Standing In The Shadows. Shannon McKenna

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      BODY AND SOUL

      Erin stared straight up into his face and drank in all the details: the sheen of beard stubble glinting metallic gold in the light from the corridor outside. The shadows beneath his brilliant eyes, the sharp line of his jutting cheekbones. How was it possible for a mouth to be so stern, and yet so sensual?

      And his piercing eyes saw right into her soul.

      She lost herself in it. She wanted to touch his face, to trail her fingers over every masculine detail, to feel the warmth of his skin. She wanted to press herself against his lean, solid bulk. She wished she had something to feed him, whether he was hungry or not.

      Connor reached behind himself and shoved the door shut without breaking eye contact. She needed so badly for someone to know how lonely and lost she felt. Her mother was adrift in despair. Most of her friends were avoiding her. Not out of unkindness so much as sheer embarrassment, she suspected. But that didn’t help the loneliness.

      Connor saw it all, and it didn’t embarrass him. His gaze didn’t shy away. She didn’t shy away, either, when he reached for her.

      His touch was so careful and delicate, she could barely believe it was happening. Her eyes welled up. He smoothed away the tears that spilled over with a brush of his thumb, and folded her into his arms.

      SHANNON MCKENNA

      STANDING IN THE SHADOWS

      KENSINGTON PUBLISHING CORP.

       http://www.kensingtonbooks.com

      For Nicola ti amo

      Contents

      Prologue

      Chapter1

      Chapter2

      Chapter3

      Chapter4

      Chapter5

      Chapter6

      Chapter7

      Chapter8

      Chapter9

      Chapter10

      Chapter11

      Chapter12

      Chapter13

      Chapter14

      Chapter15

      Chapter16

      Chapter17

      Chapter18

      Chapter19

      Chapter20

      Chapter21

      Chapter22

      Chapter23

      Chapter24

      Chapter25

      Chapter26

      Prologue

      The windowless room was dark. The only light came from banks of machines that flickered, and made soft, intermittent beeping sounds.

      The door opened. A woman entered the room and flipped on a lamp. The light revealed a man who lay upon a narrow mattress made of high-tech black latex foam. His sallow, wasted body bristled with hair-fine needles attached to wires, which fed into the machines behind him.

      The woman shut and locked the door behind herself. She was middle-aged, dressed in a white lab coat, with steel-gray hair and an imposing jaw. Her thin lips were painted a bright, cruel red.

      She removed the needles from his body with movements both brisk and delicate. She anointed her hands with oil, breathed deeply, and performed preparatory energetic exercises to stimulate the power and heat in her large, thick-fingered hands. She then proceeded to massage him expertly, front and back, from his feet to his balding scalp. She massaged his face, her brow a scowling mask, fearsomely intent.

      That done, she took several blood samples. She measured his blood pressure, his pulse. She reapplied the complex pattern of needles, made adjustments in the machines. She replenished the nourishment and medications provided by the plastic bag that dangled from the IV rack. Then she cupped his face in her hands. She kissed him on both cheeks, then on his half-open mouth.

      The kiss was prolonged and passionate. When she lifted her head, her eyes were glowing, her face flushed. Her breath was rapid, and the marks of her lipstick against his pale skin made him look as if he had been bitten.

      She flicked off the light and left him, locking the door behind her.

      Once again, the darkness was broken only by colored lights that flickered and pulsed, and soft, intermittent beeping.

      Chapter

      1

      The silver cell phone that lay on the passenger seat of the beige Cadillac buzzed and vibrated, like a dying fly on a dusty windowsill.

      Connor slouched lower in the driver’s seat and contemplated it. Normal people were wired to grab the thing, check the number, and respond. In him, those wires were cut, that programming deleted. He stared at it, amazed at his own indifference. Or maybe amazed was too strong a word. Stupefied would be closer. Let it die. Five rings. Six. Seven. Eight. The cell phone persisted, buzzing angrily.

      It got up to fourteen, and gave up in disgust.

      He went back to staring at Tiff’s current love nest through the rain that trickled over the windshield. It was a big, ugly town house that squatted across the street. The world outside the car was a blurry wash of grays and greens. Lights still on in the second-floor bedroom. Tiff was taking her time. He checked his watch. She was usually a slam-bam, twenty-minutes-at-the-most sort of girl, but she’d gone up those stairs almost forty minutes ago. A record, for her.

      Maybe it was true love.

      Connor snorted to himself, hefting the heavy camera into place and training the telephoto lens on the doorway. He wished she’d hurry. Once he’d snapped the photos her husband had paid McCloud Investigative Services to get, his duty would be done, and he could crawl back under his rock. A dark bar and a shot of single malt, someplace where the pale gray daylight could not sting his eyes. Where he could concentrate on not thinking about Erin.

      He let the camera drop with a sigh, and pulled out his tobacco and rolling papers. After he’d woken up from the coma, during the agonizing tedium of rehab, he’d gotten the bright idea of switching to hand-rolled, reasoning that if he let himself roll them only with his fucked-up hand, he’d slow down and consequently smoke less. Problem was, he got good at it real fast. By now he could roll a tight cigarette in seconds flat with either hand, without looking. So much for that pathetic attempt at self-mastery.

      He rolled the cigarette on autopilot, eyes trained on the town house, and wondered idly who had called. Only three people had the number: his friend Seth, and his two brothers, Sean and Davy. Seth for sure had better things to do on a Saturday afternoon than call him. The guy was neck-deep in honeymoon bliss with Raine. Probably writhing in bed right now, engaged in sex acts that were still against the law somewhere in the southern states. Lucky bastard.

      Connor’s mouth twisted in self-disgust. Seth had suffered, too, from all the shit that had come down in the past few months. He was a good guy, and a true friend, if a difficult one. He deserved the happiness he’d found with Raine. It was unworthy of Connor to be envious, but Jesus. Watching those two, glowing like neon, joined at the hip, sucking on each other’s faces, well…it didn’t help.

      Connor wrenched his mind away from that dead-end track and stared at the cell phone. Couldn’t be Seth. He checked his watch. His younger brother Sean was at the dojo at this hour, teaching an afternoon kickboxing class. That left his