Her Convenient Husband's Return. Eleanor Webster

know I have never been bound by custom.’

      That much was true. If custom were to prevail she should be housebound, dependent on servants. Instead, she rode about her estate on that tiny horse and ran Jamie’s house and even aspects of the estate with admirable efficiency.

      He forced his mind to shift. He was not here to analyse the woman who was his wife in name only, but to bury his brother ‘in name only.’ Efficiency was essential. He must take whatever steps were needed to cut his ties with the estate. To stay here was torture. Graham Hill was everything he had loved, everything he had taken for granted as his birth right and everything which had been ripped from him.

      For a moment, he let his gaze wander over the familiar hall with the huge stone fireplace and dark beams criss-crossing the high arched ceiling. He had been back maybe five times since he had learned the truth, since he had learned that he was not really Rendell Graham, the legitimate child of Marcus Graham.

      Instead, he was the bastard offspring of a mediocre portrait painter.

      Abruptly, he turned back to Beth. ‘I will let you and Jamie know the time for the service,’ he said brusquely.

      ‘Thank you.’

      For a moment she did not move. Her mouth opened slightly. She bit her lower lip. Her hand reached up to him. She ran her fingers across his cheek as she used to do. The touch was both familiar, but infinitely different. The moment stilled.

      ‘You do not always have to be strong and brave,’ she said.

      His lips twisted. He thought of his life in London, of the stupid bets and nights obliterated by alcohol.

      ‘I’m not,’ he said.

       Chapter Three

      Beth sat beside the fire. It crackled, the snap of the flames tangling with the rhythmic tick of the mantel clock. She rubbed her hands with a dry chafing sound. She felt chilled, despite the spring season.

      Jamie would be home soon. He would come in and talk crops and science in his single-minded manner.

      And she would tell him about Edmund.

      In many ways, Edmund had been his only friend; they had shared a fascination with science. Granted, Edmund had been older and more interested in mechanised invention than seeds, but there had been similarities in their minds and intellects.

      And now, she must tell him about Edmund’s death. Strange how someone remains alive until one is told otherwise. Edmund was still alive to Jamie and would remain alive until she told him he was not. In many ways it made her the executioner.

      Beth stood, too restless to be contained within the easy chair. She paced the seven steps to the window. She thought of Ren. He and Edmund had been inseparable as children—although he had spent little enough time here since. Her heart hurt for him, but she also felt anger. Why had he turned so resolutely against Graham Hill? How had London’s lure become so strong for the boy she used to know?

      She remembered the four of them scrambling across the countryside. Well, Jamie and Edmund would scramble. She would often sit while Ren painted. She’d hear the movement of his brush strokes across the canvas, mixed with myriad woodland sounds; water, birds, bees, leaves... And Ren would describe everything: puffy clouds resembling sheep before shearing, streams dancing with the tinkling of harpsichords and tiny snowdrops hidden under the bushes like shy maidens.

      Yet now Ren was at the big house with a mother he did not like.

      Alone.

      He no longer painted. He no longer liked the country. If gossip was true, his life in London was dissolute.

      ‘Arnold said you needed to speak to me.’

      She startled at Jamie’s voice, wheeling from the window.

      ‘Yes. I need to tell—’

      ‘I know about Edmund,’ he said.

      ‘You do?’ She exhaled, both relieved that she need not tell him and guilty that she had not been the one to do so.

      ‘Lady Graham’s maid told the whole staff. Should not have enlisted. Tried to talk sense into him.’

      She heard the wheeze of cushioning as her brother threw himself heavily into his chair.

      ‘He never was the same after Mirabelle died,’ she said.

      ‘Still had the land.’

      Beth permitted herself a sad half-smile. For Jamie, the land, the scientific pursuit of hardy crops and livestock would always be sufficient. There was an invulnerability about him that she envied.

      ‘So Ren is Lord Graham now,’ Jamie said.

      ‘Yes.’

      He made a grumbling sound. ‘I hope he intends to take his responsibilities seriously. No more capering about. He’ll have to spend more time here.’

      ‘I guess—’ she said jerkily.

      His words startled her. She had not thought of this and felt that quick mix of emotion too tangled to properly discern: a jumble of breathless disorientation; anticipation and apprehension.

      ‘He may not want to,’ she said.

      ‘Must. His responsibility now,’ Jamie said. ‘Wonder what he knows about seeds?’

      ‘Not much. London isn’t big on seeds.’ She gave a half-smile that felt more like a stifled sob.

      ‘Guess I could teach him.’

      Beth nodded. The young boy she had known would have needed no convincing. He had loved the estate from its every aspect. He’d loved the tenants, the fields, the animals.

      But the man—her husband—did not.

      * * *

      The morning of the memorial dawned clear. Beth could feel the sun’s warmth through the window pane. She was glad it was sunny. Edmund had liked the sun.

      She’d visited Graham Hill the previous day, but neither Ren nor his mother had been available, so she had returned with the nebulous feeling that she ought to do something more.

      That was the thing about this marriage: it had brought them no closer. There had been no return of their former friendship, no occasional visits, no notes from London, laughter or pleasant strolls.

      With Mirabelle’s death, she’d taken on more duties on the Graham estate but with a confused uncertainty, unsure if she was a family member helping out or a neighbour overstepping.

      Now she wondered if she should go to Graham Hill prior to the service? Or merely join Ren at the church? Likely he’d prefer to ignore her or have her sit like a stranger. But the tenants would not.

      Fortunately, the arrival of a curt missive from Graham Hill settled this dilemma. Jamie read the abrupt note which stated only that the Graham carriage would collect them so that she could attend the service with her husband.

      ‘Indeed, that is only logical. It would be foolish to bring out both carriages to go to the same location,’ he concluded in his blunt sensible manner as though practicality was the only issue at stake.

      Husband. It had been so much easier to cope with a husband when he remained unseen in London. Then she had been able to think of that quick ceremony as a dream or an episode from a past life with little impact on her present. Indeed, he had felt less absent miles away than now when she knew they were within half a mile of each other, shared a common grief, but were as remote as two islands separated by an ocean.

      Of course, his instant removal the day of the marriage service had hurt. She remembered listening to the fast trot of his fashionable curricle down the drive at Allington with a confused mix of pain, relief, embarrassment.

      But truthfully, relief