Kill me with your love. Part I. Iggy Joutsen

Kill me with your love

      Part I

      Iggy Joutsen

      © Iggy Joutsen, 2024

      ISBN 978-5-0064-7321-8 (т. 1)

      ISBN 978-5-0064-7322-5

      Created with Ridero smart publishing system

      Iggy Joutsen

      Love Me To Death

      (fantasy)

      I dedicate this piece of work to my dear friend Nick Trapp (Great Britain), who became my first reader, and two friends from Lithuania, Goda Juškėnienė and Janina Leskinien (Janina Lesnickiene), thanks to whom I have fallen in love with the country of action of the events of this work.

      Contents

      Part I Emilius

      1. Special

      2. Ema

      3. Secret

      4. New I

      5. Mentor

      6. History Lesson

      7. Surprise

      8. My Nature

      9. Initiation

      10. The Council and the Beginning

      11. New Mystery

      12. Unsolved Problem

      13. Talking to myself

      14. Not An Easy Replacement

      15. Austeia

      16. Spells

      17. Summon

      18. Fate

      19. First Victim

      20. Angel’s Death

      21. One Step Closer to Reveal the Mystery

      22. Unpleasant Confession

      23. Kayus

      24. Fatal Mistake

      25. Rite

      26. Dominikas

      27. There is no Way back

      28. Cruel Choice

      29. In Search of the Truth

      30. Lost in Memories of the Past

      31. Third Seizure

      32. Second Victim

      33. Third Victim

      34. Too Long and Difficult Day

      35. Lessons from the Past

      36. Farewell Speech

      37. Deception

      38. Old New Friend

      39. There is no End to Evil

      Part II Sophia

      1. Special

      2. Farewell

      3. A Guest from the Past

      4. The List

      5. Who is the Traitor

      6. Omens

      7. In Search

      8. Talking with The Book

      9. Labyrinth of the Past

      10. The First Attack and the First Suspicion

      11. Not Easy Confession

      12. Secret Society, or Conspiracy

      13. A Serious Talk

      14. Farewell, My Dear Friend

      15. The First Suspicion

      16. A Strange Dream

      17. Anticouncil

      18. New Acquaintance

      19. Traveling back in Time

      20. Three Men

      21. Attacks

      22. Mistake or Right Choice?

      23. At Least One Secret Has Been Solved

      24. The Unexpected Help

      25. There is no End to Evil

      1. Special

      When they have been keeping saying all the time since your childhood that you are special, you unconsciously begin to believe it. Such remarks are especially characteristic of loving parents who tell their beloved offspring. Of course, one’s own child will always be unique. No wonder they say that love is blind.

      As for me, everything was “even worse.” I was considered special even when I did not do anything outstanding. I had been praised, cherished and idolized since the moment I was born into this world. Day and night, I heard words of support and approval.

      If something did not work out or went out of hand, they kept repeating to me: “You can do it, just give it a try. You’re smart and resourceful, and you’ll always find a way.”

      I was so inspired by that kind of “super-support” of my parents, who really made me believe that everything was in control. Of course, later life taught “my Majesty” many instructive lessons. I realized that no one needed me in the world; that most people did not care about me and I was not special at all, but quite an ordinary person with own failings.

      Who would have thought that many years later, when I had long ago come to terms with the essence of an ordinary person, an unexpected ability woke up in me.

      I was devoured by curiosity, but they said “everything in good time.” Life went on as usual, but the secret would never be revealed to me. “Probably they lied to me. There is no “family secret at all”, I thought, until I completely forgot about it. The mystery unfolded by itself one rainy June evening.

      As always, on Friday, my friends and I got together to play Mafia in one of the cafes of Kaunas. I really liked this game because of its fun and unpredictability. In it, as in life, you never know who is hiding behind the mask of indifference.

      My friends were quite ordinary people, all with college degrees and decent jobs. It is nice to spend time with them and talk on a variety of subjects, but this is not about that, but about the game.

      Everything was going smoothly, fun and at ease. We were laughing a lot, drinking alcohol and exchanging jokes, sometimes obscene ones. Suddenly, after another joke, I accidentally showed my card and did not even notice it, which resulted in my merciless “murder”.

      Of course, I considered what happened to be an injustice and got terribly upset. I got so angry that, jumping up from the table, exclaimed “May the thunder strike someone on the head!”

      I did not know why I shouted out this particular phrase, which had no meaning, but immediately after that, the thunder really struck and with such a noise, that glass flew out of windows all over the neighborhood, and the lights instantly went out. Frightened shouts were heard from everywhere and when, sometime later, the power was on, we got shocked by a scene before our very eyes.

      In the corner at the entrance to the café, a man was lying with a smashed skull, from which a grayish liquid was flowing out, as if someone had hit him hard on the head with a heavy object.

      2. Ema

      A few days later, I was walking down the streets, immersed in thoughts, and did not notice anyone or anything around. Something told me: that incident in the café was not an accident nor a coincidence, as it might seem at first glance. It was all my fault, although it did not look like that at all.

      Despite my unstable inner state, I felt fine physically. Some unknown force was spreading through the body like a burning stream. I felt it with every cell of my being. The effect of that force did not bring a relaxing effect, but, on the contrary, drove to an even more anxious feeling.

      Mental throwing did not give me peace. I felt like a wild animal trapped in a cage and did not know what to do and how to accept a new “essence” in a new inner