Before She Was Found. Heather Gudenkauf
Читать онлайн.| Название | Before She Was Found |
|---|---|
| Автор произведения | Heather Gudenkauf |
| Жанр | Контркультура |
| Серия | HQ Fiction eBook |
| Издательство | Контркультура |
| Год выпуска | 0 |
| isbn | 9781474083133 |
Text Message Exchange Between Jordyn Petit and Violet Crow
Beth Crow Wednesday, April 18, 2018
Interview of John Dover, Pitch Police Department Officer Keith Grady
Dr. Madeline Gideon September 14, 2018
Thomas Petit Thursday, April 19, 2018
Beth Crow Thursday, April 19, 2018
Text Message Exchange Between Nikki Dobric, Max Crow, Clint Phelps and Ryan Moren
Dr. Madeline Gideon September 14, 2018
Thomas Petit September 14, 2018
Dr. Madeline Gideon September 14, 2018
Before She Was Found Reader’s Guide
A Conversation with the Author
Text Message Exchange Between Jordyn Petit and Violet Crow
Sunday, April 15, 2018
Jordyn: Going 2 Coras at 6
Violet: Me, too. Are you going to bring it?
Jordyn: Yeah
Violet: R we really doing this????
Jordyn: Yes! Unless UR 2 scared
Violet: What if we get caught?
Jordyn: Just keep your mouth shut and we won’t
12:45 a.m.
The air is cold, but she barely notices. It’s the dark that fills her chest with terror, makes her limbs heavy with dread. But she feels something else, too. Something that she can’t quite name. It reminds her of how she feels the night before her birthday or on Christmas Eve but not exactly the same. Thinking about her birthday and Christmas makes her feel good, warm. This feels more like slowly climbing the ladder to the high dive at the swimming pool or like when the roller coaster at Adventureland reaches its highest peak just before it plunges straight down and she just knows she is going to die.
The train yard, filled with the carcasses of gutted-out buildings, is illuminated by only a wispy, wayward eyelash of a pale moon. She stretches out her neck, tilting her ear toward the tracks, hoping to get a sense as to where the others have gone but all she can hear is the wind whispering through the tall grass.
Too much time has passed. They may already be looking for them. It’s now or never, she thinks nervously. She can do this; if she doesn’t he’ll never show up. That was the deal. Together in the bedroom, door locked, they planned everything so carefully right down to the day and hour.
In her right hand dangles the hawk-billed knife they secretly took from a kitchen drawer. Her other arm hangs loosely at her side. At first they considered bringing a crowbar but decided that it was too big, too heavy to lift. This fits her fingers better, feels comfortable, reassuring in her palm. She will use it if she has to.
Over the past month or so he’s written messages, love letters, really. Sweet, sentimental words that if she could, she would tuck inside her secret shoebox filled with lucky coins and heart-shaped rocks found over the years. But he warned her, said they could get in trouble, so instead she memorizes each sentence and murmurs them at night before she falls asleep and it’s almost as if he’s right there with her.
She picks up her pace and moves toward the tracks, dulled and worn down by time and elements. The rail ties are barely visible through the weeds, half-buried sun-bleached bones. She’s breathing hard and suddenly realizes tears are rolling down her cheeks. On the opposite side of the tracks where the last year’s winter wheat stands, unsown and bent like a wizened old man, is a field that in a few months will be filled with alfalfa. There she sees something. He is hidden in the shadows but she knows it’s him. He’s come. He beckons her with a raised hand and her heart leaps.
Out of the corner of her eye she sees a familiar shape sitting on the train tracks, knees tucked beneath her chin. The girl turns her head as she approaches, stretches out her legs, holds her injured arm close to her side. They don’t speak. She trusts her. Of course she does.
The figure in the dry grass tilts his chin as if to say, Go ahead. Do it. I dare you. Her legs are not her own as she approaches, the knife bouncing lightly against her thigh. She stops in front of the girl who stands and smiles crookedly up at her through tears, her small teeth flashing white. Beneath her feet the ground vibrates, warning her of the coming train. She has to hurry; once the engine comes into view it will be too late. He’ll leave.
In the distance a dog barks. The rumble of the train grows louder.
She strikes quickly, without thinking. The cold metal rips through fabric and skin easily. She thought it would be harder, take more effort. The girl looks at her in confusion, presses her fingers to her abdomen and pulls them away. The girl looks surprised to find them wet with blood.
The tracks shiver and shake with the approaching engine.