Miracle On 5th Avenue. Sarah Morgan

And he was still running.

      The place looked as if he’d jumped straight from that life into this one and brought nothing with him.

      Her heart ached for him.

      She tried telling herself his life was none of her business. She’d been employed to fix his apartment, not fix his life, and he’d made it clear how much he hated interference. The sensible thing was to leave right now, but if she left, he’d be alone and who knew what he might do? What if he picked up that knife? She was the only person who knew the truth. That Lucas Blade wasn’t on a writing retreat in Vermont. He was holed up here in his apartment, alone.

      If he did something, she’d feel responsible. She’d always wonder if she could have stopped it. Made a difference.

      Her gaze met the fierce black of his and she knew she wasn’t looking at a man who was dangerous. She was looking at a man who was desperate. Right on the edge. Holding it together by a thread.

      Lucas Blade might write about horror, but she suspected that right now nothing matched the horror of his own life.

      And there was no way she was leaving him alone.

Three

      Look before you leap. Or carry a first aid kit.

      —Lucas

      Lucas had expected her to leave, but she was still standing there.

      “I have work to do.” And he was desperate to get started. The characters were coming alive in his head, becoming people with flaws and qualities. He could hear dialogue and picture scenes. For the first time in far too long he couldn’t wait to sit down in front of his laptop. He wanted to escape into the fictional world that was waiting for him. It was like someone in chronic pain, contemplating a syringe full of morphine. He wanted to grab it and empty the barrel into his veins until the sweetness of oblivion numbed the agony that had been his constant companion for three years.

      The only thing stopping him was the source of his inspiration who seemed stubbornly determined not to leave. He might have scared her, but apparently he hadn’t scared her enough to send her running for the door.

      “Your grandmother gave me this job, so either I call her and explain, or I do the job she sent me here to do.”

      If she called his grandmother, any hope of being left alone over the Christmas period would vanish. He’d be required to explain why he was in New York rather than Vermont and, most awkwardly of all, why he’d lied about it.

      “Look around you.” He tried intimidation, his tone silky soft. “Do I look like a man who wants his apartment decorated for the holidays?”

      “No, which is why your grandmother wanted me to do it. She doesn’t think you should be living like this. She’s worried about you. And frankly, having met you, so am I.”

      “Why would you care how I’m living my life?”

      “Everyone deserves a Christmas tree in their lives.”

      “Only if you’re trying to punish them.”

      “Punish? A Christmas tree is uplifting.”

      “What is uplifting about a fake Christmas tree, which is essentially a petroleum-based product probably manufactured in a Chinese factory?”

      “Fake? Who said anything about fake? I don’t do ‘fake,’ Mr. Blade. I don’t do fake Christmas trees, fake handbags, or fake orgasms.” Color streaked across her cheeks. “I didn’t mean to say that last one. It slipped out. But my point is nothing in my life is fake.” The words tumbled over each other and Lucas found himself struggling not to smile.

      He didn’t think he’d ever met anyone so deliciously indiscreet.

      “You’ve never faked an orgasm?”

      “Could you forget I said that?”

      He imagined her in bed, naked and uninhibited. Heat raced over his skin and his thoughts were explicit enough to make him uncomfortable. Since his wife’s death he’d had no shortage of offers, from sex to marriage, but had never once been tempted. It wasn’t just that he’d left his bad boy days in his past. It was more that he no longer had the taste for it. Every time he looked at a woman he saw the expression on Sallyanne’s face the last time he’d seen her alive.

      But he was definitely attracted to Eva.

      To take his mind off sex, he pondered on how someone of her build could murder a man twice her size.

      “I’m a writer. Human behavior interests me.”

      She interested him.

      He told himself that his interest was professional, but part of him recognized that as a lie.

      She let her hands drop. “We were talking about Christmas trees. Real Christmas trees, which smell and look beautiful.”

      “And drop needles all over my floor.” He remembered the way she’d felt underneath him.

      “If needles drop you clean them up.” She unbuttoned her coat. “It’s not hard.”

      “I don’t have time. I have a book to finish and I need to be left in peace to do that. If you decorate my apartment, you’ll disturb me.” It wasn’t the noise that worried him, or the intrusion of having someone else in the apartment, it was her.

      She made him feel something he didn’t want to feel.

      Maybe it was because she was nothing like his wife. Sallyanne had been tall and willowy. In heels, she’d matched his height. Physically, Eva was as different from Sallyanne as it was possible for a woman to be. He knew instinctively that losing himself in Eva’s soft curves would be a whole new experience, with no flashbacks or reminders, but he knew that for a man like him to get involved with a woman like her would definitely be a crime, just not the sort he wrote about.

      “You won’t even know I’m here.”

      “You’re not the type of woman who blends into the background.”

      “You don’t need to worry about me disturbing you,” she said quickly. “I understand that creative genius needs space to work. Also there’s the fact that I don’t find your company that thrilling, Mr. Blade.”

      The kitten had claws. “Tell my grandmother you changed your mind about the job.”

      “No. I’m being paid to decorate your apartment and stock your freezer in your absence. That’s what I intend to do.”

      “I’m not absent.”

      “Which is inconvenient for both of us, particularly as you’re not allowing me to disclose that fact to the person who gave me this job. I don’t like lying.”

      He discovered that those soft blue eyes and mermaid-like hair concealed a woman with a stubborn streak a mile wide.

      The thought that his grandmother might finally have met her match almost compensated for the irritation of failing to shift her from his apartment.

      Almost, but not quite.

      “Leave, and I’ll match whatever she’s paying you.”

      “It’s not about the money, Mr. Blade. It’s about my professional reputation. I take pride in my work.”

      “And what is your work, exactly? You’re a Christmas elf? You decorate the apartments of unsuspecting Scrooge-like individuals, thus intensifying their loathing of this time of year?” His sarcasm seemed to slide right off her.

      “I’m part of Urban Genie. We’re an events and concierge company.”

      “Decorating my apartment is an event?”

      “Your grandmother is one of our clients and this request came through her. We can do pretty