master bullshit. Do you hear that? Those are my quills vibrating with glee.

      Carrie took the instructions affably. She saw what Drouet liked; in a vague way she saw where he was weak. It lessens a woman’s opinion of a man when she learns that his admiration is so pointedly and generously distributed. She sees but one object of supreme compliment in this world, and that is herself. If a man is to succeed with many women, he must be all in all to each.

      In her own apartments Carrie saw things which were lessons in the same school.

      In the same house with her lived an official of one of the theatres, Mr. Frank A. Hale, manager of the Standard, and his wife, a pleasing-looking brunette of thirty-five. The Standard is one of the oldest watering holes of rich assholes and the gnats they attract. You need a sponsor to join their club, so you know they’re definitely anti-hedgehog. Screw ’em. I like my hooch straight from the bottle anyway. They were people of a sort very common in America today, who live respectably from hand to mouth. Hale received a salary of forty-five dollars a week. His wife, quite attractive, affected the feeling of youth, and objected to that sort of home life which means the care of a house and the raising of a family. Like Drouet and Carrie, they also occupied three rooms on the floor above.

      Not long after she arrived Mrs. Hale established social relations with her, and together they went about. For a long time this was her only companionship, and the gossip of the manager’s wife formed the medium through which she saw the world. Such trivialities, such praises of wealth, such conventional expression of morals as sifted through this passive creature’s mind, fell upon Carrie and for the while confused her.

      On the other hand, her own feelings were a corrective influence. The constant drag to something better was not to be denied. By those things which address the heart was she steadily recalled. In the apartments across the hall were a young girl and her mother. They were from Evansville, Indiana, the wife and daughter of a railroad treasurer. The daughter was here to study music, the mother to keep her company.

      Carrie did not make their acquaintance, but she saw the daughter coming in and going out. A few times she had seen her at the piano in the parlor, and not infrequently had heard her play. This young woman was particularly dressy for her station, and wore a jewelled ring or two which flashed upon her white fingers as she played. Only two rings? The bitch is practically a train hobo compared to her neighbors. Next you’ll tell me she doesn’t keep a roll of greenbacks in her knickers at all times . . .

      Now Carrie was affected by music. Her nervous composition responded to certain strains, much as certain strings of a harp vibrate when a corresponding key of a piano is struck. She was delicately molded in sentiment, and answered with vague ruminations to certain wistful chords. They awoke longings for those things which she did not have. They caused her to cling closer to things she possessed. One short song the young lady played in a most soulful and tender mood. Carrie heard it through the open door from the parlor below. It was at that hour between afternoon and night when, for the idle, the wanderer, things are apt to take on a wistful aspect. The mind wanders forth on far journeys and returns with sheaves of withered and departed joys. Carrie sat at her window looking out. Drouet had been away since ten in the morning. She had amused herself with a walk, a book by Bertha M. Clay which Drouet had left there, though she did not wholly enjoy the latter, and by changing her dress for the evening. Bertha M. Clay was the pseudonym for Charlotte Mary Brame, a prolific bitch who wrote 130 novels in her lifetime. She was basically the Jackie Collins of the English countryside. She had nine kids with her deadbeat drunk of a husband before realizing she couldn’t depend on him for shit, then set on writing her books. Homegirl was a force to be reckoned with, but even then she died poor and had her kids taken away from her. Moral of the story: Lady Timetravelers, steer clear of the Victorian era. Now she sat looking out across the park as wistful and depressed as the nature which craves variety and life can be under such circumstances. As she contemplated her new state, the strain from the parlor below stole upward. With it her thoughts became colored and enmeshed. She reverted to the things which were best and saddest within the small limit of her experience. She became for the moment a repentant.

      While she was in this mood Drouet came in, bringing with him an entirely different atmosphere. It was dusk and Carrie had neglected to light the lamp. The fire in the grate, too, had burned low.

      “Where are you, Cad?” he said, using a pet name he had given her. Unless this is short for Cadbury Bunny, it’s pretty interesting he went for a name that pretty much means “sneaky bastard.”

      “Here,” she answered.

      There was something delicate and lonely in her voice, but he could not hear it. He had not the poetry in him that would seek a woman out under such circumstances and console her for the tragedy of life. Instead, he struck a match and lighted the gas.

      “Hello,” he exclaimed, “you’ve been crying.”

      Her eyes were still wet with a few vague tears.

      “Pshaw,” he said, “you don’t want to do that.”

      He took her hand, feeling in his good-natured egotism that it was probably lack of his presence which had made her lonely.

      “Come on, now,” he went on; “it’s all right. Let’s waltz a little to that music.”

      He could not have introduced a more incongruous proposition. It made clear to Carrie that he could not sympathize with her. She could not have framed thoughts which would have expressed his defect or made clear the difference between them, but she felt it. It was his first great mistake. If we’re going by my score, the dickhead’s already on Mistake #452, with #1 being the low-crotch vest he wore at their first meeting. But, hey, what does a hedgehog who can fucking read know?

      What Drouet said about the girl’s grace, as she tripped out evenings accompanied by her mother, caused Carrie to perceive the nature and value of those little modish ways which women adopt when they would presume to be something. She looked in the mirror and pursed up her lips, accompanying it with a little toss of the head, as she had seen the railroad treasurer’s daughter do. She caught up her skirts with an easy swing, for had not Drouet remarked that in her and several others, and Carrie was naturally imitative. She began to get the hang of those little things which the pretty woman who has vanity invariably adopts. In short, her knowledge of grace doubled, and with it her appearance changed. She became a girl of considerable taste. Then she should ditch the bastard and move on to greener pastures. Hedgehogs never hesitate when it comes to dumping things that don’t work. Why do you think we stopped hibernating? It gives us more time to torture our humans into thinking we’ll slip into an irreversible sleep at any time. It’s all about mind games.

      Drouet noticed this. He saw the new bow in her hair and the new way of arranging her locks which she affected one morning.

      “You look fine that way, Cad,” he said.

      “Do I?” she replied, sweetly. It made her try for other effects that selfsame day.

      She used her feet less heavily, a thing that was brought about by her attempting to imitate the treasurer’s daughter’s graceful carriage. How much influence the presence of that young woman in the same house had upon her it would be difficult to say. But, because of all these things, when Hurstwood called he had found a young woman who was much more than the Carrie to whom Drouet had