The Failed Marriage. Carole Mortimer

he gave no sign of it, treating her as impersonally as he would any other patient.

      ‘It doesn’t look too bad,’ he straightened. ‘I’ll just get something to clean it.’ He went back into the bathroom, turning off the bath-taps as he did so.

      Joanna took this few moments to collect her thoughts together, to try and gauge her reaction to being touched by Joshua after all this time. She didn’t have one, not revulsion, and certainly not excitement. It had been as if she were being touched by a stranger, and not the man she had shared her most intimate moments with, not the man she had once loved so much. Where had all that love gone?—because it certainly had gone!

      She could look at Joshua now and see all the things she hadn’t seen in the beginning, the coldness in his eyes, the lack of emotion in his handsome face, the flashes of hardness she often felt in his actions. Yes, she could see it all now, now that it was five years too late.

      He was back in her bedroom now, bending over her foot. ‘Sorry,’ he murmured at her gasp, the jagged- looking piece of glass now in his hand, a wad of gauze stopping the flow of blood. ‘Does it hurt?’ he asked softly as he bandaged the foot after cleaning it.

      ‘Not too badly,’ she shrugged off the digging pain she could still feel. ‘Aren’t I lucky my husband is a doctor? she added lightly.

      Joshua looked up with a heavy frown, searching her face for signs of the sarcasm evident in her voice. ‘Yes,’ he answered abruptly, his mouth tight, finishing off the bandage before straightening. ‘That should be all right now, but the bath is out, I’m afraid.’

      ‘It’s only a question of keeping my foot out of the water—isn’t it?’ she said sharply.

      He shrugged. ‘Yes.’

      ‘Then I’ll still have my bath—thank you.’

      His mouth twisted. ‘Go ahead. I’ll just go and clean up the mess in the—–’

      ‘I’ll do it.’ Joanna flushed, and swung her legs to the floor, pulling her robe hurriedly together as it parted slightly to reveal her nakedness.

      Joshua turned away uninterestedly. ‘Please let me do it,’ he said hardly. ‘I wouldn’t like there to be any more accidents.’

      Her eyes flashed her resentment of his patronishing tone. ‘Do it, then,’ she dismissed curtly.

      With a coldly assessing glance in her direction he went into the bathroom, leaving Joanna seething. Anyone would think she had knocked the damned bottle over on purpose!

      ‘All done.’ He was back within minutes. ‘What were you doing in that side of the cabinet anyway?’ he asked mildly.

      ‘Looking for something,’ she mumbled, unable to meet his gaze. They each had their own side of the spacious bathroom cabinet, and she was as aware as he that she had knocked the bottle from his side.

      Joshua didn’t move, dominating the room with his height and breadth. ‘What?’

      ‘Just something,’ she snapped. ‘Look, I couldn’t find what I was looking for in my side, so I wondered if Mrs Barnaby had put it back in your side this morning when she tidied up,’ she defended as he still seemed to be waiting for his answer. ‘It was as simple as that. Anyway, I’ve remembered now that I threw the empty packet away yesterday.’ The colour in her cheeks seemed to be a permanent fixture, heightening Joshua’s curiosity, she felt sure.

      Heavens, it was months since they had talked as much as this—and she wished they weren’t talking now!

      ‘What was it?’ he asked softly. ‘Perhaps I have some I can let you have.’

      She shook her head. ‘I don’t think so.’

      ‘Tell me and maybe—–’

      ‘No!’

      His eyes narrowed at her uncontrollable outburst. ‘What was it, Joanna?’ His tone was inflexible, demanding an answer this time.

      Her head went back in anger, her expression resentful. ‘What do you think it was?’

      ‘I have no idea.’ He spoke deceptively low, the hard determination of his jaw belying that tone. ‘Tell me.’

      It was a command, not a request, and Joanna knew it. If only she hadn’t upset that medicine bottle!

      ‘It wasn’t drugs, was it, Joanna?’ he rasped at her continued silence.

      ‘Drugs?’ she repeated astoundedly, her eyes wide with indignation at the suggestion.

      ‘You’ve been very withdrawn lately—–’

      ‘Not because I’m some sort of pill-popper!’ She was outraged even at the thought of it.

      Joshua sighed. ‘I didn’t mean those sort of drugs. I know you weren’t sleeping well several months ago, I wondered if you were still taking something to help you sleep.’

      ‘And then something to help me wake up again, and something else to give me a little energy, and then—–’

      ‘That will do, Joanna!’ he told her coldly, only the erratic pulse in his jaw telling of his own rising anger. ‘I wasn’t implying that at all. I simply wondered if you were taking the sleeping tablets the doctor gave you.’

      ‘No, I’m not. But I was looking for some pills,’ she met his gaze with defiant challenge. ‘My birth-control pills!’

      For a moment he looked stunned, then his expression became as deadpan as usual. ‘You’re still taking those?’ he bit out.

      ‘Yes.’

      ‘Why?’

      She gasped. ‘Because—Well, because we’re married. And—–’

      ‘And we haven’t slept together in months,’ he derided with bitterness, walking to the bedroom door in long strides. ‘Or is it years?’ he muttered as he left the room.

      Joanna fell back against the pillows with an anguished groan, relieved that Joshua hadn’t pursued the subject any further.

      It wasn’t years since they had made love, but it was almost a year since Joshua had even wanted to try to make love to her!

       CHAPTER TWO

      POOR Joshua, he should never have had a wife like her; he would probably never have even considered it if she hadn’t pursued him so relentlessly, would probably never even have noticed her if she hadn’t made sure he had.

      The holiday in Canada with her parents had been part of a few months’ holiday together before she went to finishing school in Switzerland during the summer, her mother insisting that she had to learn to ski before she went there, sure that all the other girls would be able to do so and Joanna would feel the odd one out.

      So while her mother and father spent the days with another couple they had befriended at the ski complex in Banff, Joanna spent her days travelling up to the nearby Mount Norquay learning to ski on the nursery slopes.

      The first few days were great fun, spent with a family of five, two teenage girls, a boy, and their parents as they too attempted to find their feet in the skis that seemed to have a life of their own. They all had a hilarious time, and it wasn’t until her parents asked how she was getting on that Joanna realised she should get down to some serious lessons.

      After that her progression was very rapid, and after the first week she was more than ready to progress from the real beginners’ slopes to the longer more interesting runs.

      Her speedy grasp of the sport might have had something to do with the rather handsome instructor she had, the two of them often meeting in the cafeteria for lunch even after she didn’t need his teaching any more.

      And then she had seen Joshua, had