A Few Good Men. Tori Carrington

drew in a breath and exhaled. “I have some things I need to clean up here in Virginia first,” he lied.

      “The guys had a whole welcome-home barbecue planned. Killed the cow and everything. They’re going to be awfully disappointed.”

      “I’m sure they’ll enjoy the food without me,” Eric said absently.

      The line was quiet for a moment or two. Then his younger brother asked, “When do you think you will be home?”

      Eric straightened, causing the cot to squeak. “Wish I could tell you, bro. Wish I could tell you.”

      “Is everything all right? You haven’t gotten yourself into trouble or anything, have you?”

      He thought of his fellow marine and supervising officer Brian Justice and the court-martial he was facing. Following quickly on the heels came the dark incident that had brought it about. A scene he feared was forever etched into the backs of his eyelids. “No, no. Nothing like that. Nothing I can’t handle.”

      “Well, then, you make sure you give me a heads-up when you know, ya hear? The guys will want to do something to commemorate your return.” He chuckled. “Or at least be ready for it.”

      Eric grinned. It was nice to know he was missed.

      He talked to his brother for a couple more minutes and then hung up, exchanging the phone for the slip of paper again.

      He remembered when he’d first hooked up online with the mysterious woman named Samantha. He’d been in a chat room, just shooting the breeze, doing the cyber equivalent of flexing his muscles, and she’d popped up, calling him out on some of the false details he’d supplied.

      “Me and the guys went into Bahrain last night and tied one on,” he’d written.

      “No, you didn’t. You’re anchored off the coast of Kuwait and there was no shore leave,” Samantha had replied.

      She’d been right. And he’d been smitten. A woman who withstood his bragging and not only managed to wittily defuse it, but stuck around to enjoy real conversations.

      And then, six months in, their daily missives had ventured into sexier territory.

      “What are you wearing?” he’d asked her, much as he had every other time within five seconds of logging on.

      Her usual response was “a ratty old sweatshirt and jeans.”

      But not that day. That day she’d described, in sultry detail, the delicate lace of the new thong she’d just bought at Victoria’s Secret. The red silk nightie that just brushed the top of her thighs. How her smooth legs and waxed delicates felt against her Egyptian cotton bed sheets.

      Eric had instantly entered a period he described as being like a fully loaded M-16 with nothing to shoot at.

      From then on, all he could seem to think of was Samantha. The fact that she’d never sent him a picture of herself, merely gave him general stats like five-six, one hundred and twenty pounds, combination of Denise Richards, Scarlett Johansson and Angelina Jolie, hadn’t hindered his fantasies. If anything, not knowing what she looked like seemed to feed them. He’d lie in his cot at night thinking about the woman a half a world away, sleeping alone in her own bed. He’d go into a port of call with the guys and not really see the female sailors or locals hitting on him, his only goal to get to a cyber café where he could see if Samantha was available to chat.

      He’d never considered that her name wasn’t really Samantha at the time. He’d figured that since she’d refused to share her last name, the first had to be real.

      He stared at the piece of paper in his hands and knew that wasn’t the case. And that everything he’d believed in both his fantasy and real life had come crashing down around his ears.

      “Samantha” was in truth Sara Harris…and Eric had been best friend to her late husband; a man who had saved Eric’s life, giving up his own in the process.

      “So I WAS THINKING that you and I could go to the sym-phony together,” Sara’s mother-in-law Gertrude Harris was saying. “You know how Howard hates the sym-phony and none of my friends…Well, they wouldn’t enjoy the production as much as I know you will.”

      Sara took a bite of her chicken salad. She hated the symphony. Not that she’d ever tell her mother-in-law that. It would break Gertrude’s heart to think that she’d been faking an interest all this time. Five years to be exact, when Sara had married Howard and Gertrude’s only child, Andrew. She’d wanted so desperately to belong that she’d done a lot of nodding and smiling and not nearly enough speaking up.

      “Just tell her, Sara,” Andy had told her after the first time she’d sat through a production of Beethoven’s First Symphony with his mother. “She’ll understand.”

      “Yeah, she’ll understand that I’m a liar and a fraud and the absolute worst daughter-in-law in the world.”

      Andy had chuckled and set about giving her a shoulder rub to make her feel better. And had progressed to rubbing other areas of her anatomy, making her feel much, much better.

      But Andy wasn’t here to make her feel better about anything anymore. And he hadn’t been for a year and a half.

      How young she’d been then, when she’d married Andy. Nineteen going on forty. And her top priorities were, first, to make her new husband happy. Second, to make her in-laws not only like her, but love her.

      How much older she felt now. Much older than the five years that had passed.

      “Sara?”

      She looked up into Gertrude’s face.

      “Is everything all right?”

      She forced herself to sit straighter and smiled. “Of course. What would make you ask?”

      “I don’t know…you seem a little distracted lately. Not like yourself.”

      If only she knew who she was anymore.

      So much of her life lately seemed to be about going through the motions. After the two marines in full uniform had appeared at her front door to deliver the news that her husband had been killed in action, it had been hard enough to drag herself out of bed every morning, take a shower, and go to the small graphics design company where she worked. Simple things like eating became a chore, but she did it. Partly because she didn’t know what else to do. Mostly because Gertrude and Howard had needed her to help see them through the sad ordeal.

      Then came the day six months after the military funeral at Arlington when she woke up to discover that she hadn’t allowed her heart to grieve the loss of the only man she’d ever loved. And her soul rebelled.

      She’d spent a week shut off from the world, wishing she had been the one to go instead of Andy. After all, he’d had his family to live for. What did she have?

      She’d had him. And now…

      Sara looked at Gertrude. Now she had his family. And no matter how much she hated going to the sym-phony, or helping Gertrude organize Saturday luncheon and afternoons out with “The girls”…Well, putting herself out there, even as someone she feared she wasn’t, it was all she had. And she would never, ever do anything to risk that.

      Her cheeks felt hot. Liar, a little horned devil sitting on her right shoulder whispered.

      She had done something to upset the status quo. The good thing was, no one but her knew that.

      Well, no one but her and her late husband’s best friend and fellow marine Eric Armstrong.

      No. She was wrong on that account. She was the only one. Because there was no way Eric would ever know that her online identity of Samantha was really her. Would never know that she had been the one to reach out to him as an anonymous friend during that weeklong isolation, or that he had been her salvation, the sole reason for her to finally end her seclusion and continue an existence that sometimes loomed unbearable without