After Tears. Niq Mhlongo

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      AFTER TEARS

      NIQ MHLONGO

       After Tears

      Ohio University Press, Athens, Ohio 45701

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      First published by Kwela Books,

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      Copyright © N Mhlongo 2007

      First published in North America 2011 by Ohio University Press.

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      Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

      Mhlongo, Nicholas

      After tears / Niq Mhlongo.

      p. cm.

      ISBN 978-0-8214-1984-7 (pb : alk. paper)

      1. College students—South Africa—Fiction. 2. Families—South Africa—Fiction. 3. Soweto (South Africa)—Social life and customs—Fiction. I. Title.

      PR9369.4.M48A38 2011

      823’.92—dc22

      2011027222

      In memory of my best friends:

      Moses Kgoale (1973 – 1997) and

      Daniel Armstrong Mabasa (1969 – 2005)

      RIP

      ONE

      November 22, 1999

      That was it. I had had enough of Cape Town. The cold Atlantic Ocean, the white sand beaches, Table Mountain, the Waterfront, everything I had once found so beautiful about the city, had suddenly turned ugly. I decided right there, in front of the notice board, to go and pack my belongings and leave for good. The compass in my mind was pointing north, back to Johannesburg, my landlocked city, and Soweto. I was sure that if I stayed in Cape Town for one more day I would go mad. The four years that I had spent there, shuttling between the university lecture theatres and libraries, had come to nil. My fate had been decided. I wasn’t fit to become an advocate the following year. I was a failure.

      My eyes were burning as the morning started to break. My muscles were stiff and my neck was aching. I knew that I had to be awake at every single station the train came to a halt at as my lady friend Vee had warned me of the dangers of falling asleep along the way. She had advised me that some passengers, especially around the diamond town of Kimberley, don’t have ubuntu and steal other people’s luggage when getting off the train. She had experienced this misfortune on her way home to Zimbabwe via Johannesburg.

      We passed the Klerksdorp station at about nine in the morning and, as I stood up to stretch, my stomach started to rumble, from hunger, I suspected.

      Inside the plastic bag that I had hidden under my seat there was some left-over chicken from KFC. I could have eaten it, but as soon as I tried to open my bag the woman next to me stared at me with nightmarish suspicion. It was as if I were one of those uncivilised bastards she had always warned her daughters not to dare go out on a date with. So I left it in the bag under my seat.

      After the train had passed Klerksdorp Station, I decided to go and brush my teeth in the toilet. As I walked down the aisle, with my toothbrush in my hand, I felt my cellphone vibrating inside my Nike sweatpants. The small screen on it registered Mama. A shiver ran through me as I answered the phone.

      “Hi, Mama . . .”

      “Hey, my laaitie, it’s your uncle talking on your Mama’s cell here. Where are you now?” It was Uncle Nyawana at the other end. “Your ouledi said I should find out.”

      “Sure, Uncle. We are between Klerksdorp and Potchefstroom and we should be arriving at Park Station around one this afternoon. It’s almost an hour behind schedule,” I shouted over the noise of the train.

      “Sharp, Advo. I’m sure you came with nice things from Cape Town for your uncle. Don’t forget my J&B whisky that you promised. A belofte is a belofte, my laaitie.”

      “Ah . . . Uncle, I only have a UCT T-shirt for you. It’s from our law school and has the university logo on it,” I struggled, trying to describe the T-shirt. “I’m sure you’ll love it, Uncle.”

      “That sounds nice, my Advo, but I still want my whisky that you promised,” he insisted. “Don’t worry if you forgot to buy for me in Cape Town, there are lots of bottle stores where we can buy. There are the Lagos and Kinshasa bottle stores in Hillbrow that operate twenty-four hours a day. There is also a nice new bottle store here next to Park Station called Dakar. Or, if you like, we can go to Zak Zak in Diepkloof. That’s the cheapest place in the whole of Jozi.”

      “That’s fine, Uncle. We’ll see when I get there.”

      “Good, my laaitie. I’m sure you got an A in your law school report. I know that you’re slim.”

      “We’ll talk about that, Uncle. My battery is low and my cell can cut out at any time.”

      “Sharp, Advo. We’ll be waiting for you at Park Station.”

      My thoughts raced as the feeling of failure and guilt seized me for the first time that morning.

      Ever since I had started doing law at the University of Cape Town, my uncle had stopped calling me by my real name, which is Bafana, and started calling me Advo, short for advocate.

      Mama also had her expectations. According to her, 1999 was my final year at university and, the following year, I would be starting work as an advocate. Her simple calculation was that a law degree only takes four years to complete, hence I was already doing my final year. She had completely ruled out the possibility that I might fail, which I’m afraid is exactly what had happened.

      I’m not sure if this denial by Mama was due to her limited Western education or her excitement. She had left school in standard seven because she’d fallen pregnant with me, but her ambition, as she always told me, had been to become a lawyer. Ever since I started doing law she had boasted to her friend sis Zinhle that I was going to be the youngest advocate to come out of Chi.

      I negotiated my way to the next carriage in search of a toilet with a sink. The door to the first one read Engaged and I waited outside, looking at the fields through the window.

      A few seconds later a lady came out and I went in and locked the door behind me, and started brushing my teeth. I clearly recalled the morning when everything had fallen apart. The morning I went to check the provisional results that were posted on the notice board of the law school. It’s not that I’d expected much, but I couldn’t believe my eyes when I realised that I had failed everything except for Criminal Law.

      TWO

      Tuesday, November 23

      The concourse of Johannesburg Park Station was busy as always that Tuesday afternoon, but as I emerged from the stairs that led down to platform 15 I couldn’t help but see Uncle Nyawana, next to the Greyhound bus counter, flashing his dirty teeth at me. Standing next to him were three people, but I only recognised