Hand-Me-Down. Lee Nichols

if living with Rip was a good idea. We already worked in the same office, and spending more time together seemed a great way to kill a nice relationship.

      I picked up the phone to call him back, but didn’t feel like talking. I was itchy and restless. I switched on the TV. I’d see Rip at work tomorrow.

      CHAPTER 05

      By ten-thirty the next morning, I knew that Dad’s words had ruined me. I’d been perfectly content and happy—or at least acceptably content and happy—until he’d mentioned my VD. Now I was in the grips of an enormous amorphous ennui.

      The job was fine. Rip was great. I didn’t care.

      I sulked through the morning, and slipped out for an early liquid lunch. I sipped my peanut-butter-banana-chocolate smoothie and worried. Was I Lotharia? It wasn’t like I cut a huge swath through the male population. I just hadn’t found the right man, and couldn’t quite bring myself to care. Could Rip be the one? Well, his name was Rip, but that’s no worse than Ralph as in Fiennes, even if it is pronounced Rafe.

      At least Rip was pronounced Rip. And his personality was as solid as his elocution. Perfect husband material…if only I were looking for a husband. I wasn’t. It’s far easier to have a relationship when you aren’t. The pressure cooker is off. I’ve watched friends with their cookers clamped down tight, the steamer diddly whirling round and round. Every date, every conversation and sexual experience, every misunderstanding, deviant desire, ambition, frustration and inadequacy is added to the pot until the whole thing blows.

      I prefer the omelet approach to relationships. You use what few ingredients you have at hand, scramble them in a hot pan, and enjoy. Quick and simple.

      Then why was I feeling such discontent?

      Back in the office, I did what I always did when side-swiped by dissatisfaction: a little personal research. I’d collected a file of real estate deals I was interested in—my Recent Developments file. From big money resorts to condo conversions to commercial buildings, all the deals I was sure would make me rich, if I actually pursued them. Well, and could afford them. And knew how to be a developer and all.

      My file of dreams. I flipped through it, and decided to call about The Hole, one of my recurring dream deals. A block off downtown Santa Barbara, there used to be a residential hotel for old people. But it was on prime real estate, and the old people were considered well past their prime, so some developer kicked everyone out and tore the place down, with assurances that they’d find the seniors new homes and bring prosperity and joy to downtown. Five years later, all they’d brought was The Hole—the great gaping basement of the hotel they’d demolished.

      Well, I had some plans for that gaping basement. I dialed.

      “I’m calling about the property on the corner of Carrillo and Chapala,” I told the man on the other end. “I’m representing—”

      “You’re not representing anyone,” he said. “I recognize your voice.”

      So maybe I’d called once too often. But thank God he didn’t know who I was. I’d never given a name.

      “Well, if you’d just fax me the information—” I said.

      “Are you a broker?”

      “Not exactly.”

      “You still think it’d be a great place for an indoor driving range?”

      “I never said that!” I said. “That was just my way of getting you to talk to me.”

      “And this is just my way of talking.” He hung up.

      I growled into the phone and flipped through the Recent Developments. Nothing else caught my eye. Maybe it wasn’t a deal I needed. Maybe it was a new job. Rip walked in as I was glowering at the wall. He looked at my face, looked at the Recent Developments file open on my desk, and slipped into his office, closing his door for protection against the gathering clouds.

      I guess I really am like Emily sometimes. But sometimes I’m like Charlotte, too. And I wasn’t going to let myself ruin everything. So I opened the door softly and gave him a smile. It was the job I was VDed with, not the man.

      He eyed me suspiciously. “What?”

      “I was just thinking how much I like your arms.”

      “You want your desk moved again? It’s not getting the afternoon sun?”

      “My desk is perfect. So is my boss.”

      His suspicion grew into wariness. “How did your call go?”

      “I’m this close to closing a big downtown deal.”

      “Hung up on you again, huh?”

      “Yeah. But I’ve got a plan.”

      “Let me guess. It involves taking two-hour lunches?”

      I waved an airy hand. “Oh, that—my boss is a pushover.”

      “That’s not what I heard. I heard he wants to take it out of your hide.”

      “He has to catch me first.”

      Wren and I had a standing date Wednesday nights. We’d walk Ny at Hendry’s beach, then head up to the Mesa for a burrito before class. I considered stopping at the antiques store before meeting her, but I wasn’t going to be late to pick up some crusty old chamberpot.

      “I’m thinking of quitting.” I put the tray of food on our table outside the burrito place: veggie tacos for me, chicken burrito for Wren, and cheese quesadilla for Ny. “Salsa?”

      Wren gave me a look as she unwrapped her burrito. “Why?”

      “For spice,” I said, tossing Ny’s quesadilla to the ground. He engulfed it.

      She gave me another look. “I mean, why quit?”

      “Yeah, I know. For spice.”

      “Ha-ha.”

      “I dunno…I just think it’s time.”

      “What would you do instead?”

      “You know I never have trouble getting a job.”

      “Just keeping one.”

      “I’d still be working at Element, if you hadn’t fired me.”

      “If I hadn’t fired you,” she said, biting into her burrito. “There wouldn’t be an Element anymore.”

      I made a face at her. “I wasn’t that bad.”

      “You were worse. You haven’t broken up with Rip, have you?”

      “No.”

      “Not yet,” she said.

      “You sound like my dad.”

      “I like your father.”

      “Yeah, a little too much. You want to get it on with my dad, don’t you?”

      “I’m serious. Rip is great. You don’t deserve him.”

      “Thanks,” I said.

      “Give him a chance, Anne. I know you’re approaching the sell-by date, but—”

      “I’m not,” I insisted. “That’s why I want a new job. To preserve the relationship.”

      “I thought you got along great at work.”

      “Well, aside from the buzzer.” I toyed with my taco, before pushing it away. “God, Wren, I’m just so…bored. With me, with my job. Everything.”

      “Here.” She dumped salsa verde on my taco. “A little more spice.”

      For some reason, this made me feel better. Maybe because she seemed to be agreeing with me, even if it was only about the taco. We finished our meals and Wren sat