The Physics of Sorrow. Georgi Gospodinov

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      PRAISE FOR

      GEORGI GOSPODINOV

      “Gospodinov’s first novel blends the personal and the philosophical. . . . The resulting mixture is both earthy and intellectual.”

      —Guardian

      “With The Physics of Sorrow Gospodinov launches . . . himself into the premier league of European authors. . . . [Gospodinov] rises above the lowlands of novelistic commercialism and convention, saving not only himself, but literature as well—and with it, the entire world.”

      —New Journal of Zurich

      “Georgi Gospodinov wants to blow your mind. . . . The formal playfulness suggests Kundera with A.D.D.”

      —Village Voice

      “This book is madness. It is extraordinary and restless, reflective, terribly funny, jarring, as philosophical as it is poetic, microscopic and grandiose. In short: fantastic.”

      —Berliner Zeitung

      “Gospodinov’s novel, with its metafictional games, playful narrative fragmentation, and obligatory epigraph from Foucault, belongs more to the cosmopolitan postmodern aesthetic of Italo Calvino than its native locale.”

      —Believer

      ALSO BY

      GEORGI GOSPODINOV

       And Other Stories

       Natural Novel

      Copyright © 2011 by Georgi Gospodinov

      Translation copyright © 2015 by Angela Rodel

      First published in Bulgaria as Fizika na tagata by Janet 45 Publishing

      First edition, 2015

      All rights reserved

      Lines from Works and Days by Hesiod on p. 145 translated by Daryl Hine, University of Chicago Press.

      Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data: Available upon request.

      ISBN 978-1-940953-10-6

       This project is supported in part by an award from the National Endowment for the Arts. Additionally, Angela Rodel’s translation was supported by a National Endowment for the Arts Literature Translation Fellowship.

       Design by N. J. Furl

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      CONTENTS

EPIGRAPHY

PROLOGUE

I. THE BREAD OF SORROW

II. AGAINST AN ABANDONMENT: THE CASE OF M.

       III. THE YELLOW HOUSE

       IV. TIME BOMB (TO BE OPENED AFTER THE END OF THE WORLD)

       V. THE GREEN BOX

       VI. THE STORY BUYER

       VII. GLOBAL AUTUMN

       VIII. AN ELEMENTARY PHYSICS OF SORROW

       IX. ENDINGS

       EPILOGUE

EPIGRAPHY

       O mytho é o nada que é tudo.¹

      —F. Pessoa, Mensagem

       There is only childhood and death. And nothing in between . . .

      —Gaustine, Selected Autobiographies

       The world is no longer magical. You have been abandoned.

      —Borges, 1964

       . . . And I enter the fields and spacious halls of memory, where are stored as treasures the countless images . . .

      —Saint Augustine, Confessions, Book X

       Only the fleeting and ephemeral are worth recording.

      —Gaustine, The Forsaken Ones

       I feel a longing to fly, to swim, to bark, to bellow, to howl. I would like to have wings, a tortoise-shell, a rind, to blow out smoke, to wear a trunk, to twist my body, to spread myself everywhere, to be in everything, to emanate with odors, to grow like plants, to flow like water . . . to penetrate every atom, to descend to the very depths of matter—to be matter.

      —Gustave Flaubert, The Temptation of St. Anthony

       . . . mixing

       memory and desire . . .

      —T. S. Eliot, The Waste Land

       Purebred genres don’t interest me much. The novel is no Aryan.

      —Gaustine, Novel and Nothingness

       If the reader prefers, this book may be taken as fiction . . .

      —Ernest Hemingway, A Moveable Feast

       1 Myth is the nothing that is everything.

PROLOGUE

      I was born at the end of August 1913 as a human being of the male sex. I don’t know the exact date. They waited a few days to see whether I would survive and then put me down in the registry. That’s what they did with everyone. Summer work was winding down, they still had to harvest this and that from the fields, the cow had calved, they were fussing over her. The Great War was about to start. I sweated through it right alongside all the other childhood illnesses, chicken pox, measles, and so on.

      I was born two hours before dawn like a fruit fly. I’ll die this evening after sundown.

      I was born on January 1, 1968, as a human being of the male sex. I remember all of 1968 in detail from beginning to end. I don’t remember anything of the year we’re in now. I don’t even know its number.

      I have always been born. I still remember the beginning of the Ice Age and the end of the Cold War. The sight of the dying dinosaurs (in both epochs) is one of the most unbearable things I have seen.

      I haven’t been born yet. I am forthcoming. I am minus seven months old. I don’t know how to count that negative time in the womb. I am as big as an olive, weighing a gram and a half. They still don’t know my sex. My tail is gradually retracting. The animal in me is taking leave, waving at me with its vanishing tail. Looks like I’ve been chosen for a human being. It’s dark and cozy here, I’m tied to something that moves.

      I