It Started With... Collection. Miranda Lee

just jumping to conclusions.’

      ‘No, I’m not. I know I’m right. I had a feeling about them at the time but I ignored it. I told myself that I was imagining the intimate little looks which used to pass between them, and the many excuses he made to meet up with her at the unit when I was busy at work. Eric’s a top lawyer, you see, and can pretty well come and go as he pleases.’

      ‘OK. So he’s a two-timing rat as well as a shmuck. What does it matter now? You can’t possibly still be in love with him. Not after…how long ago was it?’

      ‘Four years, give or take a month.’

      ‘See? Now, if you’d said a year maybe, or eighteen months…’ like in his case with Mandy ‘…then I’d understand why you’re so upset.’

      ‘Love doesn’t stop simply because you want it to, Justin. Even if I didn’t love Eric any more, I wouldn’t be human if I didn’t hate seeing him with another woman like that. But I’m doubly upset because neither of them recognised me!’ she finished on a strangled sob.

      Sympathy and empathy consumed Justin as he realised what she was saying. Her hurt was not solely because of this Eric’s former betrayal, but because he hadn’t recognised her physically.

      Justin understood that type of humiliation well and his heart went out to her.

      ‘Maybe he wasn’t really looking at you,’ he tried excusing. ‘Maybe he was off in another world.’

      ‘I wish. But no. He bumped into me when he turned away from the check-in desk. Almost knocked me over. He actually grabbed my shoulders and looked right at me for a second or two. He saw me well enough and there was not a hint of recognition. She didn’t recognise me, either. Though I can’t really blame her. She didn’t know me all that well. We only met a couple of times. And I know I’ve changed a lot. But Eric should still have known me. We were lovers, for pity’s sake!’

      ‘Did you say something to him? Call him by name?’

      ‘Speak to him? No.’ She shuddered. ‘I bolted into the ladies’ room in the foyer and stayed there till I was sure they’d have left the area and gone up to whatever floor they’re staying on. That’s what took me so long.’

      What probably took her so long, Justin believed, was the time she’d spent in there, weeping and looking in the mirror to see what it was this Eric had seen, and not seen.

      ‘Do you think he…um…might have been pretending not to know you?’

      ‘No. There was nothing like that in his eyes. Just blankness. He didn’t recognise me.’

      ‘Have you changed that much in four years, Rachel?’

      Her shoulders sagged, her eyes clouding to an expression of utter misery. ‘I guess I must have.’

      ‘So what do you want to do?’ he asked, his own spirits sagging at the realisation that this weekend wasn’t going to be such a happy or relaxing getaway after all.

      ‘About what?’ she asked wearily.

      ‘Presumably this couple will be at the dinner tomorrow night. That must be the junket you heard mentioned.’

      Horror filled her face at the prospect.

      ‘You don’t have to go,’ he said quickly.

      ‘Are you sure? I mean…I don’t like to let you down but I…I don’t think I could bear it. Eric might recognise me after I do myself up a bit. But, there again, he might not. Either way, I’m going to be terribly uptight, and very poor company with few powers of observation.’

      ‘It’s all right, Rachel. Truly. I’ll go by myself.’ He let her hands go and straightened.

      She stared up at him, and he realised her hazel eyes were really quite lovely. How could that fool have not recognised her, if he’d been her lover? Eyes were the one thing which never changed. How many times would this Eric have stared down into Rachel’s eyes when they’d been in bed together?

      Hell, Mandy’s beautiful blue eyes were imprinted on his brain!

      His sigh carried a wealth of emotions of his own. ‘I’ll go finish making us that coffee.’ And he stood up.

      ‘You are such a nice man,’ she choked out, then burst into tears, burying her face in her hands.

      Smothering a groan, Justin sat himself down next to her and took her into his arms, cradling her weeping face against his shirt front.

      ‘No decent human being,’ he said gently as he stroked her back, ‘could be anything but nice to you, Rachel. This Eric is scum. You’re better off without him.’

      ‘I know that,’ she sobbed. ‘But it still hurts to see him with another woman.’

      ‘I’m sure it does,’ Justin murmured soothingly. God knows how he’d react if he ever ran into Mandy with that swine who’d stolen her away from him, he thought. Murder was too good for the pair of them.

      ‘Maybe seeing him again like that is a good thing,’ he tried, though not quite believing it himself. ‘It should give you the motivation to forget him once and for all and get on with your own life. After all, life isn’t too bad for you now, is it? You have a job you like, with a considerate boss. Or so you said,’ he added wryly. ‘And soon you’ll have an even better job with enough of a wage coming in to afford a seriously nice place to live in of your own. What more could you possibly want?’

      ‘To still be beautiful,’ she mumbled into his chest.

      Justin reached down and took her hands away from where they were jammed under her chin, then tipped her face up so that their eyes met. ‘You are still beautiful, Rachel,’ he said softly. ‘Where it counts.’

      ‘Right,’ she said ruefully. ‘Pardon me if I don’t get too excited by that compliment. I’ve found that beauty on the inside is highly overrated as an asset, especially when it comes to the opposite sex.’

      ‘Not all men are as shallow as your Eric,’ he countered, confident that he didn’t judge a woman so superficially.

      ‘Is that so? Might I ask you a rather personal question?’

      ‘Shoot.’

      ‘Was your ex-wife beautiful?’

      Justin opened his mouth, then closed it again. Mandy had been drop-dead gorgeous, there was no doubt about it. She had a very pretty face, big blue eyes, long blonde hair. A great figure. And she’d known how to showcase herself to perfection, from the top of her glossy blonde head to the tips of her pink-painted toes.

      Rachel, on the other hand, was a far cry from drop-dead anything. Yet she wasn’t ugly. She couldn’t even be called plain. Aside from having genuinely lovely eyes, she had regular features in her oval-shaped face and an interesting mouth, now that he bothered to really look. Wide, and tilted up at the corners, with a very full bottom lip.

      It was just that she always looked so colourless, like a picture that had faded badly. The black suits she wore to work looked extra-drab on her, as did the clunky mid-heeled black shoes.

      As for her hair…

      He could not think of a good thing to say about her hair, except that it was far better not red, as it had been last Monday, because any attention brought to it could only create a more negative impression.

      ‘Case closed,’ Rachel said succinctly, and stood up. ‘God, I feel terrible. I must look terrible too. I think I’ll go and have a shower and change. Which way to my room?’

      ‘What about coffee?’

      ‘Thank you but I don’t feel like it just now.’

      Me neither, he thought. He needed something much more potent in the drinks department. Some food was in order as well. Time was getting on and he hadn’t had anything to eat since breakfast except that on-board