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want children, Sam. I want a husband. A family,” she said, shrugging one shoulder.

      Sam frowned. Laney never talked about her love life. He was always a little bit surprised when he caught sight of a guy leaving her apartment. He could count on the fingers of one hand the times he’d been introduced to a man she was dating. She’d always been very private about it, and he’d respected that. Truth was, he didn’t really want to know, he suddenly acknowledged. Probably that made him a selfish bastard for not wanting her to be happy. Deep down inside he’d always feared that if she met Mr. Right, their friendship would change irrevocably. Sam would be number two in her life. And when children came, he’d be shuffled even further down the food chain. It didn’t say much for his nobility as a human being that the thought of Delaney with a family made him feel scared and lonely and threatened. But there it was.

      Struggling to contain his messed-up emotions, Sam smoothed his hands down his thighs, then clasped his knees, bracing himself to be a grown-up.

      “Of course you want kids,” he finally managed to say.

      Delaney laughed, a watery, reluctant chuckle.

      “You are the worst actor in the world, Kirk,” she said.

      He shrugged sheepishly. “Okay,” he conceded. “You know I’ll be jealous as hell when you get married and have kids,” he admitted.

      She looked startled. “Jealous?”

      “You know—’cause things won’t be the same anymore,” he explained awkwardly.

      Delaney’s eyes dropped to the carpet and she hunched a shoulder. “No, they won’t.”

      “But I don’t see what any of that has to do with leaving the business,” Sam said. He might be about to lose most of Delaney, but he would cling to what little he had left. If she stayed in the business, she would always be a part of his life, no matter what.

      “It’s too all-consuming, Sam,” she said. “We live for this place. How am I ever supposed to meet someone when all I do is eat, sleep, breathe Mirk Publications?”

      “Then we’ll get a sales assistant. You can do half days. Whatever it takes,” he countered.

      “No. It wouldn’t work. I’m a control freak, you know I am. And it’s thinking about the business when I’m not here that’s part of it, as well. I’d still be doing that if I owned half of it. I need a complete break,” she said.

      There was a determination in her tone, a firmness that he recognized. Delaney had made her decision. Without talking it over with him. Without consulting him in any way. She’d simply gone away, and come back determined to do her own thing.

      He started to get angry. “And where does that leave me?” he asked. He hated the fact that he sounded like a sulky kid, but that was how he felt, so he might as well own up to it.

      “Sam, you can easily afford to buy me out. You know you can. Or you can get in another partner. Or go into partnership with another small publisher. God knows, we’ve had enough of them sniffing around over the years,” she said.

      Sam stared at her. She was serious about this. Completely serious. He wanted to yell at her. To tell her in no uncertain terms how stupid and selfish and wrong all this was. But he didn’t. He bit his tongue and fought for control.

      “When do you want out?” he managed to ask.

      “As soon as possible,” she said baldly.

      Unbelievably, in light of their conversation to date, her words still stung. He rocketed to his feet.

      “I’ll talk to the bank,” he said, and then he pulled her office door open, slamming it behind him as he exited. Their entire staff turned his way, but he ignored them all, crossing next door to his own office and slamming that door, too.

      Then he threw himself into his office chair and dropped his head into his hands.

      What in the world was he going to do without her?

      

      DELANEY TOOK A LONG, shuddery breath and then let it out. She’d just had the hardest conversation of her life, hands down. Swiveling in her chair, she leaned forward and rested her forehead on her desk.

      The look in Sam’s eyes. The hurt. The lack of comprehension. She hated causing him pain, but she had no choice.

      Unless she was prepared to tell him the real reason she had to go.

      Which was never going to happen.

      Which left her back at square one. Although, technically, she was at square two now. She’d delivered the big blow. Now she just had to live through the next little while before she could walk away from the business. And Sam.

      Her heart wrenched painfully in her chest at the thought. But she had to face up to it. One day soon, in a month or two’s time, she would walk out the double doors of this building and out of Sam’s life forever.

      She lifted her head off the desk, then dropped it down again, banging her forehead. It felt like an appropriate punishment for the mess she’d created, and she did it several more times—bang, bang, bang, bang—until it suddenly occurred to her that she might bruise her forehead. Good luck explaining that one to sane, ordinary people—I’d just screwed up my entire life, so I thought I’d add brain damage to the mix.

      Lifting her head, she stared blindly at the wall planner in front of her. Absolute honesty time—there had been a part of her that had hoped that when Sam heard her big news he’d break down and say something to give her hope. She figured that the exact same part of her twisted female psyche was responsible for believing in unicorns when she was five and Santa Claus until she was eight, but it didn’t make the realization any easier to bear. How sad could she get? Even at the eleventh hour, she was hoping for a reprieve, that he’d tell her he was mad about her, he couldn’t stand the thought of life without her. As if Sam wouldn’t have found some time over the past, say, sixteen years to recognize that his brotherly affection was actually repressed lust for her slim, boyish body, if that were actually the case.

      A knock sounded on the door behind her.

      “Yes?” she called out.

      The door opened a crack and their desktop artist, Rudy, poked his head in. “You okay?” he asked cautiously. With his flamboyant red-and-blue-dyed hair and multiple piercings, coupled with his tendency to dress in brightly colored rave club wear, Rudy looked like a demented elf.

      Delaney summoned a smile for him. “I’m fine,” she lied.

      “Right. I’ve been with you guys for five years, Delaney. You and Sam have never slammed doors before,” Rudy said.

      “Sam slammed the door,” Delaney pointed out.

      Rudy rolled his eyes as if to say it was the same difference. “Is everything all right?” he asked.

      Delaney opened her mouth to offer up another soothing platitude, but she realized that she might as well just tell him the truth. The sooner it became an accepted fact, the sooner she could move on.

      “I’ve asked Sam to buy out my share of the magazine,” she said. “I’m leaving the business.”

      Rudy’s eyes almost bugged out of his head. “No way!” he said.

      Delaney just held his eye until the incredulous expression faded from his face.

      “But you and Sam are like bread and butter. Or strawberries and cream. Or…or…peanuts and bananas. You never have one without the other,” Rudy said.

      “Peanuts and bananas, Rudy?” she queried.

      “Try it sometime,” he said. Then he stared at Delaney as if he were a lost puppy.

      She tried her best to be reassuring.

      “It’s not going to change anything for you guys. Sam will still be here. The magazine will