Call Me Evil, Let Me Go. Sarah Jones

      Call Me Evil, Let Me Go

      A Mother’s Struggle to Save Her Children from a Brutal Religious Cult

      Sarah Jones

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      This book is based on the author’s experiences. In order to protect privacy, names, identifying characteristics, dialogue and details have been changed or reconstructed.

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      ISBN 9780007433568

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      To all my beautiful children and to all the broken

       lives that cults have left in their wake

      Contents

      Copyright

      Chapter 1

      Shocking Revelations

      Chapter 2

      My Family and I

      Chapter 3

      My Life Is Turned Upside Down

      Chapter 4

      Handed Over to Tadford

      Chapter 5

      All Work and No Play

      Chapter 6

      Teenage Marriage

      Chapter 7

      Traumas of a Young Mother

      Chapter 8

      The Church Demands

      Chapter 9

      My Eyes Are Opened

      Chapter 10

      Escape

      Chapter 11

      Starting Again

      Chapter 12

      A Roller-coaster Ride

      Chapter 13

      On Trial

      Chapter 14

      A Family Reunited

      Chapter 15

      Looking Back

      Afterword

       Exclusive sample chapter

      Useful Contacts

      Credits

      About the Publisher

      Chapter 1

      Shocking Revelations

      The phone rang just as I started cooking spaghetti bolognese for the children’s tea. It was the junior-school head. Even though she knew me well her voice sounded harsh, cold, and formal and my heart immediately started pounding. I could sense that I was in for a telling-off. Again. Without any preamble she said that my son Paul had been very naughty at school that afternoon. He had been messing around with some other boys after football, throwing the caked mud that had collected on their boots everywhere and, worst of all, he had even thrown a piece into another boy’s face, cutting him slightly and making him cry. She told me I had to ‘deal with him’ at home.

      I thought her formality was a bit over the top and asked if there had been any teachers in the changing room while this was going on. She admitted there hadn’t been, and I thought to myself that it wasn’t too much to worry about and that boys will be boys. Even so, I was gripped with tension. I knew only too well that being told to ‘deal with him’ was an unspoken order to smack Paul. He, along with his sister Rebecca and his brothers Luke and Daniel, went to Tadford School, a small establishment that belonged to Tadford Charismatic Church in the south of England.

      The Charismatic movement is not a church in itself, but includes many different churches. Its members believe that faith must be deeply felt rather than just experienced through ritual. Tadford was under the overall control of its founder and pastor, Ian Black, and was unlike any other church. He was a controversial, powerful, supremely confident man who regularly preached that it was important to break a child’s will early and believed in corporal punishment.

      I had grown used to being told what to do by the Church leaders, and especially Ian Black, ever since my parents had placed me in their care years earlier, when I was in my mid-teens. I’d been desperate not to be uprooted from my family home in a small market town in the Pennines, to board at Tadford, as it was far too far away from family and friends, but my well-meaning parents, particularly my mother Pamela, were worried that what they saw as my increasingly rebellious teenage behaviour meant I was on a slippery downward path. They believed that a school with strict religious guidelines, firm discipline and an inflexible routine would do me good.

      Although my feisty spirit had largely been squashed over the years, it had never quite been extinguished and I had a reputation for not always toeing the line. But the phone call on that cold November evening shook me to the core and I was anxious to get away. ‘OK, I’ll deal with it’, I said, then put down the phone.

      I knew the head was right, in that Paul had been naughty, but I thought it was just the sort of silly thing a boy of his age might do, especially when no teacher was present. I also wondered why I hadn’t been told about it when I collected Paul from school. I glanced at my watch. It was just after 5 p.m. I knew I had better sort Paul out before my husband Peter came home from work as he was likely to be far tougher on Paul than I would be.

      I called Paul. ‘Will you come into Mummy and Daddy’s bedroom, please,’ I said, trying not to let my anxiety show in my voice. ‘I want to speak to you.’ I didn’t want to punish him in front of his siblings.

      Paul was struggling with his homework in the bedroom he had to share with Rebecca. He had dysgraphia, a writing disorder, and the help the school had given him had, six months earlier, suddenly been withdrawn without warning or explanation, and as a result he was finding schoolwork much harder.

      I told him about the phone call, and he admitted that he, along with some of his friends, had been silly. It wasn’t, he insisted, just his fault. I listened carefully to his explanation and told him he had been naughty. I then pulled down his trousers and underpants and gave him two quick smacks with my hand on his bare bottom. After that I cuddled him tightly, pleased that he didn’t cry. I hated smacking him, but I knew that if I didn’t Peter would and