Conversations With God During a 30 Day Social Media Detox and How It Changed My Life - Unedited, Unabridged, & Unfiltered. Rachael J Avery

I was now sitting cross legged back up against the wall on the bed. It was on its way to looking like a real meditation in my nightgown over my sweats with a white sweatshirt except this time I was waving my hands in the air with my eyes still closed much like a faith based appreciation song to God. Except I was singing a musical.

      I dropped from my crossed leg position to my knees and turned around to bow my head except I wasn't sure which direction to bow it to; the wall or… well… the other wall? What position are you supposed to kneel to God again? I'm gonna have to google that. After contemplation I assumed it didn't matter. I chose to bow to the wall against which I was sitting against since I could rest my forehead on the blanket I was using as a cushion.

      I can count the number of times I've dropped to my knees. When the signs become so clear that I can no longer ignore that you God seriously didn't just drop me a direct tweet sort of speak, I almost think I sort of have to since your obviously so close and so answering my prayers that to not bow to you at this point would be conversing with you like, "Hey! Whats up G. So you wanna just slip me a hall pass or what?" at the pearly white gates. Would he think that was rude or endearing? I didn't want to take my chances. So I just kneeled.

      I kneeled because the little Mermaid song, "Part of this world" came on. The song. The only song he could have played to make me realize how part of his plan I really was. It was this song and only this song that was my favorite song as a child and after I pinched open child hood wounds, I discovered this song in the ruble of my past. I dusted it off and have been singing it in abundance ever since. Except now I reclaim all my great musicals to be affirmations replacing "want" with "I am". So now the little mermaid song instead of

      "Wish I could be...part of this world"

      says

      "I know that I'm free and part of this world"

      I know do it with all my favorite tunes since I got the message that all music, images, and TV are food for my head and soul so I like to re-write scripts for my advantage. After all if I feel rich and abundant just by singing silly affirmations and feel it down to the very giddy tones of my toes, what’s the different between me and someone with $5,000,000 in their pocket? Oh yeah. Nothin. I train my body chemistry to “act” exactly as if to the furthest to my wildest dream then well I’m there, aren’t I? Except maybe this way I don’t have 12 toilets to clean in my mansion. Score.

      I have this dream. This secret little dream. Dream 1,2045 I believe it is now to reframe some of the most popular music and put them on a CD's so children and adults can sing their favorite music and begin to transform their lives all at the same time. Since well you know what the deal is with affirmations. I'm not going to bore you. Blah. Blah. Blah. They change your life. Whatever.

      So there it is God. Another dumb idea somehow turned up the amp nob on my heart. I don't know why you would do that when I'm still trying to figure out how to frickin hootsuite idea 835. Oh well. I'm so sick of trying to figure it out. I'm just gonna write it down and you can do what you will with it. Whateve. I gotta go hide these easter eggs now. Cause I'm grateful again, not crying upset anymore.

      Hey! This is a theme. This grateful crap is working. Word. Tweet to your mother.