Название | Bestseller |
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Автор произведения | Olivia Goldsmith |
Жанр | Зарубежный юмор |
Серия | |
Издательство | Зарубежный юмор |
Год выпуска | 0 |
isbn | 9780008154066 |
But Kim looked surprisingly well—at least for Kim. She had gained some weight, but she always did that when she wasn’t on cocaine. Kim looked more like Susann’s second husband than she did Susann. She was chunky and dark-haired. Now Kim must be about the same age that Alan was when Susann had married him. What an ill-fated marriage it had been. Alan had abandoned them when Kim was seven, but not before beating both of them regularly. Perhaps that was another reason Susann didn’t like to see Kim: She reminded Susann of those days and made her feel guilty because of them.
“Hello, Sue,” Kim said. For some reason, Kim had never called her Mommy or Mother. Not even when she was little. Susann hated to be called Sue but said nothing. Didn’t Kim’s greeting have a slightly ironic cast to it? Susann ignored it and merely took a seat opposite Kim. They didn’t kiss.
“How are you?” Susann asked.
“Do you mean am I straight? Yes, I’ve been clean and sober for eight months now.”
“Good. That’s very good.” Susann could have bitten her tongue. She knew she sounded prissy, but what could one say? I hope that this time you won’t go back to your five-hundred-dollar-a-day habit? And, if you do, know that this time I will absolutely not intervene. No. They had established that already.
Susann was relieved when the waiter came and asked for their tea order. “Darjeeling,” she told him with her best smile. Kim asked for chamomile. In moments the waiter reappeared with a trolley of tiny sandwiches—cucumber, smoked salmon, tomato, and cheese. Kim, despite her weight, asked for two of each, but Susann only had one thin cucumber. The waiter placed their teapots before them and left them to face each other. Susann took a bite of her sandwich. “Well,” she said, “you said you had some news.”
“Yes,” Kim said. “I wanted you to know. I’ve written a book.”
Susann paused for a moment, almost choking on her food. “You’ve done what?” she asked.
“A book. I’ve written a book,” Kim repeated. “You’re not the only one who can do it, you know.”
Susann was at a loss for words. Now what? Was she expected to find Kim an agent, to edit her work, to find a publisher? Would the demands on her never end? “I didn’t know that you wrote. You never told me. I’m just surprised—”
“Don’t you remember? I showed you a story I wrote years ago. You cut it to shreds.” Susann tried to recall it. Kim had had so many interests, gone off in so many directions, but never pursued any of them seriously. There’d been figure skating, ballet, and horseback riding. Photography, too. She had decided to go to art school instead of college but then dropped out. Then she wanted a restaurant, which failed, and a weaving studio, but that had come to nothing. All of Kim’s enthusiasms were expensive, short-lived, and ultimately doomed. But when had writing been sandwiched in among the other activities? Susann tried to remember. Was it before the restaurant or after?
“Yes, I remember. You wrote a little story. I edited it for you.”
Kim set her jaw firmly. “It wasn’t ‘a little story,’ Sue. I had worked on it for months. And when I asked you your opinion, you tore it apart.”
“I edited it,” Susann repeated. “If you were serious about it, you would have listened to my suggestions and improved it. That’s what professionalism is all about.”
Kim shook her head. “You decimated me. It’s taken me ten years to get the nerve to try again. And I’ve done it on my own. I’ve finished my first book, and I’ve sold it.”
“You’ve finished it? You’ve sold it?” Susann parroted. She could hardly believe what she was hearing. “To whom have you sold it?”
“To Citron Press,” Kim said defiantly. “And they’ve paid me enough to live on my own for the next year while I work on the next one.”
Susann stared at her daughter, thunderstruck. Why in the world had Kimberly chosen this, of all things? And what was she to say? “Well. Congratulations. I hope you allow me to read it.”
Kim smiled. “You’ll get the first reader’s copy,” she said. Reader’s copies were the typeset, uncorrected paperbound editions of a book that went out to critics and reviewers before publication. “Maybe you’ll give me a blurb,” Kimberly said, smiling. “I think you’ll like it. The main character is a famous woman author.”
Susann felt her own smile disappearing. She thought of the way Cheever’s children had written about him. And she was no Cheever. She had read the Danielle Steel unauthorized biography by Nicole Hoyt, and the similarities between her and Danielle were a bit frightening. They had both married and become mothers at a young age; they both had second husbands who were sex perverts, but, Susann thought to herself, at least Alf wasn’t a drug addict the way Steel’s third husband had been; and she hadn’t remarried and had five more children as Steel had. She felt her face flush; unlike Danielle, she may have to worry that her unauthorized bio would be written by her daughter. “Well, I wish you had let me know earlier. Perhaps I could have helped you. Or maybe Alf could have.”
“Fuck Alf,” Kim told her. “I wouldn’t accept anything from that dirty old bastard.” Susann shook her head. She hoped Kimberly wasn’t going to bring all of that up again. The legitimate tragedy in their lives had been that Robert Edmonds, Susann’s third husband and Kimberly’s stepfather, had molested Kim. But since then, Kim had seen advances in everyone from the gardener to her teachers at school. She’d even accused Alf of inappropriate behavior.
Susann tried not to roll her eyes, but failed. Kimberly leaned over and hissed at her. “Don’t give me that look. Don’t belittle me, and don’t try to make me feel like I’m crazy. I’ve written this book and I’ve sold it, and I did both of those things myself. And I don’t want anything from you or from Alf, or from my father or from my stepfather, either.” She paused. “Nothing. Except my name.”
“Your name?” Susann repeated.
“That’s right. I’m using my stepfather’s. He owes me that, at least. My name. Kimberly Baker Edmonds. That’s the name I’m using. So it looks like you will have a little more competition, Sue.”
The writer is always tricking the reader into listening to their dream.
—Joan Didion
Judith woke up with a smile on her face, which was unusual. Since she’d finished the book she’d felt rather bereft. Then she remembered: Daniel had woken her up when he came home from his writers’ group last night. He’d been hungry for her, and she had fallen asleep feeling well and deeply loved.
She turned over in bed. She felt absolutely adorable cuddled up in the bedclothes. Daniel was already up and showered, dressed in his underpants, his back to her, rooting through his closet. She hoped he’d look over at her, come back to bed and kiss her or hold her. “Where’s my blue sports coat?” he asked instead.
“Oh. I think it’s in my closet,” she admitted. Judith felt a stab of guilt. Daniel was so particular about his clothes. He had asked her over and over again to remember to take them out of the plastic film and hang them up in his closet when she brought them back from the cleaners. Too often she forgot. Like today. She had meant to take the hanger from her hall closet, but when she had struggled up the stairs with the groceries, the dog, and the dry cleaning, she had temporarily stuck it there and never gotten back to it. Somehow, though she was home all day, there was so much she didn’t get to.
Judith didn’t know why she felt so sad lately. Somehow, since she’d finished the book, she had spent most of her time in a daze, finding herself with a mug of coffee cooling in her hand, staring out the grimy windows. She didn’t know what she’d been doing, what she was looking at or looking for. But she knew she didn’t feel good.
Maybe