It Happened In Paradise: Wedded in a Whirlwind / Deserted Island, Dreamy Ex! / His Bride in Paradise. Nicola Marsh

play the game. She said I owed my father total loyalty. That the country needed him.’

      He could still see the two of them going out to face the cameras together, the smiling arm-in-arm pose by the garden gate with the dogs that had made the front page of all the newspapers the next day. Could still smell the rosemary as the photographers had jostled for close-ups, hoping to catch the pain and embarrassment behind the composed smiles. As if…

      ‘What I hated most, couldn’t forgive,’ he said, ‘was the way the other woman was treated like a pariah. Frozen out. She had to give up her job, go into hiding, take out an injunction against the press to protect her daughter. Start over somewhere new.’

      ‘You don’t blame her at all? She wasn’t exactly innocent, Nick, and someone must have leaked the information to the press. Maybe she hoped to force your father’s hand.’

      ‘If she did she was a fool,’ he said dismissively.

      ‘She didn’t go for the kiss-and-tell? Even then?’

      ‘No. Everyone behaved impeccably. Kept their mouths shut and my father was back in government before the year was over.’

      ‘She loved him, then.’

      ‘I imagine so. She was a fool twice over.’

      ‘I suppose.’ Miranda’s shivering little sigh betrayed her. Was that how she saw herself? A fool?

      ‘If it wasn’t for herself, maybe it was for her daughter.’

      She swallowed nervously, as if aware of treading on dangerous ground.

      ‘Perhaps she wanted some of what you had,’ she said when he didn’t respond. ‘To be publicly acknowledged by her father. In her place…’

      ‘In her place, what?’ he demanded when she faltered.

      ‘It’s what I would have done,’ she admitted.

      ‘Poking a stick into a wasps’ nest,’ he said, realising that she was probably right. ‘Poor kid.’

      ‘She’s a woman, Jago. About my age. Your sister. And you’re wrong about your parents losing nothing,’ she said before he could tell her that he didn’t have a sister. That she was nothing to him. ‘They lost you.’

      ‘The people I thought were my parents didn’t exist. Their entire life was a charade.’

      ‘Truly? All of it? Even when they came to your school open day?’

      ‘They did what was expected of them, Miranda,’ he said, refusing to give them credit for anything. ‘It was just another photo op. Like going to church when they were in the constituency. Pure hypocrisy. It didn’t mean anything.’

      She sucked in her breath as if about to say something, then thought better of it. ‘You changed your name? Afterwards?’

      ‘I use my grandfather’s name. Part of it, anyway. He emigrated from eastern Europe. Nothing as grand as Russian royalty, you understand, just a young man trying to escape poverty. They put him off the boat at the first port they came to and told him he was in America. We have a lot in common.’

      ‘Don’t you think—’

      ‘No,’ he said abruptly. ‘I don’t.’ It was the last thing he wanted to think about. ‘What about you? Do you see your parents these days? Did they manage to find time for their granddaughter’s christening?’

      She shook her head, then, realising that he couldn’t see, said, ‘They died in an accident years ago. When Ivo was just out of university and I was in sixth form taking my A levels.’

      Jago found himself in the unusual situation of not having a clue what to say.

      To offer sympathy for the loss of parents who had never been there for her would have been as hypocritical as anything his parents had ever done. Saying what was expected. Hollow words. Yet he knew there would still be an emptiness. A space that nothing could ever fill…

      ‘How did you cope?’ he asked finally.

      Manda caught a yawn. She ached everywhere, her hands were sore, her mouth gluey. The only comfort was the heat of Jago’s shoulder beneath her head. His arm keeping her close. His low husky voice drowning out the small noises, the scuffling, that she didn’t want to think about.

      ‘Everything suddenly landed on Ivo’s shoulders. He’d been about to take a year off to travel. Instead, he found himself having to deal with all the consequences of unexpected death. Step up and take over. He was incredible.’

      ‘I don’t doubt it, but I was asking about you. Singular.’

      ‘Oh.’ How rare was that…? ‘I suppose the hardest thing was having to accept that, no matter what I did, how good I was, or how bad, my mother and father were never going to turn up, hold me, tell me that it was going to be all right because they loved me.’

      It was all she’d ever wanted.

      ‘And?’ he said, dragging her back from the moment she’d stood at their graveside, loving them and hating them in the same breath.

      She wished she could see him. See his eyes, read him… Cut off from all those visual signals that she could read like a book, she was lost. And in the dark she couldn’t use that cool, dismissive smile she’d perfected for when people got too close. The one that Ivo said was like running into a brick wall.

      She had no mask to hide behind.

      ‘There must have been an “and”,’ he persisted. ‘You’re not the kind of woman who just sits back and takes it.’

      ‘Not only a hero but smart with it,’ she said, letting her head fall back against this unexpected warmth that had nothing to do with temperature.

      No visual clues, but his voice was as rich and comforting as a mouthful of her sister-in-law’s chocolate cake. And, like that sinful confection, to be taken only in very small quantities because the comfort glow was an illusion.

      She wasn’t fooling herself. The magic would fade with the dawn as such things always did in fairy stories, but for now, in the dark, with his shoulder to lean on, his arm about her, she felt safe.

      ‘And…’ he insisted, refusing to let her off the hook.

      He really wanted to know what she’d done next, did he? Well, that would speed reality along very nicely and maybe that was a good thing. Illusions were made to be shattered, so it was best to get it over with. The sooner the better.

      ‘You’re absolutely right,’ she said. ‘There’s always an “and”.’

      ‘You’re stalling.’

      ‘Am I?’

      Who wouldn’t?

      ‘And so I went looking for someone who would,’ she said. ‘Just one more poor little rich girl looking for someone who’d hold her and tell her that he loved her. Totally pathetic.’

      Just how dumb could a girl get?

      ‘You were what? Eighteen?’ he guessed. ‘I don’t suppose you found it difficult.’

      ‘No. It wasn’t finding someone that was difficult. There were someones positively lining up to help me out. Finding them wasn’t the problem. Keeping them was something else.’ Looking back with the crystal clear vision of hindsight, it was easy to see why. ‘Needy, clinging women desperate for love frighten men to death.’

      ‘We’re a pitiful bunch.’

      She shook her head. ‘It wasn’t their fault. They were young, looking for some lighthearted fun. Sex without strings.’

      Something she hadn’t understood at the time. And when, finally, it had been made clear to her, it had broken her.

      ‘I think you’re being a little harsh on yourself.’

      ‘Am