Disgrace and Desire. Sarah Mallory

have the sawbones patch you up—’

      The glazed eyes seemed to clear and gain focus as he looked at Jack.

      ‘Not enough left to patch,’ he gasped. ‘No, Jack, listen to me! One more thing—do I still have my hand?’

      Jack glanced at the mangled mess of blood and bone that was his left side.

      ‘Aye, you do.’

      ‘Good. Can you take my ring? And the locket—on a ribbon about my neck. Take ’em back to my wife, will you? In person, Jack. I’ll not trust these damned carriers with anything so dear. Take ’em now, my friend.’ He gritted his teeth against the pain as he struggled to pull a silk ribbon from beneath his jacket.

      ‘Be assured, Tony, I’ll deliver them in person,’ said Jack quietly, easing the ring from the bloodied little finger.

      Allyngham nodded.

      ‘I’m obliged to you.’ He closed his eyes. ‘Good woman, Eloise. Very loyal. Deserved better. Tell her—’ He broke off, wincing. He clutched at Jack’s hand again. ‘Tell her to be happy.’

      Jack dropped the locket and the ring into his pocket and carefully buttoned the flap.

      ‘I will, you have my word. And if there is anything I can do to help Lady Allyngham, be sure I shall do it.’

      ‘Thank you. Mortimer will look after her while she is in mourning but after that, keep an eye on her for me, Jack. She’s such an innocent little thing.’

      A sudden shout went up. Jack looked up. For the past few moments he had been oblivious of the noise of the battle raging around him. Allyngham opened his eyes.

      ‘What is it, why are they shouting?’

      All around them the men were beginning to cheer.

      ‘The French are in retreat,’ said Jack, his voice not quite steady.

      Allyngham nodded, his cracked lips stretching into a smile.

      ‘Damnation, I knew the Duke would do it.’ He waved his hand. ‘Go now, Major. Go and do your duty. My men will look after me here.’

      An ensign at his side nodded.

      ‘Aye, we’ll take care of him, sir,’ he said, tears in his eyes. ‘You may be sure we won’t leave him.’

      Jack looked down at the pain-racked face. Lord Allyngham gave a strained smile and said, ‘Off you go, my friend.’

      Jack rose and followed his men down the hill in pursuit of the French, who were now in full flight.

      ‘Steady, lads,’ he called, drawing his sword. ‘We’ll chase ’em all the way to Paris!’

      In the drawing room of Allyngham Park, Eloise stood by one of the long windows, gazing out across the park, but the fine view swam before her eyes. There were two sheets of paper clutched in her hand and she glanced down at them before placing them upon the console table beside her. It would be useless to try to read while her eyes were so full of tears. She took out her handkerchief. It was already damp and of little use in drying her cheeks.

      ‘Mr Mortimer, my lady.’

      At the butler’s solemn pronouncement she turned to see Alex Mortimer standing in the doorway. His naturally fair countenance was paler than ever and there was a stricken look in his eyes.

      ‘You have heard?’ She forced the words out.

      ‘Yes.’ He pulled a letter from his pocket. ‘I came over as soon as this arrived. I am so very sorry.’

      With a cry she flew across the room and threw herself upon his chest.

      ‘Oh Alex, he is d-dead,’ she sobbed. ‘What are we going to do?’

      She felt a shudder run through him. For a long while they sat on the sofa with their arms around each other. The shadows lengthened in the room and at last Eloise gently released herself.

      ‘It says he d-died at the end of the day, and…and he knew that the battle was won.’ She dabbed at her eyes with the edge of the fine linen fichu that covered her shoulders.

      ‘Then at least he knew he had not died in vain.’ Alex had turned away but she knew he, too, was wiping away the tears. ‘I had the news from a Major Clifton. He enclosed Tony’s last message to me.’

      Eloise rose and took a deep breath, striving for some semblance of normality. She walked over to pick up the papers.

      ‘Yes, that is the name here, too. He says Tony gave him our letters to send on.’ She swallowed painfully. ‘Tony knew what danger he was facing. He…he wrote to say goodbye to us.’

      Alex nodded. ‘He bids me look after you, until you marry again.’

      ‘Oh.’ Eloise put her hands over her face. ‘I shall never marry again,’ she said at last.

      Alex put his hands on her shoulders.

      ‘Elle, you do not know that.’

      ‘Oh, I do,’ she sobbed, ‘I doubt there is another man in the world as good, and kind, and generous as Tony Allyngham.’

      ‘How can I disagree with that?’ He gave her a sad little smile. ‘And yet you are young, too young to bury yourself away here at Allyngham.’

      She held up Tony’s last letter.

      ‘He has asked me to ensure that our plans for the foundling hospital go ahead. You will remember we discussed it just before he left for Brussels.’ She sighed. ‘How typical that when he was facing such danger Tony should think of others.’

      He took her hand, saying gently, ‘My dear, you will be able to do nothing until the formalities are complete. You will need to summon your man of business, and notify everyone.’

      ‘Yes, yes.’ She clutched his fingers. ‘You will help me, will you not, Alex? You won’t leave me?’

      He patted her hand.

      ‘No, I won’t leave. How could I, when my heart is here?’

      Chapter One

      It was more than a year after the decisive battle at Waterloo that Jack Clifton returned to England. As he rode away from his comrades and the army, which had been his life for more than a decade, there were two commissions that he had assigned himself before he could attend to his own affairs. One was to return Allyngham’s ring and locket to his widow, but first he would make a trip to a small country churchyard in Berkshire.

      The little village outside Thatcham was deserted and there was no one to see the dusty traveller tie his horse to the gatepost of the churchyard. Jack shrugged off his greatcoat and threw it over the saddle. The rain that had accompanied him all the way from the coast had eased and now a hot September sun blazed overhead. He strode purposefully between the graves until he came to a small plot in one corner, shaded by the overhanging beech trees. The grave was marked only by a headstone. There were no flowers on the grassy mound and he was momentarily surprised, then his lip curled.

      ‘Who is there but me to mourn your passing?’ he muttered.

      He knelt beside the grave, gently placing a bunch of white roses against the headstone.

      ‘For you, Clara. I pray you are at peace now.’

      He rose, removed his hat and stood, bareheaded in the sun for a few moments then, squaring his shoulders, he turned away from the grave and set his mind towards London.

      Eloise clutched at her escort’s arm as they entered Lady Parham’s crowded reception rooms.

      ‘I am glad you are with me, Alex, to give me courage.’

      ‘You have never wanted courage, Elle.’

      She managed one speaking look at him before she turned to greet her hostess,